Helpmesavemeimdyingmylifeflashesthroughmyeadiseeetatiaceivedsolittleicouldavebeensomuchmorewhywasn'timore?howcaniaskmyselfmorehell,imdyingillbegonesoonandallthosearoundmewilllongformetoreturnidefinitelyneedtolowermyopinionofmyselfinmyeyestheyllprobablybeecstaticthatimgonethatsonelesspersontoworryabouthowcouldihaveeverthoughtimeantsomethingmorethananallytothematleastimmakingsomeoneelsehappyamimakingmyselfhappytoonowthAtithinkofitiamreallythisworldissofullofmiseryatleastillhavesomepeacewereeverigonextwherewilligonextnotheavenimnotgoodenoughforthereimjustsogladtoescapethephysicalworldnowimeannowthatithinkofitwhodwanttostaythereitssounsettlingithinkilllikeitbetterwhereveriendupsolong-
A/N: For those who don't want to spend their lives trying to understand textlikethis, I translated it below:
Help-me-save-me-I'm-dying-my-life-flashes-through-my-head-I-see-that-I-acheived-so-little-I-could-have-been-so-much-more-why-wasn't-I-more?-how-can-I-ask-myself-more-hell,-I'm-dying-I'll-be-gone-soon-and-all-those-around-me-will-long-for-me-to-return-I-definitely-need-to-lower-my-opinion-of-myself-in-my-eyes-they'll-probably-be-ecstatic-that-I'm-gone-that's-one-less-person-to-worry-about-how-could-I-have-ever-thought-I-meant-something-more-than-an-ally-to-them-at-least-im-making-someone-else-happy-am-I-making-myself-happy-too-now-thAt-I-think-of-it-I-am-really-this-world-is-so-full-of-misery-at-least-ill-have-some-peace-wereever-I-go-next-where-will-I-go-next-not-heaven-im-not-good-enough-for-there-I'm-just-so-glad-to-escape-the-physical-world-now-I'm-free-now-that-I-think-of-it-who'd-want-to-stay-there-its-so-unsettling-I-think-I'll-like-it-better-wherever-I-end-up-so-long-