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Dedicated to:
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and to tell you the truth, you're really a great writer yourself!!! I really
love your poems and this particular story where in there's no Hogwarts…
and everything Harry has ever known was a dream… that was absolutely depressing!!!
More depressing than this story…!!!)
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Disclaimer: NOPE! Not mine… only the plot…
Summary: Draco is dying, he only has a year left to live and no amount of magic can save him. Now Draco promises to change- to make his few months of living filled with laughter instead of tears. Will be D/Hr, sooner or later. R&r please.
Synopsis: Another school year starts and
still no one knows Draco's secret… Hermione's going crazy because of her
morbid dreams…
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Chapter 6: Parchment and Quill
She was there, in a cozy hospital room, holding his hands. Afraid that if she'd let go of it, she'll never feel him. Never touch him. She was scared... So… so scared. Small tears leaked out from her eyes but she quickly wiped it away. "I won't cry!!" she stated firmly to herself. She had to be strong, she just have to. Even though she knew in her heart that he'll leave her soon. "Don't leave me…" she whispered silently as she stared at his angelic yet tranquil face. "Stay with me… please…"
Hermione gently lifted his hands and held it against her cheeks. Tiny drop of tears fell down and pelted in his hands. He was sleeping peacefully while Hermione was going crazy. She was scared of losing him. Scared that he won't wake up. Scared that he wouldn't last the day… Hermione closed her eyes and a lot of tears leaked out. Her heart was breaking, slowly and painfully...
"I love you…" she whispered, her eyes still closed. "I love you…So.. so… much…" Another tear slid down her face. "Don't ever forget that…"
Hermione opened her eyes and stared yet again at his peaceful form. His angelic face was smiling contentedly. In his face it was evident that he was happy. She smiled at him, delighted that he was contented. "I love you…" she whispered again. Hermione looked away for a moment and stared at her surroundings. The room smelled like potions and antiseptics. And in the room small beeps can be heard. Sounds from a heart monitor near his bed. The room was full of both muggle curing machines and wizard potions. His case was critical that they needed the muggle's medical customs for his health.
Hermione looked at the heart monitor before glancing back at him. She lowered his hands and placed it in the bed. She sat beside him and gently stroked his hair. "I don't know what I'll do when you're gone…" she whispered hoarsely. "Please don't leave me... not yet…" She leaned forward and gently kissed him on the lips. Hoping that it won't be the last. She pulled back and continued stroking his hair. She closed her eyes once again and was listening to the rhythmic beeps of the heart monitor when it suddenly emitted a high-pitch whine.
Hermione's eyes popped open and she bolted upright. She stared at the dark green flat line on the machine. Her heart was pounding fast. "Oh no!! I'm losing him…!!!" She thought in panic. "Oh no!! Somebody please help me!!!" she shouted.
"Oh no!! Oh No!!! please wake up!!!" She whispered pleadingly. "Please wake up!!! Open you eyes… please!!!"
A few mediwizards and muggle doctors rushed inside the room and moved Hermione aside. All were examining him, checking his pulse and any vital signs… But there was none… No pulse, no vital signs, he was gone…
"No way…" Hermione said simply.
"No way…!! He can't be..!! NOOOOOO!!!"
"NOOOOO!!!!" Hermione shouted as she sat up straight on her bed. Parvati and Lavender were both there beside her bed all looking worriedly at her.
"You finally woke up!!…" Lavender said in a small voice. "We've been waking you up…! You we're crying while sleeping…"
"Hermione!!!" Parvati sat beside her and hugged her. "We were so worried… are you okay?"
Hermione sobbed on Parvati's shoulder. She couldn't take it anymore. She has to share this to someone. She was so confused. Her heart was still pounding painfully.
Parvati patted Hermione's back gently while Lavender joined in and hugged Hermione. "It's okay Herm… Whatever that was… It was only a dream…"
"Ya Herm… we're here for you… so if there's a problem, we will listen to you" Lavender said softly.
Hermione pulled back while wiping her eyes. She was going to open up to them or else she'll go crazy. She had never shared her morbid dreams to anyone. Not even to Harry, Ron or her own mother. They wouldn't understand her. No one could but nevertheless she took a deep breathe. "I can't take this anymore…" she started. "I couldn't concentrate on anything because of this dreams…"
Lavender and Parvati both patted Hermione's back gently. "Go on… we're listening…"
"For the past 2 months…" she continued. "I've been dreaming about someone… A guy that I really, really love and that he was dying in front of me…"
Lavender gasp and stood up. Parvati patted Hermione once more. "Go on…" she said.
Hermione took a deep breath and exhaled it slowly before continuing. "I can't take it anymore! I can't even share this to either Harry or Ron because they we're also in the dream."
"What were they doing in the dream?" Lavender asked.
"They we're pulling me away from the coffin…" Hermione answered. "But I don't want them to…"
"What was the scenery? Cold, Rainy morning? Or cold, rainy afternoon?" Lavender asked again.
Hermione paused and tried to recall her first dream. She could feel her heart pounding painfully again. Parvati noticed this and patted her again. "In order to ease the pain you're feeling… you have to let it out…" she said with certainty.
Hermione nodded. "It was rainy and afternoon… I think.."
"The people around you… who are they? What we're they doing?" Lavender asked while jotting down everything Hermione was saying.
"Umm… Lavender…" Hermione asked, puzzled. "What are you doing?"
Lavender put the piece of parchment and paper down and smiled at Hermione. "Well, Hermione… Do you happen to remember what my favorite subject is…"
"No." she said softly.
"Well… since you have forgotten, I have lots and lots of books about divination. I might find the answers and the meaning of your dreams…" Lavender said cautiously.
"Not that stup-" Hermione started but Lavender immediately butted in. "Please consider Hermione… I know you don't like the subject but it might help you…"
Hermione knew they we're doing this to help her. So, although she didn't believe divination, she nodded. "Okay.."
Parvati smiled at Hermione. "Well Herm, there is another way to ease the pain and would make Lavender's job easier."
"What is it?" She asked quietly.
"Write your dreams down… And never ever try to forget your dreams…" she said.
"Why shouldn't I forget my dreams?" Hermione asked again.
Parvati sighed. "I know you don't believe about stuffs in divination but…"
"But what?" Hermione asked again.
"Sometimes, dreams are intuitions… A second sight. It has many forms and symbolism. Sometimes it's entirely the opposite of the real meaning or sometimes it is actually what's going to happen."
"Parvati stop it… you're scaring me!" Hermione said pleadingly. "I don't like these dreams to happen!!"
"Us too…" She said softly. "Oh.. and Hermione, whoever that was… in your dreams…"
"Who?" Hermione asked, afraid to listen.
"The one dying…" Parvati answered softly. "Find him before it's too late…"
"Stop it!!! Just forget the whole thing!!" Hermione said irritated. Even though she knew they were helping her, they're more like scaring her.
"We're sorry. It's not that we are scaring you or anything." Lavender said softly. "Well… here Hermione…" she got a metallic, hard bound notebook and gave it to her. "Write it down and forget your dream…"
"Lavender! She shouldn't forget her dream!" Parvati said loudly.
"I know. But if she'll write it down, she can forget her dream and we'll recollect her dream for her…" Lavender answered.
Hermione nodded. "Okay… I'll write everything down… you do that for me…" she smiled. "Thanks…"
"No problem…" they said together. Hermione looked at her digital clock beside her bed. It read 3 a.m. She faced them. "Parvati, Lavender… I'm okay now, you can go back to sleep…"
They both nodded and went to their respective beds. Hermione stared at the notebook and smoothed its surface. She got out of her bed and sat at her desk. She got her quill and her bottle of ink, smoothed the surface of the notebook once more, before writing down her dream.
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Draco was sitting on his desk, staring absent-mindedly on the pain killers he was holding. He was tired, confused, everything. He couldn't sleep. He couldn't concentrate. A lot of thoughts we're swirling in his brain. For the first time in his life, he felt scared. Scared of being alone. Scared of dying alone. Scared that his time was short. Scared for his mother. He placed the pills on his table and got a slightly crumpled parchment that was beside his desk. It was a calendar. He flattened the parchment with his hand and started crossing out the days that have passed. The doctors and mediwizards have said that he has a year left to live… January of that year included. Meaning he only had 4 months left or maybe shorter. It was already September and he guessed he'll die at mid-December or even earlier.
"Damn it!! I don't deserve this!!!" Draco shouted suddenly. His voice echoing in the room. "If someone deserve this kind of fate, then it's my father…"
He felt an overwhelming anger and annoyance. He hated everyone. He hated his failing health. He hated his father. He hated the world. He hated everything.
He closed his eyes and tried to calm himself. "If only there was someone who'll help me through this…" he said to himself. "Someone who'll never leave me… Someone who'll love me…" He felt lonely. He felt empty. He slowly opened his eyes and got a new piece of parchment, quill and a bottle of ink. He was going to write a list. A list he'll attain before he run out of time. He dipped his quill in his bottle of ink and legibly wrote :
1. Win all quidditch games.
2. Find someone who'll take good care
of my mother.
3. Beat Granger and be the top of the
class.
4. Kick Mrs. Norris.
5. Get in trouble and go to the Forbidden
forest one last time.
He paused for a moment and thought about doing something he never done before. He dipped his quill once more and continued writing on his list.
6. Leave Potter, Weasley and Granger
alone.
7. Mind my own business.
8. Be nice to others.
9. Respect everyone.
He stared at the list for a moment. He's not sure whether he'll do the last 4 but he'll try. He read and reread his list. He still need one more deed. He strained his memory for something he should do that he never had done before. He closed his eyes and remembered what Dr. Simms had said during his first check up with him.
"Use this year wisely Draco… In this one year, you may be able to finish Hogwarts 6th year, and also…one year is enough to make your mistakes right, enough to make your life meaningful, enough time to think, enough time to do all the things you want to do and-"
"What?" Draco asked him, surprised that the doctor actually took his mocking question seriously" One year is enough to make it up to the ones you love…"
"Make it up to the ones you love…" Draco
repeated. "But I don't have any love ones beside my mother…" He
sighed. That was it. He dipped his quill in the bottle of ink, and neatly
wrote.
10. Find someone who'll love me…
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A/N: There finally… that was chapter 6…
*whew* this was long… 7 pages long!!! Sorry if it was corny or something…
Anyway… I'm also sorry for updating late. Well, last week was our exam
week and submission of all projects, lab reports, research paper, documentation,
everything!! I just couldn't write with all those deadlines and Aaahhhh!!!
That was absolutely stressing!!! Oh well… Let this chapter be a Christmas
present for all of you. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! Please review! No flames…
thanks!
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