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Do You Want Me?
By Louann1
Chapter 2: When I Make A Mistake
" Is anybody home?" Sakura called out as she entered the apartment with grocery bags. She waited a moment for a reply but none came. She closed the door behind her with her foot and continued to make her way to the kitchen. She hummed tunefully as the put the things away. It was her free period and so she didn't expect Syaoran to be home anyway. She looked at the empty brown paper bags and thought. She felt as if she had forgotten something. She dismissed the thought and went to watch TV. For an hour she didn't move from the spot, she just stared mindlessly at the screen and pushed a button on the remote occasionally. Soon it was time for Syaoran to come home. She hated having to think about it. She felt bad about treating him badly but it was something that he brought up in her. She let him sleep in a room and gave him money, things she was supposed to do anyway.
Syaoran arrived home and saw Sakura sleeping. He didn't want to disturb her. He didn't know what he felt anymore. He'd tried being nice so now he was giving her the silent treatment... Except he wasn't really being silent. More or less quieter than he normally was. He slipped past her, without a second thought, and went to his room.
He placed his bag carefully on his bed and sat on his swivel chair and began to work at his laptop. He rested his head on his hand as he waited for his laptop to load. He turned his head as he heard a creak coming from his door. Sakura popped her head through the small gap that was already there and entered. She closed the door behind her and sat on Syaoran's green bed.
" Hi... I didn't hear you come in..." Sakura smiled faintly. She sat awkwardly as she spoke to Syaoran who turned back to face his laptop.
" Well... I didn't want to wake you..." He replied in monotone.
" Oh... Thanks... I guess..."
" I didn't want to hear you complaining... But hey... We can all dream," Syaoran snapped.
Rudeness! Sakura thought. She'd never seen him like this before.
" That was uncalled for y'know," Sakura lay down on the bed.
" What are you doing?"
" I'm laying on your bed," Sakura looked up and around.
" And pray tell... Why?"
" Because I wanna see what it's like to be you," Sakura stated.
" Whatever..." Syaoran logged in and opened Internet access.
" So... What's it like?" Her tone was now harsh and cold.
" What?"
" Being you... What's it like being you?" Sakura repeated.
" You don't wanna know," Syaoran placed his hand on the touch pad and began to check his mail.
" Try me," Sakura sat up and looked emotionless. Whether or not Syaoran would answer that question puzzled her.
" I don't want to talk about it," Syaoran's eyes opened as he read an email.
" Aren't we mysterious all of a sudden?" Sakura smirked.
That was the last straw.
Syaoran slammed the laptop shut and tried to get out of the room.
The main word being TRIED.
" Dammit!" He yelled. " Look what you did now!"
" What!" Sakura snapped back. " Me? It's your room! It's not my fault that the door locked! You should've warned me!"
" Warned you?" Syaoran stood with his arms crossed. " It's your home! YOU should've warned me!"
" Whatever..." Sakura got up and walked to the door. " This needs a woman's touch, move out of the way, jerk."
Sakura grasped the cold knob in her hands and twisted it with all her might but her efforts were to avail.
" Sure, a real woman," Syaoran commented sarcastically.
" Fine..." Sakura went back to Syaoran's bed and lay down again.
Syaoran went back to his laptop and re-read the email and sighed.
" What's the matter?" Sakura asked concerned.
" Nothing..." Syaoran replied harshly.
" OK..."
" I can't stand this silence," Syaoran said as he pounded the door.
" Chill out..." Sakura said as she approached him. " Hey, stop that."
Sakura touched his arm to stop him. The door had dents in it already and Syaoran's hands were beginning to get bloody. As soon as she touched his muscular arm, Syaoran, in shock and as a quick reaction hit her.
Sakura fell to the ground. She touched her cheek it was hot and bleeding. Syaoran looked at her with stern eyes. He quickly took the box of tissues on her desk and handed it to her.
" Here..."
" ..." Sakura snatched the box and pulled out tissue after tissue and applied it carefully to her wound as she sat on his green bed.
" You OK?" Syaoran asked. His conscience screamed out at him, telling him to apologize but he ignored the words of wisdom.
" I'm fine," Sakura said confidently, trying to hold back her tears.
" I shouldn't have done that..." Syaoran admitted.
" Aren't you going to apologize?" Sakura asked with a hint of spite.
" For what?" Syaoran shrugged. He knew where this was going to.
" Just... Never mind... I'm okay now!" Sakura snapped back to her cheerful self. Somehow she didn't have the energy to be angry at Syaoran.
" You're much stronger than me..." Syaoran stroked Sakura's cut to ease the pain.
" What do you mean? You're the strongest person I know, you come out here to study on your own, your the only guy in the family, you put up with all the hassle from the other grads, I'd say that's pretty strong..."
" How did you know all of that?"
" I did some research. I thought that if I knew more about you then we'd get along better..." Sakura trailed, Syaoran was looking at her differently.
Syaoran leaned in to kiss her. It was only on the cheek but Sakura thought that it was sweet.
" What was that for?" She asked apprehensively.
" You forgot to buy the sticky tape didn't you?" Came Syaoran's reply.
" What are you-? Oh..." Sakura recalled Syaoran's request for sticky tape (for the door so it wouldn't lock), the image of the brown paper bag filled her mind. " I would apologize but seeing as you didn't for this," Sakura pointed at her cut. " Let's just say we're even."
She took some more tissues and dabbed Syaoran's bloody hands,
" I also learnt that you studied martial arts since the age of 4 and that you have no shame."
" Excuse me?"
" I mean... You're living with a girl and you didn't even ask for one of the single rooms which are left spare for emergencies..."
" I thought that living with someone would be better than living on my own. I thought that the change would be welcomed since that's all I've ever done since I arrived in Japan," Syaoran winced at the pain and propped his head against the wall as he sat next to her.
" You make it sound so sad..." Sakura began to pity him. " Syaoran?"
Sakura smiled as she watched Syaoran fall lifelessly to sleep. She hugged him gently, even if she wouldn't apologized for making a mistake she would give him a hug. She wrapped her arms around him watching his expression as she did so. He didn't really react, he just looked more peaceful. She suddenly felt all her energy being tapped out of her. Syaoran's warm breath on her face made her feel even more sleepier.
It was Syaoran who was the first to awake. He turned to his side and saw Sakura by his side with her arms around his waist. Things had most definitely changed between them. He couldn't help but feel that she was the hardest person to be angry at. There was just something about her that made you want to befriend her. He watched her as she sleep beside him. He looked at his watch and was surprised to find that the day had slipped away. Time with Sakura wasn't like time anywhere else. It managed to pass you quickly but you always got the feeling that you wanted it to last longer even if all you did was sleep. Syaoran stretched his legs. He was extremely cramped in the small space. He gently lifted Sakura and placed her on his bed while he turned to open the door. The door clicked open. Syaoran sighed, somehow the door was against him. He turned back at Sakura before exiting, then again, perhaps the door wasn't.