"You know, I've been thinking lately. Sometimes I find myself wondering about things, and how they aren't great, and then I feel guilty. After all, she wouldn't be thinking those types of thoughts, would she? She would smile and laugh and say 'oh silly, don't talk about such things! it doesn't matter if we don't have anything to eat, as long as we have each other.' but it does matter because we don't have each other and I'm hungry too, but not just for food even though a home cooked meal would be nice, without stopping to think about being chased by the Shinra."

"Yeah, I guess."

"What do you think she was thinking when she was killed? Do you think she thought oh god, there's a giant sword about to go through my stomach, i'll never finish what i set out to do now or i do hope someone remembers to water the flowers in my church or who's going to take care of my children when i'm gone? because after all, we were like her children, weren't we, or maybe she didn't have time to think at all and not even to scream, because after all she appeared I'm sure she was human."

"Don't --"

"Oh right of course, I forgot that she wasn't human exactly. But she sure had more human traits than any of us or than anybody else who even existed on this planet. Someone like that doesn't deserve to die, no matter for what cause and certainly not for a cause like his. I see it in my dreams and I see her and I see her pink dress that she loved and it's stained with blood just like it was and there's a hole in her chest where the sword is protruding through just like it was and you're crying just like you were but I'm laughing, I'm laughing, and it's just like he was laughing and somehow I feel happy because I'll have more now but more of what, I don't know, and I'm a horrible person and when I wake up I want to stab myself and crawl into a hole and die. Maybe she knew I couldn't do anything and she blames me and this is her way of punishing me because I'm sure she could do anything if she wanted to, even control dreams, and oh, you don't think she blames me, do you?"

"I… think…"

"What, what do you think? Please tell me please don't hide it for once."

"She wasn't the type to blame anyone. But I still… blame myself. I don't know if I'll ever stop. But I know it's my punishment to live with it. So maybe we're all punishing ourselves."

"Well then, I'd say we deserve it, wouldn't you? I've always felt that I was useless and good for nothing compared to everyone else and especially her and this may sound terrible and selfish but now maybe I can do something for myself and everyone by never forgetting her. If she won't do it, I will. I don't know if she would quite appreciate it though and that makes me feel worse but I can't stop. After all, I have to help myself too, don't I? She would certainly have put us first."

"I don't know. I would have to forgive myself before forgetting her and sometimes I think it's more for my sake than hers. But I think she would want you to and maybe all of us to. But I know I can't."

"You know what Yuffie told me? She said that if she were here she would be reprimanding us now and saying 'oh you two, don't blame yourselves. that's such a childish thing to do, to hold grudges.' She did always want children. Maybe she was everyone's mother and that's why we all miss her like that. But we can't visit her now can we? That'll have to wait until we finish what we started. Do you think she'll mind?"

"No. She would want us to finish what she started. It should've taken a lot more than a blade."

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sorry, i was reading this over and was compelled by a strange force to edit a few words that bugged me. characters easy to guess.. mainly i didn't put names cause i thought they went ooc. :P