Listen To Your Heart

Chapter Twenty Three-Roselyn's Transformation

REMUS.

I could've killed Sirius for telling her that. Roselyn had gotten up and left the Hall.

"Nice going, Ace," James said rolling his eyes at Sirius.

"What I'd do?" Sirius asked innocently looking at us.

I got up and left the table.

I found Roselyn outside in the corridor. She was staring out the window. There was a faint glimmer of tears in her honey brown eyes.

"Hey," I said standing next to her.

She ignored me.

"Listen," I said softly. "I would never pressure you into doing anything you didn't want to. You know that right?"

Again Roselyn didn't reply.

"Rose," I prompted.

"I can't believe you did that," she replied quietly biting her bottom lip. The tears streamed down her cheeks. "I thought you were different."

"Huh? What are you talking about?" I asked confused.

"You told Sirius you wanted to sleep with me!" Roselyn exploded angrily. "What, you just want to get down my pants?"

"Of course not!" I said shocked. "If I told Sirius it was because I was scared to come to you with the idea!"

"Why?" Roselyn cried. "I'm supposed to be your girlfriend! I would never disrespect you in anyway!"

"I didn't mean it to be cruel or anything," I said staring at her.

"Just leave me alone okay?" Roselyn said turning away from me, showing her back.

I stood for a moment before slinking back.

ROSELYN.

I couldn't believe Remus went to Sirius before actually talking about it with me. We were supposed to trust each other and talk about things.

"Is everything alright?" I heard a voice behind me.

I turned around. It was Severus.

"Just fine and dandy," I muttered quickly wiping a way a tear.

"What happened?" Severus asked concerned.

I relayed to him what happened.

Severus frowned.

"He really should've come to you first," he said. "And discussed it thoroughly. I would never have done that to you."

"That's something I really don't want a lot of people to know," I continued sobbing. "But James, Lily, Gillian and Sam probably already know about it by now!"

Severus stepped forward.

"Come on," he said quietly putting an arm around my shoulders. "Stop crying okay?"

He began leading me down the corridor.

REMUS.

I sat back down at the table.

"Everything alright?" James asked looking up.

"No," I said miserably. "She's pissed at me now."

Just then, a fellow Gryffindor named Tina Danson came up to the table and sat down.

"You're never going to believe who's walking down to the Slytherin common room with Severus Snape," she gushed excitedly.

"Who?" asked Natalie Denver.

"Roselyn Rourke," Tina said snickering. "She was sobbing so the ugly dolt comforted her…sure…more like time to get better acquainted."

My ears pricked up at this.

"Do you think he'd try and get further with her?"

"Dunno, but if she was that upset, I'd be more worried about what she'd do. Who would want to sleep with him anyway? They'd have nightmares for weeks!"

They began snickering openly.

I slowly turned my eyes onto James. Apparently, he, Gillian, Sam and Sirius heard this as well.

"You don't think…" Sam began slowly.

Not waiting for an answer, we tore from the Hall.

We reached one of the corridors and there was Roselyn, walking toward us. Her tie was hastily tied and her hair was slightly disheveled. Her entire uniform and robe looked disheveled actually.

"Oh no," I heard Gillian whisper. "I hope she didn't…."

Her voice trailed off after that.

"Rose?" I demanded walking right up to her. "Where were you?"

"With Severus," she said.

"Did you sleep with him?" I heard Lily whisper.

My heart wrenched when Roselyn nodded.

"For the love of God…why?" Sirius asked looking stunned.

"I was upset," she said. "Severus was comforting me and I guess one thing led to another."

"I repeat," Sirius continued. "Why?"

"I can't believe you did that," I said feeling disappointment and hurt creep into my chest and voice.

"And I can't believe you talked about me like that! Like I was a booty call!" Roselyn snapped.

"Like I said, I needed some help! I was scared! But I'm not the one who slept with Severus!" I said.

"It was a mistake alright?" Roselyn said. "I feel bad."

"You played with Severus' emotions," I continued. "Now, he might think there could be more between you two."

"I agree," Sirius said nodding. "Even though the rat has feelings they're probably going to be hurt when he realizes it was like a one night stand."

"I think it's best if you explain it to Severus himself," I said narrowing his eyes.

"Who initiated it?" Gillian asked suddenly. "Did he?"

Roselyn nodded.

At that moment, Severus came jogging up the corridor.

"YOU SICK FREAK!" Sirius snarled as he rounded on Severus and punched him in the face.

"Sirius!" Roselyn cried.

Both he and Severus got into a fight. Finally, James and Sam pulled them off of each other.

"You took advantage of her!" Sirius snarled, fighting against Sam's grip.

"I was merely comforting her!" Severus argued back. "She needed someone that wasn't going to treat her like a piece of meat!"

"I was scared to approach her!" I said defensively and angrily. "I would never treat her like that!"

"You comforted her alright," Sam snorted.

Severus' eyes landed on him next.

"You're to stay away from Roselyn!" Sirius snarled. "Don't ever talk to her again."

"Sirius," Roselyn said angrily stepping in front of him. "You're not my father!"

"Rose," I said standing in front of her. "Can we just go somewhere and talk?"

Roselyn's honey brown eyes moved onto me.

"What's there to talk about?" she asked folding her arms over her chest.

"The fact that you slept with him," I said. "And the fact that I'm really sorry for that coming across like it did."

"Look," Roselyn said. "Right now I just need some time alone alright?"

With that, she brushed past us and continued down the Hall. Severus scowled at us before turning around and heading back to the Slytherin common room.

GILLIAN.

We headed to our classes. I could see Remus was deeply upset by what happened. Roselyn had skipped classes. I couldn't believe she had done that either. But her attitude seemed to be going through drastic changes. Remus said that it was part of the transformation process that once everything balances out, she'll be her normal self…but he was still upset because she had made the conscious decision to sleep with Severus. I think that's what was bothering him most.

That night, Remus, Sam, Sirius and James didn't bother going to the Shrieking Shack to change. A full moonlight hung in the almost midnight sky. I was sitting on the couch length wise reading a book. I knew they could get into trouble, but apparently that didn't seem to bother them much.

The black dog and Border Collie came galloping in, followed by the gray wolf. The stag stood and seemed almost out of place in the common room. The two dogs' got a game of 'tag' going. The wolf jumped up onto the couch beside me and just sat on his haunches. His head was low and his ears flat sideways in a submissive posture.

"Hey," I said warmly extending my hand out to gently touch the fur. "Cheer up. She'll come around."

I gently began stroking the wolf's soft fur. It just let out a low whine.

Just then, another wolf entered the common room. This one was really beautiful. It was completely white with these ice blue eyes.

"Rose," I whispered pulling my hand back from Remus.

The white wolf just sat on her haunches and watched us. Sam jumped up onto the couch beside me and placed a paw on my lap. He panted as he watched the white wolf. One of his ears flopped over covering one of his dark brown eyes.

The portrait opened again, but this time, someone dressed in a dark black robe with the hood pulled over his or her head entered the common room. Immediately, Remus began snarling viciously. Sirius as well. Sam jumped down and stood with Remus and Sirius. All three canines were standing squarely on all fours, with their canines and incisors bared at the figure.

The white wolf rounded on the figure as well. I remained frozen in fear on the couch.

The figure pulled out a wand and aimed it at me.

"Avada Kedavra!" the figure hissed and I recognized the voice.

The jet of green light come speeding toward me. I shut my eyes and waited for the spell to hit me.

I heard a 'thud' in front of me. My eyes snapped open. I saw the black and white Border Collie lying on its side with all four legs stretched out.

"SAAAAAM!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

At that instant, all three canines charged at the figure but the figure Apparated before they even reached him.

Lily came rushing into the common room. James had changed back into his human self and immediately rushed over to Sam, who was now lying on his back in human form.

I scrambled off the couch and rushed over to him.

"I'm so sorry," James said quietly as he looked away. I knew there were tears forming in his eyes already.

"NUUUUU!" I howled pressing my face into Sam's chest as I sobbed hysterically. Lily came over to me and held me while I cried.

Professor Dumbledore was called immediately as well as Professor McGonagall.

The sun came up shortly. Remus, Roselyn and Sirius were back to their human selves.

"I'm so sorry about Mr. Hairston," Professor Dumbledore said gently and quietly placing a hand on my shoulder.

ROSELYN.

Sam was dead. I began sobbing as well.

Gillian was hysterical. He had jumped in front of the Killing Curse for Gillian when that figure cast it.

Remus stood next to me.

"I'm sorry, Remus," I sobbed. "About everything. I made a huge mistake."

Remus exhaled loudly.

"And I'm supposed to trust you now?" he asked quietly. "I can't do that right away."

"I know," I sobbed.

Remus hesitated.

"But I will eventually," he continued. "And I'll eventually forgive you for sleeping with Severus."

I sobbed harder.

I felt really felt awful for what I did. I was just so upset that I really wasn't thinking straight and I really didn't want Severus to get the wrong idea about me and what happened.

I mean I loved Severus, but I was in love with Remus more. I damaged Remus and I's trust and it's going to take time now to build that trust up again.

Remus and Lily had headed off to the library for Lily. She needed to look something up for Potions.

I was left alone with Sirius and Gillian. Sirius got up and came over to me.

"Rose, why did you sleep with Severus?" he whispered keeping his voice down.

"It was a stupid mistake," I muttered. "I really can't believe I made that bad judgment. I was really upset and wasn't thinking straight. And I was thinking of getting Remus back for talking to you about that. But I realized now I made a really bad call."

Sirius watched me.

"What are you going to tell Severus now?" Sirius asked concerned. "If you slept with him, he might be getting a really bad idea or image of you now."

I sighed again.

"I'm just going to tell him the truth," I said sadly. "I really don't want to hurt him either."

Sirius exhaled.

"Knowing Snivellus, he'll hold a grudge for years to come," he muttered darkly.

I moaned again.

Remus and Lily came back and Lily headed over to James.

"Get what you needed?" Sirius asked Lily looking up.

"Yep!" Lily said nodding.

Remus took a seat on the chair and yawned.

"I think it's time to head off to bed," he said.

"Night," Sirius called getting up and heading into the boy's dorm. James followed shortly. Lily gave me a hug before heading to the girl's. Gillian did the same, leaving Remus and I alone in the common room.

"So," I began slowly not sure if he was even talking to me.

Remus remained silent.

"Good night," he said shortly and got up.

He headed into the boys dorm.

Feeling even more miserable, I headed off too.