A/N: a idea that has been buzzing in my head, I know its not very in character cause they would never do this but I thought it's a little more different from all EO pairings.

Olivia sat on her couch in her apartment, its was 8 at night, she was hurting with regret and sorrow from not being able to save two girls from a sucidal rapist who blew up the house he kidnapped the girls in. Olivia just thought if he wanted to kill himself why did he have to take two innocent girls with him.

She looked at her wedding picture that she had on her coffee table. She was married for 3 years to an FBI agent she loved so much. Jeff was the type of guy that forgave her for everything, she loved him so much and couldn't believe she was married to him. She was alone in their apartment since Jeff was on business trip and wouldn't be back until two more days.

She heard a knock her door and got up, wiping the tears before she opened the door. Elliot was standing there with a bottle of whiskey and also looking very depressed about losing two innocent girls today.

"Care to join me in dumping our sorrows in this bottle?" He asked lifting up the bottle of whiskey.

"Normally no, but after today's events I'll make an exception" Olivia said with a small smirk and moved out of the doorway for him to come in. She knew Elliot didn't like to talk about his job with Kathy so she figured as long as he was talking to someone it was good.

"Jeff still on business trip?" Elliot asked as Olivia put ice in two glasses.

"Yea, he's coming in two days, how's Kathy?" Olivia asked as she handed him a glass, she didn't really want to know since she knew that they have been having problems for a while. He hardly ever talked, even with her he didn't talk much about what was bothering him, he never discussed things about he's job with his wife.

"Fine," Elliot answered and poured the whiskey into each glass.

Olivia starred at his blue eyes and felt a spark as he handed her a glass. Elliot looked up into her brown eyes and felt a feeling he hadn't in a while. Love. He didn't want to feel this way but it took over him, he wanted to hug her and kiss her and tell her how much he loved her and that he always had, but he restrained himself by taken a sip of whiskey.

She took a sip of whiskey to control her feelings for him, she always felt love when he talked to her about things he didn't talk to his wife about. She felt special and he made her feel special the day that they met. She could feel the spark between them that was hard to control but she managed to by downing the glass down.

He poured more into her glass and more into his glass. They hardly talked because each one was thinking about the other one. He wanted her. She wanted him. Half the bottle of whiskey was gone by now.

He wanted to hug her and just hold her. She wanted to hug him and put him back together since it was obvious he was falling apart as each day went by. Elliot poured the last bit that was left in the bottle. By now both of them were close to drunk.

Elliot got up from he's chair, Olivia got up as well, they were face to face, starring in each other's eyes.

"Liv…" Elliot whispered.

"Yea?" she whispered back, her hands were on his chest. He starred at her and moved closer to her lips. She closed the gap and kissed him.

He grabbed her face and pulled her closer. She pushed her body against his and pulled out he's shirt out of his pants. They stumbled to her bedroom kissing, half of their clothes were already off. They fell on her bed and pulled off the rest of the clothes and kept on kissing.

Olivia woke up at 6, her head was hurting so bad from the hang over. She wanted to believe that it was all a dream but knew it wasn't when she saw Elliot's watch on her nightstand. He was gone already and she was glad, she didn't want to face this early in the morning.

She turned around and looked at a picture of her and Jeff on Christmas day. What the hell was she thinking last night when she had sex with her partner, her married partner. Sometimes she wished Jeff were a complete jerk so it would make some things easier for her, but he wasn't, he was a good man and an amazing husband.

She got out of bed and grabbed her robe and got her things ready to go take a shower. She heard her phone rang, she was hoping it wasn't Elliot, cause talking about what happened was the last thing she wanted to do. She grabbed her phone and looked at the caller Id. Jeff.

"Hey" she answered almost scared to hear her husbands voice, cause she might burst out crying.

"Hey, did I wake you up?" Jeff asked sitting in his hotel room.

"No, I was just getting ready to take a shower"

"Without me? I'm disappointed" Jeff said smiling.

"Believe it or not, I know how to take a shower without you, what are you doing?" Olivia asked with a smirk, not wanting to make jokes cause it just drew her more to Jeff.

"Getting ready to go to a conference,"

"Hope that's fun, how did you sleep without me?"

"Bad, how did you sleep alone?"

"Um…bad, I have to go take a shower and get to work, call me later?" Olivia asked cause she slept amazing with Elliot next to her, she was trying to get off the phone so she wouldn't start crying.

"Of course, love you, bye"

"You too, bye" Olivia said and closed her phone quickly as a tear fell down her cheek.

She sat on her bed and looked at pictures of her and Jeff. She started crying looking at Elliot's watch on her nightstand knowing she had to face him today at work.

She loved Elliot but she knew having an affair with him wasn't right, he is married and she is married, but the love between them was still there, no matter how bad she felt about cheating on her husband and Elliot cheating on Kathy. She grabbed his watch and ran her fingers over it, she felt a tingle as she touched it, she quickly shook the thought of them kissing out of her mind and went to take a shower and get ready for a whole day with one of the men she loved.

A/N: hope you like the idea, leave reviews if you want me to keep going!