Ghost Of You---By Good Charlotte

I remember how things used to be when we younger. I was two years older than you, but it didn't matter. We were the best of friends, always caring for each other. But something went wrong somewhere. Looking back, I still can't pinpoint the exact position. For some reason, you started to fade away from my life, running away every time I came to you.

And then she came into our lives. I could see it in your eyes that you had strong feelings for her. It broke my heart, shattering it into a million pieces. I'd stay up all night, trying to put it together, piece by piece, but it would never be whole again.. Because of you. And because of you, I'll never be the same way again. I'll never be able to love again, and I've never loved anyone but you.

I saved a space in my heart for your love, hoping that one day you would realize my feelings for you, and try your best to give your feelings to me. It never happened. And though everyone tells me that I should give up, I can't, because I will always have a space in my heart for you. You mean the world to me, and without you, I'd have no reason to live. You are everything I wanted. You're my everything.

And I will wait until the end
When the pendulum will swing back to the
Darker side of our hearts bleeding
I will save this empty space
Next to me like its a grave
Where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally together

Every minute I live, my heart yearns for your love. I cry for you when you're hurt, and even though I love you, I still know you have those feelings for her. For Tohru-kun. And I know, that no matter what I do, those feelings will never disapear. Although they may fade, and you may come back to me, I'll know that deep down, you once loved her. And I'd never be able to live with myself.

Rin has told me that I should give up and let you be with her. I can't because my feelings for you are too deep, too real. I cry ever night, wishing you were beside me, holding me close to you. It'll never happen, but I always wish that it will.

I still have that picture of us when we were younger. You were kneeling beside me, with that gorgeous smile plastered on your face. I was looking down admirably at you. I wished things could go back to like it was. But there's nothing left.. Nothing left of what we were, at all. And as I pace around my house, I crave you. I wish you'd come back to me. But it will never happen. Not ever, not ever again.

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were

I still have your blue sweater. The one I accidently ruined that one day at your house. It reminds me of you, reminds me of us. I finally fixed it with some help from Rin's mother. I know that she dislikes me as well, but I always talk to her. She sometimes confides in me, so it's not all bad. But Kyou, everytime I look at us, I wish that we would be together once again.

And sadly, I know that this will never be the same.

A ghost of you
Is all that I have left
It's all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
And nothing left of what we were at all

I lay in my bed, your sweater pressed up tightly against my chest. I wish you could see how I felt. I wish you could see my tears that rolled down my cheeks when you showed Tohru your true self. I wish that we'd be able to be friends again, and I also wish you wouldn't run from me like you always do. But how can I change that? Is it even possible to change someones feelings?

I toss and turn in my bed, wishing you were there to comfort me, and to hold me in your arms. Sometimes, I dream that you are there. You look like a guardian angel. And everytime that you're there, you tell me that you love me, and that you'll never leave. But you have, and it always tears me up, and I always feel as if it was my fault that we are like the way were are today.

But.. we're nothing

So here I am, pacing around this house again
With pictures of us living on these walls
I see my breathe in the cold of the air that I breathe
And I'm wondering
I'm wondering if it's you that i feel
If its you that I feel here haunting me forever

I could never patch up our relationship. I could spend the rest of my life, trying for us to be together again, but it would never work. A large ridge had filled in between us, filling it up with lies and hopes and dreams.

And memories fill in my thoughts, bringing the tears back to my face once again. I've cried so many tears, more than any human should. I wish you could feel the pain I'm feeling. To see how unbearable it is to live. And my harshest thoughts race through my mind. Like the time you yelled at me, and many more. I sometimes think of ending it all, but then, I'd be a coward.

I need to face my fears, but how can I, when my nightmares have become reality?

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were

I would give you anything. Tell me what you need and I would go get it for you. And I'd give up everything and forget it if I could just be with you for another day, to be held by your strong arms. How are you going to tell her, Kyou? Tell Tohru that you're being locked up?

Years have gone by, and my pain still thrives for you. I thought I'd give everything, but you're still not mine, and my heart is still empty. I've lived many years, trying to gain back your trust, but nothing works anymore. Has my life been wasted?

A ghost of you
Is all that I have left
It's all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
And nothing left of what we were at all

So please come back to me, I'm right here waiting. Please come back to me again... For I need you to be able to continue living this life. I can't live my life anymore the way I have been for the past 18 years. Every day that I live, I feel like it's a waste. Every day, I think of ending it all. And every day, I wish that you were there beside me once again.

We are all the same, Kyou. I know how your life would be if you went with Tohru. You'd never be happy with her, even though you think that you would. You'd be transforming many times, and you'd never be able to hug Tohru. You and her would go throughout misery. Be with me, for I've lived through 15 years of misery, craving to be with you once again.

And i'm not looking for
Anything but us
Anything but what we were
And i'm not asking for
Painted memories
I only want to know you're here

I'm not asking that you marry me, although that would make me the happiest girl in the world. I just want to be with you again. Is that too much to ask for? I want to know that you are here with my again, and that we can have many more wonderful memories and times together. And we'd be able to be friends once again, and maybe, hopefully even lovers.

And that is why, I'm standing here. This is why I am standing before you right now. And I can see the anger in your eyes, but can you see the hurt in mine? Will you ever forgive me for the things that I've done? How could you hold a grudge on someone for this long. And then I see your eyes soften, and you take steps toward me. Sucking in my breath, I always wait for the worst.

A ghost of you
Is all that I have left
It's all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all

And that's when I wake up from my dream. My hair matted to my forehead from sweat, and no one is around. No one is there but me, and you're gone. You left with her and without me. And as I cry some more, it feels as if I've cried all I could. All my tears have been cried for you, but yet you don't care. And why should you care, I'm just a Ghost of You.

A ghost of you
Is all that I have left
It's all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all.