Chapter 8
He
burst out laughing. "What a child you are," he chuckled.
"Do I have
to
love a woman to take her into my bed?"
The
flush went all the way down to my throat. "I don't know,"
I
admitted.
"No,"
he said, his smile fading. "I don't suppose you do. I
believed
in
love, at your age."
"Cynic," I accused.
"Guilty. I've learned that sex is better without emotional blinders." Mark said, looking at me.
I dropped my eyes, trying not to see the unholy amusement in his face.
"Embarrassed,
Jaime? I thought that experience with Hunter had matured
you."
My eyes flashed fire as they lifted to meet his.
"Do we have to go through this again?" I asked.
"Not if you've learned something from it." His gaze dropped to my dress.
"Although
I have my doubts. Are you wearing anything under that
damned
nightgown?"
"Mark!" I yelled. "It's not a nightgown."
"It looks like one."
"It's the style!"
"In
Paris, I hear, the style is a vest with nothing under it,
worn
open."
I tossed my hair back, angry. "And if I lived in Paris, I'd wear one."
He
smiled. "Would you?" His eyes dropped to my chest, and the
boldness
of
his gaze made me feel strange sensations. "I wonder."
I
put my hands in my lap, feeling outwitted and outmatched. "What
did
you
want to talk to me about Mark?" I asked.
"I've invited some people over to visit."
I
remembered my invitation to Jeff and I held my breath. "Uh,
who?" I
asked.
"Vince McMahon and his daughter Melissa," he told me. "They're going to be here for a week or so while Vince and I work out that labor mess. He's the head of the local union that's giving us trouble."
"And his daughter?" I asked, hating myself for my own curiosity.
"Blond and sexy," he said.
I glared at him. "Just your style. With the emphasis on sexy."
He
watched me. Mark, being the adult, was indulging me. I wanted
to
throw
something at him.
"Well,
I hope you don't expect me to help Brenda keep them
entertained.
Because
I'm expecting company of my own!" I said without thinking.
The
danger signals were flashing out of his green eyes. "What
company?"
He
asked.
I lifted my chin proudly. "Jeff Hardy."
Something took fire and exploded under his eyebrow.
"Not in my house," he said in a tone that might cut glass.
"But, Mark, I've already invited him!"
"You
heard me. If you didn't want to be embarrassed, you should
have
talked
with me before inviting him. What were you going to do, Jaime,
meet
him at the airport and then tell me about it?"
I couldn't look him in the eye. "Something like that."
"Call him. Tell him something came up."
I
lifted my eyes and glared at him. Here he was sitting there like
a
conqueror,
ordering my life. If I buckled under one more time, I'd
never
be able to stand up to him. Never. I couldn't let him win
this
time.
My jaw set and stubbornly and sternly I replied, "No!"
He
got to his feet slowly, gracefully for such a large man, and the
set
of
his broad shoulders was intimidating even without the sudden,
fierce
narrowing
of his eyes.
"What did you say?" he asked.
I
put my fingers together in front of me and clenched them. "I
said
no,"
I managed in a small voice. "Mark, it's my home, too. At
least
you
said it was the day you asked me to come live here," I reminded
him.
"I didn't say you could use it as a rendezvous for romantic writers!"
"You
bring women here," I yelled back, remembering the night I
had
accidentally
come home too early from a date and found him with
Silhouette
Sinclair on the very chairs they were now sitting.
Silhouette
had been stripped to the waist and so had Mark. I had barely
even
noticed her, my eyes were so set on the sight of Mark with his
broad,
muscled chest bared by the woman's exploring hands. I'd never
been
able to get the picture of him out of my mind, his mouth, and his
eyes
almost
black with desire.
"I
used to," he corrected, reading my memory. "How old were
you then?
Fifteen?"
I nodded, looking away from him.
"And
I yelled at you, didn't I?" he recalled. "I hadn't expected
you
home.
I was hungry and impatient and frustrated. When I took Sil home,
she
was in tears."
"I...I
should have knocked. But we'd been to that fair, and I won a
prize,
and I couldn't wait to tell you about it..." I began before
cutting myself off.
He
smiled. "You used to bring all your triumphs straight to me,
like a
puppy
with its toys. Until that night." His eyes studied me.
"You've
kept a wall between us ever since.
The
minute I start to come close, you find something else to put up in
front
of you. Last time it was Hunter Helmsley. Now, it's this
writer."
"I'm
not trying to build any walls." I said defensively. "You're
the
one.
You won't let me be independent."
"What do you want?" he asked.
"I
don't know. But I'll never find out if you keep smothering me. I
want
to be free, Mark."
"None of us are that," he said in a bitter voice. "What is it that attracts you to Jeff?" he asked suddenly
I shrugged. "He's fun to be with. He makes me laugh."
"That's all you need from a man-laughter?" Mark asked, unbelievingly.
The
way he said it made shivers run down my spine, and when I looked
at
him,
the expression on his face was puzzling.
"What else is there?" I asked without thinking.
A
slow smile turned up the corners of his mouth. "The fires a man
and a
woman
can create when they make love."
I shifted in my chair. "They're over rated," I said with sophistication.
He threw his head back and laughed.
"Shut up!" I said. "You'll wake the whole damn house."
His
white, even teeth were visable. "You're red as a beet," he
said.
"What
do you know about love, little girl? You'd pass out if a man
started
making love to you."
I stared at him with outrage. "How do you know? Maybe Jeff..."
"...maybe
not," he interupted. "You're still very much a
virgin,
little
Jaime. If I'd had any fears of that, I'd have jerked you out of
that
school so fast your head would have spun."
"Virginity isn't such a prize these days," I sighed, remembering Melissa Hardy's insulting remarks about it.
"Don't get any ideas about throwing yours away." he warned me softly.
"Mark,
don't be old-fashioned. Anyway, where would you be today if all
the
women in the world were pure?" I asked him.
"Rather
frustrated," he admitted. "But you're not one of my women,
and
I
don't want you offering yourself to men like a nymphomaniac."
"There's hardly any danger of that. I don't know how."
"That dress is a damned good start.
I
glanced down at it. "But it covers me up," I protested."
"It's a lot
more
modest than what Jen was wearing."
"I noticed," he said with a smile.
"Jen
thinks you're the sexiest man alive," I said quietly. "She
knew
you'd
be at the party."
"Jen's
a child," he said turning away with one hand in his pocket.
"And
I'm
too old to encourage hero worship."
Jen was my age. My heart seemed to die, and I wanted to hit him. He always made me feel so ignorant.
I
studied his broad back. He was so good to look at. SO big
and
vibrant,
and full of life. A quiet man, a caring man. And a tyrant!
"If
you won't let me invite Jeff here," I mumbled, "I suppose I
could
fly
down to the writer's convention with him."
He turned, staring at me. "Threatening me, Jaime?" he asked.
"I wouldn't dare!"
"Is that you best shot?"
"Male chaevinsit!" I said, trying again. "You do irritate me, Mark."
He moved toward me. "What do you think you do to me, little Jaime?"
I
looked up into his face as he came closer. "I probably irritate
you
just
as much," I admitted, sighing.
"Baby girl?" It was what he used to call me before we faught all the time.
He smiled down at me. "Baby girl. Come here."
He tilted my chin up and bent his head down. I closed my eyes, expecting the familiar brief, rough touch of his mouth when he kissed me goodnight. But it didn't come.
I
opened my eyes and looked straight into his. I was so close that
I
could
see the gold in his eyes, the tiny crinkled lines at the corner of
his eyelids.
His fingers touched the side of my throat, warm and caressing.
"Mark?" I whispered.
I could see a muscle jerk beside his mouth.
"Welcome home, Jaime," he said roughly, and started to move away.
"Aren't you going to kiss me?" I asked without thinking.
All
the expression drained out of his face and left his eyes
smoldering
and
they looked down into mine. "It's late," he said turning
away.
"And
I'm tired. Good night, Jaime."
He
walked out the door and left me standing there, staring at the
empty
doorway.
