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Chapter 12: In the Rain

Two weeks passed and Raven had still not come out of her room. The tower had grown quite gloomy and depressed. Beast Boy had become very quiet and barely spoke to the other three Titans. He simply trudged around the tower, kept to himself in his room, or went out for a drive and would not come back for hours. Robin and Cyborg did their best to talk to him, and Starfire did the same outside of Ravens door, but they made no difference.

Cyborg sat down on the couch next to Robin and Starfire who were watching a fungus documentary. Beast Boy was locked in his room and they still didn't even know if Raven was alive in her room.

"Were you able to talk to him at all?" asked Robin.

"Nope," said Cyborg sighing. "All I got outta him were a few grunts."

"And Raven has still not said anything," said Starfire. "I fear that our friends shall never speak again."

Robin sighed and sat back into the couch. "Something isn't right here."

"Something? How about everything," said Cyborg. "I haven't seen Beast Boy act like this since Terra."

"I can hear Raven crying in her room," said Starfire. "And I have not heard her do that since the Malchior."

"Exactly, something's not right here," said Robin. "I mean, we've seen them fight before..."

"Many many times," said Cyborg.

"…and afterwards they were always angry with each other," continued Robin. "But they've never let it last this long and they've never just shut up in their rooms. Call me crazy, but they're not acting like their friendship is over. They're acting like they've broken up with each other."

"Do you suppose they have the feelings for each other?" asked Starfire.

"I think they do," said Robin. All three went quiet for a moment and thought.

"Wow," said Cyborg. "There's somethin I never thought would happen."

"They were quite happy with each other," said Starfire.

"Worst of all, I don't even think they knew it," said Robin. "I mean, it's like they had no idea what kind of feelings they had for each other until it was over."

"Perhaps they would feel better if they told each other," said Starfire.

"I think they would feel better if they realized it for themselves," said Robin.

"Ya know, I don't think they wanna realize it," said Cyborg. "I think they're refusin to accept the fact that they might actually like each other in that way."

"Is there nothing we can do to help them?" asked Starfire.

"I don't think so," said Robin.

Beast Boy lay on his bed, just staring up at the ceiling. He didn't want to do anything. Everything reminded him of something he and Raven had done together. He hated not being able to see her, not being able to talk to her. He didn't want things to be over between them. He missed her.

A crack of thunder rumbled over the tower. He looked out the window and saw that it was dark outside and pouring rain. That didn't help the mood he was in. He sighed and continued to study the ceiling. He couldn't remember the last time he felt so low.

"Why do I feel like this?" he asked himself aloud. "It's not like I'll never see her again. Things will just go back to the way they were before we became friends. But then why do I feel so shitty? God, I would give anything to talk to her again. I made such a mess of everything."

Another loud rumble of thunder shook the tower. He sighed and sat up. His ears had been drooped for a long time. Nothing seemed important to him anymore. He couldn't take it. He had to talk to her again.

He stuck his head out of his room and looked around. No one else was around, and he was thankful for that. He slowly crept down the hall and reached Ravens door. He had never noticed how cold it looked. He knew that if he knocked he wouldn't get a response, so he decided to just go under. He turned into an ant once more and crawled under. He transformed back, but was shocked to see that she wasn't there. Her window was opened and he feared the worst. He ran over to it and looked down. He couldn't see her below, so she mustn't have jumped. But then where was she? He sniffed the air and smelled the rain, and a hint of Raven.

The scent led him up to the roof. He transformed into a bird and flew up to it. He morphed back to himself and looked around. There he saw her, standing in the pouring rain, looking up into the stormy sky.

"Raven what are you doing?" he asked above the rain.

She quickly turned around with surprise and saw him standing there. As her eyes rested on him she felt a horrible pain inside of her. She turned away and yelled, "Go away!"

"Are you insane?" he asked. "It's thundering and lightning out, come inside before you get struck!"

"I don't need you to tell me what to do!" she called back and walked away from him. She was already soaked to the bone, but really didn't care. This was the first time she had been out of her room in two weeks and she was also very weak. Beast Boy could see this and he grew very worried.

"Raven you look horrible," he said going to her.

"Oh, thank you so much," she said with pure hatred. "Can't you leave me alone? Haven't you done enough damage?"

"I mean you look sick," he said quickly, disregarding her words. "You should really get out of the rain before you catch something."

"I feel fine, now leave me alone," she said.

"No, I can't just leave you alone," said Beast Boy going to her. "I don't want our friendship to be over."

"And you think I did?" she cried. "You made me hate you, Beast Boy! I gave you all that I could give, my trust, my friendship…"

"I know I ruined everything," he said going even closer to her. The rain was now falling harder than ever and he was as wet as she was. "But I never meant for that to happen. I never meant to make you feel like I didn't care about you."

"Well whether you meant it or not that's what happened," she said taking a step back from him. "You… you broke my heart. And I didn't even realize that I had given it to you until it was too late." She felt hot tears blend with the cold rain on her cheeks. She couldn't believe that she had actually said it, but now it was out. She began to cry and she looked at the ground.

Beast Boy couldn't believe what he had heard. Now everything was slowly coming to him. He now knew why she had been hurt so badly. He now knew why he couldn't think of anyone other than her. The very moment she said that he had broken her heart he felt everything inside of him change. It was as if he had had an epiphany. He took her hands and said, "I never meant to break your heart. You mean so much to me, Raven. You're so beautiful and you're so smart. Everything about you is unique and you don't deserve to be hurt. I would give anything to take back everything I said. I can't stand not seeing you, not talking to you. I miss reading with you and I miss going to the beach with you. And up until now I've felt as if my body was being torn apart and I didn't know why. I told myself that this wasn't a normal reaction to a lost friendship. There was something more to it, but I didn't know what. Now I know."

Lightning flashed above them a crack of thunder roared so loud and so strong that the two were scared for a moment. She pulled her hands away from him and stepped back. She looked up, her eyes glistening with tears. "Beast Boy, I know what you're going to say and I know that you don't really mean it. So, please, don't say it."

"I love you," he said taking her face into his hands. "I love you and I do mean it."

"You're just saying that," she cried and pulled free from him. She walked a few feet away and faced her back towards him.

"No I'm not! I would never lie to you, I've told you that."

"I'm not you're type, remember?"

"But you are! You're everything I never knew I always wanted. I'm in love with you."

She slowly turned back to him, her arms crossed. "So? Now what?" she asked crying. "You want me to say that everything's okay now? You want me to say that I forgive you? Well I don't. Saying that you love me doesn't change a damn thing!"

"Then what the hell will it take to change what I've done?" asked Beast Boy getting angry and upset. "For the love of God, what the fuck else am I supposed to do at this point?"

"I don't know!" cried Raven above the wind. She felt like she was becoming hysterical and she was furious with herself. Her face was so hot and the rain felt cold as it fell upon her. "I can't even think straight anymore. All my life I've had my mind in order. I knew what was going to happen before it happened, everything was so clear to me. My life was black and white and that suited me just fine. And then I became friends with you. And now I can't even meditate anymore, I'm feeling all these new emotions, and I'm a in constant fear that I'll never be able to control my feelings ever again. So far you've done nothing in my life but mess it up!"

"And you think you've been nothing but a positive influence in my life?" he almost screamed at her. "All you've ever done to me is put me down and call me names. I tried to cheer you up and make you smile, and how did you repay me? You verbal abused me! Trust me, my life would be better if you had never entered it."

"Well the same goes here!" she screamed. She turned to walk away, but the roof was so wet that as she turned she slipped. She fell to her knees and skinned both them and the palms of her hands. She brought her hands up in pain and grumbled, "Fuck!" She cradled her hands and winced with the pain. She was shaking horribly at this point, from a number of things. She was weak from the fortnight in her room, she was emotionally unstable, and now she was in pain. Not to mention the fact that she was soaking wet.

Beast Boy watched Raven as she cradled her hands and brought her slightly bloody knees to her chest. As soon as it had happened he felt that she deserved it. Of course, three seconds later he felt horrible for thinking this. But he wasn't sure what to do. He was filled with rage and despair. She infuriated him, and yet he knew that she didn't mean everything that she had said. As all of these things went through his mind he stood still and watched her as she sat on the ground.

He finally sighed and went over to her. He crouched down next to her and looked at her, even though she was purposefully looking at the ground. "Come on, I'll help you."

"No thank you," she said firmly.

"So what, you're just gonna sit here in the rain with bleeding hands and knees?"

She didn't say anything. She still hadn't looked at him and there was a purpose for that. Every time he spoke she could feel her throat tare apart and tears well up into her eyes. She was glad that they were outside; for she knew that her powers were going nuts and probably contributing to the storm.

"Fine, then we'll sit here," he said sitting down.

They sat there for ten minutes not saying anything to each other. The storm slowly began to die down and finally the rain stopped falling. Beast Boy's hair was long enough that it hung in his eyes, but he didn't move it away. He just looked up into the sky and watched the clouds begin to disperse and give way to the night sky above. Raven tried to ignore him altogether, but she couldn't. He kept sitting there. She finally sighed and decided to end this.

"Beast Boy, I would really like it if you left me alone."

"I know."

Raven sighed again, this time annoyed. "Then why don't you?"

"Because I don't wanna leave you here all alone. Because I'm sorry I said all of those horrible things. Because I know you didn't mean what you said."

"Oh, yes I did," she laughed sarcastically, but serious.

"Well I didn't, if that makes any difference."

"I'm seeing a pattern here. You seem to not mean a lot of what you say."

"No, I just tend to stick my foot in my mouth too often," said Beast Boy laughing.

"That's true," said Raven, not amused.

It grew silent again. By this time the roof was steaming from all the rain and the two were surrounded by mist. They both longed to go inside, but neither was going to be the first to move.

"Do you really hate me?" asked Beast Boy.

"Truthfully?"

"Yeah."

"No." A small moment of silence passed. "Do you hate me?"

"No." They both sighed and then looked at each other. "Raven, why are we doing this?"

"Honestly? I don't know. I'm so confused," she said wiping her face.

"Yeah, me too," said Beast Boy finally pushing his hair out of his eyes. "But, right now, all I know is that I don't wanna fight with you anymore. My body's tired of it, my mind's tired of it. I would really like it if we could resolve everything."

"Right here? Right now?"

"Yes. Now tell me, in all honesty, do you think we can still be friends."

Raven thought for a moment. "I don't know."

"Raven…"

"I really don't know! As much as I want us to be friends again I don't know if it's possible at this point."

"Okay, fair enough. Did you miss me at all these past two weeks?"

Raven hesitated answering this. "Yes."

Beast Boy slightly smiled. "I missed you too."

Raven looked at him and did her best not to smile. She still wanted to feel like she hated him, but it was getting harder.

"Ya know what I said early? About, how I felt about you?" he asked twiddling his thumbs.

"That you loved me?"

"Yeah, I really did mean it. I mean, I still do."

"Beast Boy, love doesn't work like this. People don't just fall in "love" in a couple weeks. So whatever you're feeling towards me isn't love."

"Well then, I don't know what it is. But, since you're so smart, maybe you can help me figure out what I am feeling. Every time I think of you I smile and don't even realize it, when you're real close to me I pray that you won't leave, I've never had such a good time with anyone other than you, I can't get you outta my mind, and when you're mad at me I feel as if my body is dying I'm in so much pain. So can you please tell me what the hell that is, if it isn't love?"

He hadn't even realized that Raven was now staring at him. He made eye contact with her and this made him catch his breath with surprise.

"Do you really feel all of those things about me?" she asked vulnerably.

"Raven, I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true."

She had never heard him talk with such sincerity. She wanted to believe him again, but she remembered what happened last time. But how could he be lying? Beast Boy was never one to put his heart out on the table like this. Now she was more confused than ever. She felt her face getting hot and blushing. She placed her face into her hands, which were hot as well because of the scrapes. "Oh God, I don't know what to do."

Beast Boy reached out and took her hands away from her face. She looked at him and once again their eye's met. Then he slowly leaned in and placed his lips upon hers. Both of their eyes closed and they appreciated every second of the kiss. Then their lips parted and they opened their eyes. Neither were sure what to do now. So Raven finally moved her eyes away from his and this snapped them both back.

"I think we should go in now," said Beast Boy clearing his throat. He hopped to his feet and then helped Raven to stand up. As he held her hands he felt her smooth skin and the heat coming from her palms. She hesitantly pulled them away from him, but truthfully she didn't want to. He smiled slightly and then turned to leave. But Raven didn't move. She was looking up into the stars. "Raven, are you comin?

Steam was rising up from the roof so that they were surrounded by mist. Slowly Raven turned around and looked at him. He gave her a nervous smile. She smiled as well, but it was soft and seducing. She walked over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck and back. Instinctively he wrapped his own arms around her and pulled her close. She immediately placed her lips upon his and slipped her tongue into his mouth. He kissed her back and felt all over her voluptuous body. He memorized every curve on her petite body. He suddenly found himself lying on the ground with her crawling up him.

"Do you want me?" she asked in a seductive whisper.

"Yes," he said back. She smiled and placed her lips on his again.

The End

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