A/N: Greh, I'm sorry for all the misspellings. I don't have any clue why I didn't catch them before, but what's done is done. Oy, well anyways, I thought I should go on with chapter five. Have fun, enjoy, and smile. Eh, well here ya go.

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Once he woke up from his slumber, Ryou looked around to make sure Bakura wasn't nearby. Seeing as he wasn't, he decided to go up to his room and begin writing something he should've a long time ago. A suicide note. Getting up and moving seemed easier now to do, and so pretty soon he was at the door of his room. Grasping the doorknob and twisting, Ryou stepped into his little haven and made way to the desk near him. The door was kicked shut and locked (seeing as Ryou remembered that he did have a pretty intrusive Yami.). The boy pulled out a spiral notebook that was hidden in his drawer and took a seat in the chair positioned at the desk. A pen was found nearby, hiding in some little pile of papers.

A note…What would be appropriate? 'Yes well I guess you already figured out I'm dead.' No.. but that would be funny. Hm…. ' Sad to see I'm dead? Well didn't think so.' No. Hmmm..

He tapped the pen against the exposed paper of the notebook. This was harder than he had expected. He seemed to be having writer's block, and he hadn't even started writing a word!

Dearest Friends ? No.. They weren't dear to me. Were they? No.. I do not think.. Anyway I'm straying off subject… What should I write… A will would be appropriate as well, but I don't have anything to give. Should I write…' I'll miss you all dearly' or make them feel guilty and write

' You could've stopped this!' No…though I do like the second one. Maybe I should make them feel bad. After all, they could stop this entire charade. …

And so Ryou wrote in the first words.

To whom it may concern:

If you are reading this letter, then I am dead.

He liked the sound of it so far. It was pleasant, despite the letters real purpose. Ryou smiled (something he rarely did now a days.) and began to think once more. So far so good. Now, what should be written next… an explanation. Or something to make them cry? The boy frowned and closed his eyes to try to get the words to come to him by magic.. But it wasn't working.

To whom it may concern:

If you are reading this letter, then I am dead. Do not pretend you are saddened because I know you aren't.

Good start. For now at least. Ryou blinked and put the tip of the pen to the paper again to continue on writing his little note. It wasn't as hard as it was in the beginning, but still pretty difficult none the less. The boy pushed his pen on.

In case you are wondering.. no it was no accident. I killed myself.

Ryou could plainly see in his mind's eye Yugi reading the note and crying. He was such a crybaby at times … Shrugging his shoulders, he decided that he wouldn't deal with it.

I didn't want to continue on with this life any longer. It hurt too much. Every day was like a death sentence… I guess my time was up.

He smiled at the thought. Did that even make any sense? Well it wouldn't matter anyways. Ryou let out a little sigh and began to think. Why couldn't he just finish such a simple letter? Because you are afraid of doing so. I'm not going to kill myself yet, so why don't I just let this wait for another day? I'm sure more will come when the time is right. Time then, I'll wait.

Ryou nodded. He closed the notebook and shoved it back in its hiding place. Standing, the boy walked over to the door of his haven and gave a backwards glance at the notebook. Dismissing his thoughts, he continued on towards the bathroom… he needed to wash off any remaining blood. Plus, he hadn't bathed in two days and that was getting to him. Ryou smiled inwardly. Amazing how he could think about a little thing like bathing right after he just started on a suicide note.

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A/N: Don't you just love me? people: No. Eh fine whatever. I'm happy people actually like my little stories. Yes, I'm aware Ryou still hasn't spoken but I hope I change that soon. I'd love to hear from you… I need some help figuring out what to do next. So any help would be greatly appreciated. Til next we meet! – Ryou Marik.