Please note these are not all of Star's traumatic memories, only the most impactful.
Star was eating dinner with a voracity only a 7 year old could have of her make up with Moon and Toffee smiling at her eagerness. They had taught her proper manners but when they were eating alone they allowed her to eat as she wished. However in her eagerness something began to happen as Star stopped eating and held her stomach in pain.
"Ughhhh, I don't feel so good." Moon and Toffee laughed at first until Star fell off to the side prompting them to rush towards her to figure out what was wrong. Toffee took one look at the situation and ordered Butler to check on the kitchens to see if anything had happened to the food turning to Moon next.
"Moon, test the food for any poisons." Moon nodded and used her wand on the food detecting something off about the food, but at a low near undetectable amount. Moon blinked in shock turning back to Toffee.
"But how is it that Star is in trouble and we are not, all the food seems pois…" They blinked in realization before speaking at the same time.
"Quantity!" Butler came back speaking to them.
"Nothing wrong in the kitchens but I am having people scour the castle for anything amiss. Anything you can contribute to help the search." Moon and Toffee kneeled down over Star trying to help soothe the pain away as Toffee responded.
"What poison could kill someone in a quantity Star would eat but no in the amount we would eat?" Butler blinked in shock as Toffee elaborated. "All the food was poisoned and somehow slipped by our poisons detectors." Butler nodded coming up with a short list which he directed people to look for.
Eventually they found it; sweet pine sap had been subsisted being indistinguishable from corn syrup which, while not poisonous in small amounts, would kill if ingested in a high amount. It also did not show up on normal poison detectors as it usually was ineffective as it acted slow, but once it was in the system was very difficult to get out. Immediately Star was put on antitoxins and Moon used her magic for hours on end trying to get all of it out of Star's system with initial vomiting helping out immensely. After nearly six hours to treatment they finally got it all out of Star and did a sweep of the kitchen staff finding one of them had disappeared in the confusion. It took nearly two days for Moon and Toffee to convince Star that the food was safe to eat, and only when Moon and Toffee themselves cooked it.
Star skipped through the woods softly humming to herself as she approached the circle of love. A boy she had confessed a crush to had asked her to come out to this section of the woods so that they might try to kiss without people mocking them. Star smiled as a 7 ½ year old is wont to do and arrived in the clearing that seemed picturesque except for the mud puddle, though Star liked mud at times to roll around in. The boy was standing in front of said puddle holding a bushel of freshly picked flowers smiling. He gestured for Star to come closer which she did so taking the offered flowers smelling them sweetly and looked at him smiling.
"So you actually like me back?" The boy nodded smiling at her before responding.
"Yeah, but my parents wouldn't allow me to be with you, so I brought you out here. So do you wanna…" He looked at her in a seemingly bashful manner that made Star come close puckering her lips up to him. She heard a giggling come from all around her before she felt herself be thrown into the mud puddle as the boy laughed at her before speaking. "… take a mud bath you mud blood?" Star looked up to see the boy laughing at her as several other royal children emerge from around the clearing laughing at her.
"You know it suits her being in there."
"Ugly and muddy, the perfect combo."
"Roll around like a pig Monster you are." The boy himself stepped forward looking her now tear filled eyes.
"Who would like a horrible freak of nature like you? You look ugly with that deathly grey skin and horrifying tail of yours." The kids laughed and walked off after a little while leaving Star to cry in the mud puddle her cloths ruined along with her confidence.
An 8 ½ year old Star came down the stairs to the cellars of castle Rose to where a group of six girls were gathered around in a circle giggling. In the dead of night Star was going to be initiated into a club of friends, her first club know as the garden sisters. When they noticed Star one of them called out to her.
"Are you ready girl?" Star smiled nodding her head as she replied.
"I was born ready." Star came down to their group with all the lights being put out one by one until darkness covered the room. A bullseye lantern was opened right in front of Star's face making her wince, but she put up with it as that was the initiation with one of the girls speaking.
"So Star, do you agree to uphold the sacred code of the garden sisters. To play hard and rely on each other for anything?" Star nodded speaking up.
"I do garden master."
"Even though you're a half Monster?" Star immediately got nervous shaking slightly as she responded bravely.
"Yes." The girl spoke again.
"Then let the initiation begin." Two girls immediately grabbed Star and put a muzzle over her head tightening down and pushed her into a cage that one had brought up. "Stay in there all night and tell no one of what happened, and we will trust you." The other girls giggled with Star chuckling along nervously holding onto her tail in worry. As they left the cellar they closed the door behind them making Star realize just how cold it was in the basement making her shiver and sneeze.
The next morning no one had come down to find Star and her parents were worried. Asking around they sensed the girls were hiding something and asked the lord of the manor if the girls had any secret places they gathered in as Star may have fallen asleep and the girls were not willing to tell them. He chuckled and directed them to the basement where they found Star wearing a muzzle, in a cage, and just barely alive due to the cold damp. As Moon warmed Star up upstairs after getting the muzzle off Toffee faced down the group of girls with a cold stare that made them shrivel. He spoke with a cold monotone voice that he used when great pain might occur to someone soon.
"Why exactly did you lock up my daughter down there? And speak the truth; I am in a very bad mood right now." The girls shivered until one broke and spoke.
"We were initiating her into the garden sisters and left her downstairs. But we wouldn't' have let her in be…" She was cut off by their "leader" who shushed her, but a cold glare from Toffee made her back down. "… be-because she's a half-blood sir, we would never be able to trust her." He fixed them all with a cold stare and spoke slowly.
"You do realize that because of her cold-blood she could have died down there right?" They all looked ashamed except for their leader who still tried looking defiant. "Next time, if you don't want someone to join you, just say no." He then turned to Lord Rose. "Next time you allow something like this to happen, you won't be getting off with just a warning. Got it?" Lord Rose nodded in fear as Toffee turned around. "For now discipline your children as you see fit, make sure this doesn't happen again."
"Star come on out of the bathroom, you've been in there for two hours." Toffee looked at Moon as he spoke with Moon getting nervous as well. He sighed and spoke again, "Star, you had better be decent." And kicked down the door with a scream of "NO" coming from in the bathroom.
The parents stood there looking in to see Star standing there with some sort of white cream over her body making her skin look like her mother's, except where it had washed off. They also saw her claws had been ripped off with fake nails inserted into those areas. One of her eyes was covered with a blue contact lense covering her now grey-green eye. Her hair had been dyed a blond color but it was coming out in spots showing her silver hair beneath. Her tail was lying on the other side of the room cut off with something crudely taped over the stump of it to keep it from regrowing. She currently had a file in hand and seemed to be trying to file down her teeth as they had burst in. They stared at each other for a solid minute before Star burst into tears falling to the ground as Moon and Toffee came over hugging her.
"*sniff* It's not working. *sniff* The make-up and hair dye is coming out with water, *sniff* and my claws and tail just keep on growing back. *sniff* I lost one of the contact lenses *sniff* and the file is not working in the slightest. *sniff* I just want to be normal." Toffee and Moon hugged Star close with Moon speaking softly and sweetly.
"My dear you are normal for who you are. Don't go and try to be someone else's normal if it means hurting yourself like this. We love you deeply and will never throw you aside like those girls did. Now please promise us you'll never do this again." Star sobbed for a few minutes before nodding her head. "Alright, let's clean you up; you'll be pretty in no time."
The 9 year old Star looked out over the garden to the star filled sky and sighed content as a 20 something man walked up beside her speaking softly.
"My dear, are you ok out in the cold like this." Star chuckled as it was quite warm right now turning up to him speaking softly.
"No big brother, not tonight at least." She called him that as he was close to her compared to most people; a knight who had sworn service to her alone. He held out a rose to Star which she took pricking herself on the thorns.
"Oh my lady, I am so sorry for hurting you." Star chuckled and held up her hand speaking to him.
"Oh don't worry, I'm a quick healer." Star tried to make it heal but found nothing would happen. "That's odd, usually it…" Star blinked looking up at the man's smile as he pulled out a dagger as her look turned from peace to fear.
"*he he he he he*Yes, it usually does now does it. Of course if you're pricked with the right kind of poison that is temporarily halted now isn't it?" His smile turned carnivorous as Star tried to run but he moved quickly knocking her to the ground and pinning her down with a dagger at her throat. "Say hello to all the monstrosities in hell for me wi…" He then stopped getting a shocked look on his face as fell over to the side with a sword embedded in his own back. Star scrambled away looking up in fear to see Buff Frog standing there chuckling at the knight before speaking.
"He's good, but I'm better." He then turned to Star who ran up to him grabbing on tightly as Buff Frog comforted her. "There there my little munchkin, you are alright now." Buff Frog looked down at her and frowned as he saw something in Star's eyes that made it clear she wasn't fine, paranoia and despair.
A 10 year old Star was sunning herself in the white box canyon without a care in the world as she watched bugs float about above her head batting at them the way a cat would occasionally. Giggling to herself she looked up and around looking for signs of her parents ready to duck and cover should they appear; she had run off from them to sun herself in a place without anyone around. As she went back to lazing about however she felt the ground start to rumble with rocks clattering and looked up to where it seemed to start from, the box end. As she looked up she saw a heard of large beasts come running down the canyon at full speed in her direction with Star taking a second to realize what kind of danger she was in. Gaping at them for a second Star turned and ran on all fours as fast as she could looking for something to protect her from the herd, anything. The herd however was swiftly catching up to her so she had to choose quickly and by reflex began climbing a dead tree in the canyon taking her about ten feet off the ground. She gripped onto the tree hard thinking she was safe, until the rushing animals began bouncing the tree around like a toy threatening to shake Star off. Star gripped on for dear life thinking to herself 'I'm never going to leave my parents again, I'm never going to leave my parents again, I'm never going to leave my parents…'
"Star!" Star looked up to see Bonibell fluttering right above her and yelled out to her.
"Bonnibell help me!"
"Your parents are on their way hold on!"
"HURRY!" Nearby Moon flew down in her Butterfly form, blue skin with six arms and large indigo moth wings, with Toffee, Willow, River, Buff Frog, and several other figures pulling up alongside her looking down in fear. Bonnibell immediately fluttered up to them pointing to Star.
"There there, on that tree!" Everyone looked up gaping horror as Star struggled to hold on with Moon yelling other.
"Don't worry sweetie, mommie's coming!" As Moon took off however another yell rang out from the other side of the canyon.
"Let the black spears fly, and bring down these abominations! JOHANSEN HO!" javelins, arrows, and other projectile weapons came flying down the canyon forcing Moon to use a magical shield to stop them; keeping her from getting to Star.
The tree Star was on gave a creak and moved like it was being pushed over as the rush of beasts ran by with Star screaming in fear. Toffee's eyes went cat-pupil yellow as he leapt in the rush of creatures and ran with the herd to Star's position on all fours. Everyone else in their group either fired back at the assassins with magic, weapons, or anything they could get their hands on with the remainder fretting over the fact that they could do nothing. Star held on desperately as she felt the tree grow weaker by the second and looked at Moon who was unable to let her guard down enough to even move across the canyon and pick Star up. Star tried calling out to her mother but felt the tree give way falling to her doom, until Toffee caught her in his mouth like a cat would running through the herd holding onto her.
He moved his head allowing Star to cling onto his belly as he used the beasts for cover to avoid projectile fire from the Johnsen's. He was in no permanent danger as he could heal even from the herd trampling him, but Star's healing was weaker and if he stumbled enough to fall no one would be able to save Star. Toffee gritted his teeth in determination taking a beast to the side nearly bowling him over but used the momentum caused by the impact to roll over and right himself. Ducking under a few more legs he finally made it to the edge and started climbing with the Johnsen's' taking notice and shooting at him. Moon did the best she could blocking projectiles from Toffee with everyone else providing cover fire with limited success. After an agonizing two minutes Toffee finally made it up the side of the cliff… just as one of the Johansen spears dislodged a massive boulder right above them. Reacting quickly Moon directed her magic up shattering the boulder as Toffee blocked damage from their daughter but was struck in the side by a javelin making Moon flail and fall into the rushing herd below.
"MOOOOM!" Star ran to the edge of the cliff looking down in fear as Toffee looked down as well calling out.
"MOON!" The fighting came to a standstill as the assassins called out.
"The Monster whore lies DEAD!" Cheering emerged from them while those on Moon's side looked on in horror hoping something more would happen.
As hope wilted away slowly a blue light emerged in the middle of the rushing herd growing in strength making everyone fall silent until it exploded out wards throwing beasts around like rag dolls. Moon emerged from the herd glowing with power and turned towards the opposing Cliffside with fury all over her face. She directed all her energy into sweeping the cliff side with a massive stream of magic, flattening everything before going back to her side collapsing in exhaustion. Everyone clustered around Moon pulling out the javelin and trying to see to the brutal trample she had just been through; but cleared a path as Star grabbed onto her mother sobbing desperately.
"I'll never run off again; please be alright mommy!" Moon held her daughter close rubbing her head for comfort as Toffee came from the other side holding both of them close.
"THIS ISN'T OVER YET MONSTER WHORE!" Everyone looked up to see one last assassin staring down on them with hatred as other fled. "THAT ABOMINATION'S HEAD WILL BE MOUNTED ON A PIKE!" A few streams of magic, most notably from Willow, struck out across the cliff face towards the assassin missing as they ducked down behind rocks.
Star sat in her bath tub looking at her arm with a sense of numbness around her. Her mother had nearly been killed trying to protect her from people who wanted her dead simply because of what she was. All of her past memories came back into her face like garbage that had been forgotten about and left to rot with time seemingly making things worse. Her knight had tried to kill her, her "friends" in the garden sisters had toyed with her, multiple boys had led her on only to laugh at her, and so many more small memories that she couldn't even distinguish between them at times. She looked down at her arm, her ugly and cold grey arm that belonged on a dumb lizard and not a princess. She felt tears come to her eyes as she remembered how her parents had tried to keep noble children at bay but couldn't seem to do anything at times. She extended her claws and sliced at her arm feeling some pain, but it only made her feel alive. She needed to keep her parents safe, and she might as well save everyone the trouble of doing all this to get to her. She sliced deeper making blood flow, but it stopped as her healing abilities kicked in to stabilize the wound against her will.
"No, stop healing." Star sliced again going in deeper feeling pain race up her arm. "Stop healing." She embedded her claws in feeling the flesh heal around them. "Stop healing!" Star began shredding her arm as best she could hearing movement from outside as people moved around. "STOP HEALING!" The door was burst down revealing Toffee and Moon who saw Star in a tub filling up with her own blood as she shredded her arm. "STOP HEALING!" Toffee immediately pulled Star out and restrained her as Moon used her magic to stop the bleeding. "NO NO, IT WILL HEAL! I NEED TO KEEP AT IT!" Moon and Toffee pulled Star into a hug which she struggled in until she realized that her parents were crying. As Star calmed down Moon spoke through sobs.
"I'm sorry Star, we have failed you." Her parents sobbed for a minute before Toffee spoke through his own sobs.
"We were supposed to protect you from the world; and we failed you." Star quieted down and let them hug her crying out their own anguish as Star cried out hers.
You want to know if you're writing a good sad story? You begin crying as you are writing and editing your piece. I'm sorry MonStar, but I had to do this. :'(