Title: Maternal Instinct
author: jmaria
tth100
prompt: Kit
Crossover fandom: Dark Angel
Characters:
Kit, Dawn, Zack, Lydecker
Prompt: 002. Death
Word
Count:
Rating: FR-15
Disclaimer: Joss owns
Kit, Dawn, & Carlos, James Cameron & Co. own Zack and
Lydecker
Summary: She doesn't need to see a body to know
the truth.
Set: Mommy's Little Angel (1?)
Maternal Instincts
Sometimes it feels like it isn't real, like maybe it was a story I once heard. Like it never really happened at all. I was thirteen when it happened - the first and last time I ran away from Sunnydale without a reason. The last time I ran, the whole city collapsed in on itself. But tonight, here in Cleveland, with Eyes Only zooming across my screen, it feels even more real.
May of '99, I gave birth in a private clinic somewhere in Wyoming to a little boy with the biggest, curious eyes I'd ever seen on a baby. Hell, it was the closest I've been to a baby in my whole life. And I was it's mother. His mother. Nicholas Zachary Holburn. Guess that's not his name now. Donald would have changed it. The mothers weren't allowed to know his last name, just to call him Donald. Truth was, we were half afraid of them, 'cept for Anita. She hated him. So did I, but Anita actually voiced it. Heard she fought when they tried to take her baby. I was too scared and I was the first.
I lost a lot of myself that day - the day they took Nicky from me. Never knew what happened to him. Somehow, I knew he was alive. Don't ask me how - I just sorta knew. And then last night - it felt like my heart was being ripped from my chest. And now Eyes Only is angrily announcing the death of two X-5, and a possible third. Tinga and Max, and Zack was m.i.a.
And I know deep in my heart that it was my Nicky that died. Don't ask me how. Cause I really don't want to think that he's really truly gone.