The next morning Derek wakes up first and sees Meredith sound asleep. He knows she isn't feeling well because she isn't snoring. He sighs, wishing she felt better.
He looks at the clock and sees he needs to wake her up.
He gently rubs her shoulder. "Mer, sweetie, time to wake up."
"Nooo." Meredith grumbles.
"We need to go to the hospital for your chemo session."
"Wanna sleep. I hate chemo." Meredith murmurs
"I know you don't like it. But we need to get you healthy again. Come on, let's get up. We need to leave in 30 minutes."
"No more needles." Meredith whines. She opens her eyes and he sees the tears about to fall out. "I don't like needles."
"I know babe. I know." He sighs and gives her a kiss on the forehead. "I wish I could do this instead of you. You don't deserve any of this."
"Neither do you." She mutters and closes her eyes.
"Mer, you need to wake up. No going back to sleep." Derek says, knowing this is one of her stalling tactics.
Meredith fakes snoring.
Derek smiles. "I know you're not sleeping Meredith Grey." He goes to tickle her and she bursts out with lots of giggles.
"Der, Derek! Stop! That tickles!" She says giggling.
"If you get out of bed I'll stop tickling you." He says, continuing to tickle her.
"Okay, okay! I'm up! You win!" She says opening her eyes and narrowing them at him. She sticks her tongue out at him. She gets out of bed slowly as she's feeling super weak. She heads slowly to the bathroom.
"Do you need any help in there?"
"I'm okay." She says softly. She gets dizzy and has to sit down on the ground for a minute. After a minute or so the dizziness has passed and she's able to get up and get ready. She throws on her Dartmouth sweatshirt and leggings. Once she's finished she leaves the bathroom. She sees Derek is all ready to go.
"I'm all set if you're ready to go." He says and she nods reluctantly.
They go to the car and start driving to the hospital. Derek looks over and sees that she's fallen asleep.
When they get there Derek gently shakes her awake. "Mer, we're here sweetie."
Meredith nods.
Derek helps her inside as he sees she's a little unsteady on her feet. He hates that she's already so weak and she hasn't even started chemo yet today.
Derek and Meredith head up to the floor and find Bailey. Bailey brings them to a room and gets Meredith checked in. She has Meredith change into a hospital gown. She takes some blood from Meredith's port.
"Mer, I'm going to give you some fluids. I think you're a little dehydrated. Have you been able to eat or drink anything?"
Meredith shakes her head. "I haven't been hungry." She says softly.
"I know but you need to keep your strength up so you can fight the cancer. Do you think you could try to eat a little snack?"
"I can try I guess." Meredith says softly.
"Okay, thank you Meredith. I'll have a nurse bring you some chocolate pudding. Hopefully that'll be easy to get down."
"I can go grab it for her." Derek says and goes to get the pudding.
"Bailey?" Meredith asks softly.
"Yeah Grey?"
"I'm scared."
"I know you are. But you can do this. I know you can."
"But I'm already feeling so sick all the time. I don't know if I can survive this." Meredith whispers.
"Hey! None of that nonsense! You will survive this! I will not let you die!" Bailey says.
Meredith doesn't say anything.
Bailey starts the chemo and Meredith winces at the burning sensation she feels at it entering her body.
"I'm going to insert the iv for your fluids now."
"I don't want that!" Meredith cries.
"Mer, you need it. Plus I just got your blood work back and you're more dehydrated than I thought."
"I don't like needles!"
"I know sweetie, but it's for your own good. It'll help you feel better."
Meredith nods but isn't happy. Bailey inserts the iv into her arm and starts the fluids.
An hour into the chemo session Meredith is starting to feel really sick.
"D-Der… don't feel good." Meredith whispers.
He quickly grabs the bucket for her and she throws up into it.
She starts to cry after she finishes. "I don't feel good Derek! I want to feel good again!" She wails.
"Shhh, I know. Close your eyes and take a nap. That'll help you."
Meredith stubbornly doesn't listen and continues crying. "I don't feel good!" She wails.
Derek gets into bed with her to help calm her down. He holds her in his arms and rubs her back. "Shhhh. You're okay! Close your eyes babe. Get some sleep. It'll help you."
Meredith is too exhausted to fight anymore and lets her eyes close and instantly falls asleep.
Derek lets a tear escape before he quickly wipes it away. He hates seeing Meredith so sick.
Meredith wakes up a few times during her nap to throw up.
A few hours later she wakes up from her nap. "Der… need to pee."
"Okay, do you need any help?"
"I'm okay." She says softly. She weakly grabs her iv pole and drags it with her.
"Be careful with your iv and chemo iv."
She nods and weakly walks towards the bathroom.
Once there she closes the door behind her. She quickly uses the bathroom and stands up to wash her hands but all of a sudden gets really dizzy. Everything starts spinning around her.
"D-Der…dizzy" she whispers. "N-need h-help."
Meredith collapses to the floor.
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