Okies guys. Here's the next chap. Enjoy !
Chap. 19 : Feelings.
Carol's POV
When I reached my room, I headed straight for the showers coz' I stink like hell.
' This might cool me down a bit.' I thought as I turned on the water, letting it flow freely to my skin. But it was no use, the more I try not to think of it, the more I drifted my thoughts to it.
" Holy fucking asshole shit. Hope you disappear, Hiwatari." I cursed under my breath.
After taking a shower, I decided that writing feelings on my journal won't hurt. After all, my journal is way much safer to keep my feelings coz' if I tell Blazarine, he might blurt it out to another bitbeast but a book can't do that. A book can't even think or talk.
' What in shit hell damn fuckin' heck has gotten into me ?' I thought as I started to write my journal, cursing Kai for getting into my life and messing it up. Just as I was about to curse stupid Kai to his deathbed, a knock was heard at the door.
" Who's that." I asked as I opened the door and positioned into martial arts style in case it was some baddie. Much to my surprise, it was Hilary. She was taking a bag in her hand.
Normal POV
" Can I sleep her for the night ?"asked Hilary.
" Of course you can !" said Carol as she closed the door.
" Wow ! I LOVE our room. It totally ROCKS !" exclaimed Hilary, examining a stack of comics stacked neatly beside Carol's bag. " You read these ?" asked Hilary, pointing to another stack that was labeled ' Spiral '.
" Yup ! I think they're cool and full of action." Said Carol dreamily.
" Uh huh." Said Hilary blankly as she spotted Carol's journal lying open on the desk.
" Ooh. Carol's diary, let's see." Said Hilary flipping through the pages, looking for an interesting content to read.
" HEY ! GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY BOOK !" said a pissed off carol.
" My, my. What's this ? Hate you Hiwatari for mak-" Hilary didn't get to finish her sentence and was cut off by Carol, pinning her to the wall and dropping the black book. ( Don't worry, she didn't use much strength )
" Don't think that I don't dare to throw you out of the room." Said Carol darkly.
" Alright. I get the picture." Surrendered Hilary as Carol let her down, picking up her journal. Just then, A plan struck Hilary.
" Hate Hiwatari for making my life miserable. And hate means love. Somebody loves Mr. Sourpuss." Mocked Hilary on purpose.
" Why you little creep !" shouted Carol as she threw the object nearest to her and aha ! The plan worked ! Carol threw her diary over towards Hilary and Hilary caught the book.
" Heehee. Gotcha !" smirked Hilary as she read the contents aloud.
Kai is so dumb but apart from that, I sometimes think he's quite cute. Sigh, poor him. Tyson got him pissed off again and Tyson got bashings from him. He's quite dreamy when he does that.
Hilary laughed her head off reading that.
" Stop it. Now gimmie back my diary." Said Carol as she blushed scarlet red.
" Wait ! there's more."
Sigh. Another boring school day. This time, It was Tyson that pissed me off.. Well, who does he think he is I thought as I chased him. Kai helped me out too by blocking him in the front. Although he's cold on the outside but I know he has a good heart.
Hilary burst into pearls of laughter while carol turned into a deeper shade of red.
" Give it back, NOW !" she yelled as she snatched the book from Hilary's hands. " Don't you dare say to anyone about this or else you'll be sorry." Warned Carol as she placed her book on the desk and sat down. " You can sleep on the bed. I'm used to sleep on the couch." Said Carol coldly, grabbing her pen.
Seeing that carol was in a bad mood, Hilary just laid on the bed, thinking of other stuff.
Dear Diary,
Hilary just pissed me off. Sigh. Thought that she was the best but never mind. Anyway, she mentioned about Kai when she was reading you. The nerve !Well, today we went ice skating and surprise surprise ! Kai was there too. When Hilary wasn't around, he taught me how to do it. Sigh, wonder what hit me today coz' I kept blushing in front of him. His hand was warm when he held my hands while teaching me to skate. It was pure joy. Don't know why but I think I'm some kind off crazy suddenly. I'm always thinking about him. Argh ! I'm doing it again. What do you suppose I do ?
/ Sure you don't have any feelings for Kai /
/ Shut up, Blazarine./
/ What temper ! Wonder how will Kai cope with you./
/ I said shut up./
/ You love Kai. You love Kai./
/ SHUT YOUR ASS AND GO EAT YOUR SHIT NOW / said an angry Carol as she slammed her diary shut and sat on the couch with fury.
" What ?" asked Hilary.
" Nothing."
" Liar liar." Mocked Hilary.
" I said nothing." Said Carol impatiently.
That sat there in silence, sinking deep in their own thoughts.
" Do you like Kai ?" asked Hilary suddenly.
" I believe that's none of your concern." Said carol coldly.
" Awww, c'mon. I'm dying to know."
" Yeah, then go do it. Then you can tell me by telepathic if you went to heaven or hell." Said carol.
" Please ?" pleaded Hilary, showing carol her puppy eyes.
" Yup. I like him as my best buddie." Confirmed carol.
Hilary sweatdropped.
" I admitted that I like him. What's wrong with that. A pal to pal friendship."
" No. I see something deeper that just friendship." Said Hilary, shaking her head.
" Yeah, whatever."
" Let's use a more appropriate word. Love perhaps ?" smiled Hilary innocently.
" You are DEFINITELY not gonna scare the wits out of me with that." Said Carol.
" Awww, c'mon."
" You've gotta be kidding me." Choked Carol.
" I'm serious. This concerns your whole future you know." Said Hilary sternly.
" Why do you care anyway." Said Carol, looking away.
" Because I'm your friend. And friends care about each other." Said Hilary.
" Don't know don't care."
" You better say it or else." Smirked Hilary as she pointed towards the desk.
" You wouldn't do it. You're even afraid of an ant !" said Carol with horror.
" Try me." Said Hilary.
" OH WHATEVER. I LIKE HIM, HAPPY NOW ?" exploded carol like a wild bird that has been kept in a cage for years, waiting for its freedom to arrive.
" I thought you'd never say it." Smiled Hilary. ( I agree ! )
" Whatever." Blushed Carol as she slept, turning to another side opposite from Hilary.
" Hey, it's not a crime to love somebody. Who expected that." Said Hilary, trying to cheer Carol up.
" Yeah. And you don't know how it feels like to not have him around when you miss him." Said Carol bitterly.
' C'mon. I missed Tyson a bunch when I went to Oosaka." Said Hilary.
" Yeah, yeah whatever. You don't know how miserable that Hiwatari has made my life. Not even the whole Hiwatari property can be enough to repair it." Said Carol, with bitterness in her sentence.
" Awww, c'mon. Where's the Carol I knew ?" said Hilary.
" Ha-ha, very funny." Said Carol sarcastically.
" So what's the next move gonna be ?" asked Hilary.
" Square two, stop thinking about him and back off from his personal life. I'm not that important to him anyway." Said Carol.
" When you want something, you go earn for it." Encouraged Hilary, sad to see her best friend like that.
" Kai and me ? Together ? Never, impossible." Said Carol as she turned around to face Hilary with a sad smile.
" Things can change, there's still a chance."
" Then I choose to retreat. He's better off with that girl anyway. Besides, can see that he looks happy with it. As long as he's happy, I'm happy." Said Carol softly as she drifted to dreamland.
' You've changed carol. Of course, Love can change a person. But love is a different matter. You have to fight for it.' Thought Hilary as she slept peacefully.
How was the confessing part ?Was it lame ?Was it stupid ? Was it funny ? Was it nice ? Sigh, homework is piling up at my desk. Better go do it now or else.. DUNDUNDUN !