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A/N: Hmmmm... This is a revamp on my chapter; I deleted the previous 1 in an act of stupidity. So I had to start again. Thank you to my BETA Junsui Kegasu. I would be lost at sea without her. I am soooo sorry this took so long. Please forgive me!
"Talking"
'Thinking'
Warning: This story contains abuse, Yaoi, and drug usage. Don't like; don't read! It really is that simple!
Ch.2: Classes and the Broken Mask
Last Chapter:
'All right, room 211, here I go. I hope that he won't introduce me...I really hate to be put on the spot; it's just so unfair. People tend to stare at you, and when they stare they notice stuff, which isn't good for people like me. Oh shit, I almost walked right past it! Well... here goes nothing...'
"OK, THE POWER OF YOUTHFULNESS HAS ONCE AGAIN TAKEN OVER ON THIS NEW YEAR," Gai-sensei stated as random waterfalls crashed in the background.
Sakura slowly opened the door, hoping that she would be able to take her seat and not be noticed. Sakura never got what she wanted though, and today would be no exception. "AH... AND IT SEEMS THAT WE WILL BE ADDING MORE HOTBLOODED YOUTH TO THIS CLASS."
'Dammit, I thought he wouldn't notice that I came in.' Sakura handed her paperwork to him and started to walk to an empty seat.
"WAIT! I SEE THAT YOU ARE FULL OF EAGERNESS, OH YOUTHFUL ONE. I WOULD LIKE YOU TO SAY A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF SO THAT THE OTHERS MIGHT GET TO KNOW YOU."
'Damn why is he so fucking loud, it's eight o'clock in the freaking morning.' Sakura had finally looked over at her new teacher. He looked like a reject out of a Bruce Lee movie. The shine from his hair and teeth blinded her any time the sun hit it, and that god-awful green suit… Sakura could not help but cringe. She took a deep breath and started to speak. "My name is Haruno Sakura, I am seventeen years old, and I moved here from Tokyo. I like music. That is all."
"OH, HOW YOUTH SHINES!" Another random waterfall crashed in the background.
'How the hell does he do that?' Sakura wondered, but then changed her mind. She, in fact did not want to know how he did what he did and decided that she wanted to know as little about him as humanly possible.
Sakura walked to the back and took a seat near the window. "AHHH! Gai-sensei! How come that ugly girl gets to sit beside Sasuke-kun?" Sakura looked over; she hadn't realized that she had indeed sat beside the stoic boy she met earlier this morning.
"Don't worry Ino-chan, you know that Sasuke can't stand to sit near another girl after what happened last year. He will get up and move later," said a girl sitting next to her. Sakura had glanced over in the direction of the blond that had spoken; she was fuming to say the least. Just then, Sakura felt a tap on her shoulder.
"Hey Sakura-chan, don't worry about Ino. She is a complete bitch!" Naruto started talking to her and asking her about her classes. Sakura took this time to look around to see whom else she would have known from earlier this morning. It seemed that the only people she knew were Sasuke, Naruto, and Gaara. Naruto sat behind her while Sasuke sat beside her. Gaara was in his own little corner at the other side of the room sitting there writing something down at a feverish pace. Sakura was saddened at this, just for the simple fact that Hinata wasn't there. Naruto asked to see her schedule, and she handed it to him. She went back to a daze of staring out the window that she had been seated by.
Once again, the tapping on her back was there, snapping her out of her thoughts, which weren't really thoughts to begin with, just random sentences that popped into her head.
"Look, you got lucky, all of us have a free block at the end of the day so we can just go home and relax." Sakura flinched at the simple thought of seeing Jin anymore then she had to. Sasuke, who had been paying attention to the whole conversation noticed this and took a mental note.
"Well, do you know if I have any classes with Hinata?" Sakura asked.
"Oh... Hm... Yeah! You do; she has chemistry next period, and I know that she wanted to take advanced healing, I think she has that too." Sakura relaxed a little bit, knowing that her best friend was with her some of the day. "Yo, Sasuke. Don't you have chemistry next period too?" Naruto asked, almost hinting to something that Sakura didn't quite get.
Sasuke lifted his head off the desk, and let out a long sigh as if he was irritated that he had been disturbed. "Yes I do, now shut-up; it's too early to be this talkative in the morning. Isn't Gai-sensei enough?"
Naruto didn't know how to take this statement, but before he could speak Gai had broken into another one of his rants. He began passing out books, and the curriculum that the class was going to be studying. Sakura glanced down at the paper and noticed that there were two semester projects that counted for seventy-five percent of their grade. 'How the hell is that fair? If you fail that or get a horrible grade on it, there is no fixing it!' She looked around and noticed that most of the other people had the same look on their face.
The rest of the class went in the same fashion. Gai kept talking about poetry and going through the curriculum for that year. Sakura was in a daze most of the class period. Every now and then Naruto would try to talk to her, but she really wasn't paying attention. She noticed out of the corner of her eye that the Uchiha boy kept looking over at her, even if it was for a few seconds if that.
'What is he looking at?' Sakura wondered as she drifted off into another daze. She began to stare out the same window that she was occupied with earlier. Eventually she got bored with watching the birds and glanced at the clock. 'Only five minutes left.' Slowly, she started to organize her things.
"Oh, I will explain the semester projects next class." Sakura thought for a minute and realized that it was the first time during the whole class that Gai-sensei was speaking in a normal tone.
RINGGGGGGGG
"OK LET YOUR YOUTH GUIDE YOU! CLASS DISMISSED"
As everyone left Sakura, Naruto and Sasuke remained. They were taking their sweet time, and were not in any rush to get to their next class. "Oh, Naruto do you know where my chemistry class is?"
"Well, I do, but it's on the other side from where my class is. Hey Sasuke why don't you walk her to class?"
Sasuke could do nothing but look at Naruto and glared. He really didn't want to drag the girl around and have her follow him like she was some lost dog. Sakura noticed this and opted to save him the trouble of being rude.
"No, that's ok Naruto I will find it on my own. I don't want to trouble anyone. If you could, can you point me in the right direction?"
Sasuke looked like he was going to pass out from shock. It had been the first time that he could remember that a female did not want to be in his company. It wasn't that he was insulted, just that he was not used to it. After overcoming the initial disbelief he grabbed her by the arm and walked her out the door.
Sakura shrunk at this gesture automatically. Sasuke, once againnoticed this and left it as a mantle note.
"Come on I'm goin' that way just follow me."
"Huh, umm... ok..."
Naruto was left dumbfounded as he watched his best friend walk away with said girl. He then realized that he was going to be really late and hauled ass out the door.
Not a word was spoken between the two of them the entire walk. Both of them seemed to like it that way. Sasuke hated to be in the company of anyone really, even Naruto was too much for him sometimes. Sakura just didn't like mindless chatter and was happy just walking. They finally came to a hallway that was almost deserted and at the very end reached their class.
The teacher was not there yet so everyone was still standing and talking. Both Sakura and Sasuke took their seats. Sakura found Hinata and took a seat beside her, and Sasuke sat behind Hinata.
"Thank god. I thought I was not going to see you all day, Hinata!"
"Oh, hi Sakura-chan. How was your first class?"
"It was hmmm... interesting? I think that's a good word to describe it." Sakura said while laughing. Hinata looked confused at this and turned to Sasuke. Sasuke mouthed "Gai", and all was understood.
Fifteen minutes after the bell rang a man with silver hair finally walked in. He was holding a book that seemed to Sakura to be a smutty romance novel. Sakura was just happy he wasn't another Gai. It was just to damn early to be that happy and enthusiastic. This man seemed laid back and pretty much uncaring about teaching all together.
Nothing eventful happened in this class at all. Text books where assigned and the layout for the year was given to them as well. The rest of the time was filled in with chatter and talking. Hinata and Sakura filled each other in on their summers and talked about the old times. Sasuke was just listening, for some reason this new girl interested him.
'Why does she interest me? She is not pretty, actually she is rather plain if you minus the pink hair.' Sasuke did take notice of one thing in particular. While speaking with Hinata, Sakura kept looking down, her arms wrapped around herself. 'She's hiding something'
Next was gym this seemed to bring the whole group back together that Sakura had met this morning. Neji was a year ahead of them and was graduating this year. He didn't really need this class at all, but he took gym because he liked sports. Again not much was going to happen for the simple fact that it was the first day. Lockers were given out, and normal paperwork was handed to the students. Everyone in the group was making small talk until the bell rang for lunch.
"Hey Hinata-chan, I have a free block after this... sooo..."
"Oh, That's ok Sakura, we all do. Normally we go to someone's house after lunch, well that's what we did last year during our free period. I think it would be a good idea if everyone came to our house today. Is that ok Neji?"
Neji looked like he wanted to burn a hole through his cousin's head. That meant that everyone would be there and everyone included him. Neji was still very angry and hurt over what was said during the breakup.
NEJI'S POV
I can't believe what just came out of your mouth! I can't do anything but glare at you. I can tell that you are scared because you shrink back toward Naruto. Do you even know? Well... of course you know, but if everyone comes over then he will be there. I don't want to see him; I can't see him. We haven't spoken since that day. I really can't do anything now. I'm in a daze. I hear you try to say something, but it comes out muffled and you're stuttering because I made you nervous. I get up to walk out; I'm going home now.
"Hey Neji where are you goin'" I think it was Naruto's voice, but I'm not sure. I turn around and the only reply I can think of comes out, "home".
I walk out into the courtyard. There you are sitting by a tree, notebook in hand. I have come to notice something; you are never without something to write in. I can't move; no matter how hard I try, I'm stuck. There I am staring at you, they way you look writing down in your book, I wonder what you are writing; I always did but never asked. It always just seemed wrong to ask.
It must have been ten minutes that I was out there staring, but I can't help it I miss you. You look up, like you have finally noticed that someone was looking at you. You look straight into my eyes; there was a flash of an expression in you face, pain? I quickly look the other way, and start my way to the parking lot to grab my bike, and go home.
GAARA'S POV
I decide to go outside for lunch. I really didn't feel like walking home right now. Even if I did feel like it Naruto would probably have a fit if I tried to leave without sitting, and talking with everyone. So here I am sitting outside under a tree, writing in my book. That's what I do all day is write. I use my life and music to find my inspiration. Right now I have zoned out completely as my hand scribbles words down at an erratic pace. I have finally finished what I was writing. I go to close my book and put it back in my bag.
I can feel someone looking at me, so I look up. It's you. I hold your gaze for a minute, and hope you didn't notice the completely pathetic look that crossed my face. You open your mouth as if to say something but settle for looking hurt, and angry. You eventually break the unseen force that has been keeping our eyes locked, and walk away. I am so sorry really I am. I didn't want to do it but I had to, it's better this way. I know I did what was right for you and me individually. The thing is that I didn't do what was right for us.
I open my book, there is still more that needs to be said...
"Hey! Panda-san!" I cringe at that name, of all things he thinks I look like a fucking panda? I look up at him to acknowledge that I heard him. Let's get goin' we are gonna go to Hinata's house today."
Perfect, could this day get any worse?
NORMAL POV
"Alright Hinata, lets go!' Naruto looked like he was ready to run a marathon with as much energy as he had. Hinata couldn't help but giggle. "Hey we're missing somebody. Where is panda-san?" Everyone sweat-dropped.
"Y-you know N-Naruto, G-Ga-Gaara really does hate that name." Hinata stated looking at those big blue eyes. Oh how she could get lost in them. She shook herself out of her daydream before anyone noticed.
"I know Hinata-chan, that's why I do it." Naruto said with a cat-like grin plastered to his face.
"I'm surprised he hadn't killed you yet idiot." Everyone looked at Sasuke, it was the first time he had said anything the entire forty-five minutes they had been at lunch.
"Awww... he wouldn't do that-- hey! Panda-san! Let's get goin' we are gonna go to Hinata's house today."
There they were getting ready to pile into their cars. Naruto, Gaara and Sasuke into Sasuke's black/white GTO, Hinata and Sakura into Hinata's Lancer, and off they went to the Hyuuga estate.
Five minutes later, they reached the estate. It was a very nice house to live in. The house actually belonged to Neji now that he was eighteen. Everyone had parked their cars and got out making their way toward the door. Once inside everybody took off his or her shoes. Hinata made her way upstairs while everyone else made them selves comfortable in the living room.
Hinata had gone upstairs to change; she loved that dress and didn't want to mess it up. She settled for a pair of black sweatpants and a white tank top. On her way out she stopped by Neji's room, she knew he was home she could here "Another Brick in The Wall", by "Korn" faintly coming from the room.
"Neji, why don't you come down stairs and join the living today?" Hinata suggested. She knew what he was waiting to here, and sadly she couldn't tell him that. She watched him for a few minutes, his lips moving to the words his eyes closed. He was still waiting for the answer to the unspoken question. "Yes Neji, Gaara is downstairs as well." With that being said he flinched and waved her out the door. She shut the door on her way out, and joined her company downstairs.
"Hey is Neji going to be joining us?" Sakura asked, she kind of wanted to get to know the elder Hyuuga a little bit more then a description, and the information that Hinata had gave to her. "No, Sakura-chan, he still isn't home." Everyone knew it was a lie, but said nothing.
"Well what shall we do?" Everyone talked about certain things and no one could really decide on what to do. In the end they sat there talking. Gaara was still writing, but once in a while he added to the discussion. It wasn't that everyone ignored him, but rather they knew when he wanted to talk he would.
Sasuke decide that now would be a good time to get to know his new seatmate. "So what kind of music do you like?" Sakura looked genuinely shocked that he was talking to her. They had just been sitting there listening to Hinata and Naruto talk. Well, Actually it was Naruto talking while Hinata smiled and nodded every now and then. He wasn't sure she heard him so he repeated himself.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I was just kind of shocked that you were speaking to me voluntarily." She said this as a completely honest statement. "After the look you gave Naruto when he asked you to walk me to chemistry, I kind of figured that you didn't really want to be bothered by me, but to answer you question I do like all types of music. Mostly rock, but I can listen to anything as long as it's not a bunch of randomly thrown together words on top of a hot beat." Sasuke had to laugh, just a little.
"I know what you mean, the rock scene is still pretty decent, but... hip-hop, and rap have gone down the drain. I don't think that there is any hope in bringing them back together." Sasuke shook his head as if he was ashamed of it all. Sakura smiled at this when her phone rang. She put her finger up as if to say hold on and walked out of the room. Sasuke silenced Naruto, so her conversation could be heard.
"Hi... No, I'm at Hinata's house... No, I didn't forget...but... NO!... That's not fair...WHAT? FINE! Alright I'm coming home." She came back in the room trying to put on her best smile. I'm sorry you guys but I have to go home now.
"Is everything ok Sakura-chan?"
"Oh, yeah Hinata, but you know Jin, what he says goes. So... I got to leave." Sakura went to give Hinata a hug to say goodbye. As Sakura was about to walk out the door a voice stopped her.
"Hey Sakura, how are you getting home?"
"Oh Sasuke, I was just gonna walk. Its not that far maybe about twenty minutes."
"Oh, well I have to go home anyways. Did you want a ride?"
"No, that's ok I really don't wanna be a bother. Besides it's nice out today. I can walk." Sakura was trying to be as nice as she could, but the truth was that she didn't want Jin to see her with somebody, a guy nonetheless.
"No, I insist it won't be a bother and I could talk to you a little more." Sasuke was really starting to get confused here he was, offering her a ride, and she was refusing him. 'What the hell? Does she even know that all the girls would kill to be her right now?
SASUKE POV
I think I was in such a daze that I didn't even hear you answer me. What was that did you say something? I look over at you, and you speak again. You accept my offer, but there is something in your voice, you must really not like me at all, or maybe you are hiding something. We climb into my car and start to take off.
I can't help but glace over at you. What is it about you? You are not that pretty, and are kind of rude, almost cold like me. 'What the hell? What am I thinking?' God I wish these thoughts would just go away. You look over at me. Did you notice that I was staring? "Hey Sasuke, do you think we could stop and get something to eat?"
"Huh?" I don't think that I heard you. So you repeat yourself. The look on you face is almost pleading as you turn to me. I'm start to stare at you again and this time something catches my eye. You notice it and look away muttering: "never mind." I pull up to a nice diner, that way we can talk. We get out of the car and make our way to a table.
We both order a glass of water and a cheeseburger with fries. I want to ask you what happened, but something tells me that I shouldn't. "What happened to your head?" Awww... shit did I just say that out loud?" Now I KNOW that I shouldn't have said anything. The look on you face says it all, it only crosses your face for a second, but I still see it. I can tell that you wear a mask, just like me.
SAKURA POV
'Oh, shit. Oh shit. He knows. Shut up! He is just asking, that's it, nothing else.' I turn to look at you trying to think of some random excuse. " Oh, I just fell, and hit my head." Oh is all you can reply. I know that was a lame ass lie, but you don't press it. I can tell by the look in your face you can tell that I'm being dishonest. I am truly thankful that you don't ask anymore, or try to pry. The thing is that I'm happy to be back with Hinata and I want to stay here as long as I can. The less you know the better.
Our food arrives and we begin to eat. We start making small talk, not the mindless chatter that most small talk consists of, but actual information being exchanged. I find out that you have an older brother that you live with, but something's off about that. You ask me about my parents, and for the first time I don't know how to answer you, but I try to with the best of my ability. "My mom..." I start out and can already feel the tears forming, "she died four years ago... there was accident, or something, I never learned much about it, just that she died." You look truly sorry for me. Please don't I really don't want you to pity me. I continue on with my past.
"After that I lived with my step-father. You go from looking sorry for me to confused. I forgot I left out the beginning. "... Oh I never got to know my father, my real father. He left us when before my mom had me. She was really young, and I guess he couldn't handle it." Even though I tried to stop the tears they start to flow. I'm so sorry I don't mean to cry in front of you, but it hurt too much to hold them back any longer. I feel your hand come to my face to wipe my tears away. You tell me that I don't have to continue if I don't want to, but I keep going.
I am not going to tell you everything. I can't tell you everything. If you, or anybody finds out I will have to leave. I don't want to leave; Hinata is all I have left. She may be fine without me, but without her I am lost in my own nothingness. I finish talking about my mom, and everything that was good about her. The tears have finally stopped, but I'm still shaking. You look at me, and it seems that you are contemplating on speaking.
"My parents, they are gone to." I hear those words, but there is no emotion behind them. It strikes me as odd. I look into your eyes, and there it is: the pain and heartbreak that I so openly show. It's hidden all in your eyes. No one can see that, but I can. I am normally so incredibly good with my mask, but I let it crack, No it broke in front of you. I look at my phone to see the time. "Umm... Sasuke, I really do have to go home, I'm sorry."
We finish eating in silence. You don't seem offended that I put an end to our conversation. You pay the bill, even after I have pulled out money and laid it on the table. I protest to this, but they fall on deaf ears. You pick up my money, and take my hand. I'm in such a daze; I don't even notice the fact that you have placed the money in it. "Let's get going." You words snap me out of my thoughts and we walk to you car.
NORMAL POV
The drive takes only a few minutes to get there. They pull up in front of the house finding none other then Jin, waiting. Sakura looks increasingly nervous at this fact. Sasuke reaches over to grab her hand, as if to tell her to clam down. She knows that she should prepare for the worst tonight.
While holding her hand he leans over to her ear. "Here", he slips a piece of paper into the pocket of her skirt," if you need anything, or want to talk, call me. It's my cell so don't worry about the time." She nods in comprehension; if he had blinked he wouldn't have caught it. Sakura gets out of the car, and makes sure all her belongings are there.
She begins to take the long walk toward Jin. 'Please don't hit me with Sasuke looking.' Jin grabs her shoulder. She feels like her whole arm is about to be disconnected. To anyone that would pass by it would look as if a father was scolding his daughter. Sakura kept a straight face; she didn't want Sasuke to suspect anything. She nodded and waited until Sasuke had driven off before she lost it.
"What the fuck took you so long?" Jin screamed as soon as the car was out of sight. "And who was that boy you were with?"
"Jin I'm s-s-sorry", she used every ounce of strength to hold back the salty water that threatened to run down her face. "Hinata invited me over, and-"
"Shut up! Take your ass inside, and wait for me on the couch." His voice had calmed down a little bit, but Sakura still feared the repercussions of having lunch with Sasuke. 'I thought nothing could bring this day down. I was finally back with Hinata, the only person I have left at all. However life is life, and that is all I have.'
Sakura sits down, but only for a moment before the rampage starts.
"You stupid bitch! You have only been here one day and you are already whoring yourself out?"
"No! Jin! It wasn't like that! I sw-" Sakura could feel the burning on her cheek, and the throbbing of her already black eye. She could not do or say anything now; there wouldn't be another chance for her to speak her piece tonight. Jin continued his assault. He picked her up off the couch by the hair so that she was at his level. Sakura felt a sharp pain in her ribs before she hit the ground. Jin kicked her five times before she had thrown up everything that had been eaten about fifteen minutes prior to that.
"What the hell? I told you that you we not allowed to eat today! After the shit you pulled last night, you shouldn't eat for a week!"
'What shit I pulled? Refusing your advances from the night before? I'm sorry Pops, but punishment for not having sex with you hardly seems fair.' Sakura wanted to glare at this man that stood before her. He continued his insults, and picked her back up to continue his beating. Sakura's head and back were slammed against the wall; knocking all the air out of her already bruised ribs. Her head hit the wall again harder. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." She was not crying, she no longer cried on front of this man. Her body was shaking from adrenaline that raced through her body.
"I'm sorry," she uttered again as her eyes succumbed to the darkness.
A/N: Thank you to the reviews thatI got. the moreI get the happierI am. Well you know the drill R&R.
BETA Notes: WAH, so sorry this took so long, I've been working on my own stuff…9.9