Emma POV

After they all fell asleep I left to see if Jay was actually with someone else.. I mean I know he was I just had to... See it for my self. I walked down the darkend street crying like a little gril who scratched her nee. Walking up to Jay's house scared me to death. I didn't bother knocking not like it mattered to him. I cried when I entered cause I could here groans and what not. I started blankly into the room.. Right there I wanted to die. Just to be gone. I walked out of Jay's house, he didn't even know I was there.. He was passed out with that..that person making love to him.. I walked to a resturant about five blocks from Jay's house. It was kind of trashy but I didn't mind. I didn't mind anything at that point.

I woman walked in and sat at the booth.

"Can I have a bud light." She asked as the cash register dude got her one.. About 3 minutes later I got a drink.. I think it was a beer.. There was only me and that girl in the resturant so it must have been her right? I walked over to and she turned around.

"I can't drink this." I said handing it back to her.

"Of course you can." She replied turning a chair for me to sit down.

"I'm not 18.." I said sitting down.

She has pretty blonde hair and blue eyes.

"Don't matter here." She replied as I started to drink it.

Jay POV

God Cherry was great, but some how I still wanted Emma... Cherry said Emma had walked in.. But it didn't even seem to faze me.. Nothing seemed to faze me at this point. I just laid back and fell unconsious.

Emma POV

So this womans name is Dixie and we had been talking about guys and things and how they always seem to screw up the relationship.

"Has anyone ever told you, you have beautiful hair Emma?" Dixie asked.

I looked down shyly as my hair fell in front of my face. She bent down and gentlely pushed it behind my ear and I smiled.

"Hey it's getting late here and will be closin' soon wana come to my apartment and talk so more?" She asked concernly

Never go withg strangers! Rang through my mind but that's always what my mom has told me and urgh I'm not listening to my mom anymore.

"Sure I'd like that." I said getting my wallet out to pay for the drinks I'd had.

"Don't worry 'bout it, it's on me." She said paying the Bar/Booth tender.

After she payed we talked outside while we walked and before I new it we were at her wonderful house. It was nice, not the best but nice. She unlcoked the door and gestered me to go first. I walked in and sat down, Dixie threw her stuff and sat down beside me.

"Hey, I'll be right back." Dixie said as she got up.

I looked around, not to be nosey or anything... Dixie came back so I went back to the couch as we both sat down.

"Your house is really nice." I as I turned to Dixie.

"I really don't want to talk about my house if you know what I mean." She looked deeply into my eyes. I did know what she meant. All I could think about was Jay though. Dixie leaned in and gently kissed me. JAY JAY JAY! My mind screamed. It also screamed GIRL GIRL GIRL! I turned away and took a deep breath..

"It's okay..." She said so.. meaningfully.. She kissed me again. JAY! he broke my heart.. and she's just trying to mend it.. screw Jay!

I kissed her back our tounges enjoying every second. She wrapped her arms around my waist as I fell back onto the couch. Her hands slivered downward onto my breast! I squeaked and she stopped for a moment and kept going. It felt so right and so wrong at the same time. I mean I don't even like girls, I'm not gay or lesbian I like guys! but she seemed to have a warmth that attracted me.. Maybe she felt this way because of what Jay had done to me.. Maybe this was a dream.. Her velvety hands, first moved up under my shirt but then downward to my jeans until..

I gasped for air. "I can't do this.." I cried and left without saying another word to her.. Without Jay I was nothing, I had nothing.. So.. What did I have to live for?

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