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Death and Rebirth 4: The truth is not like what you see.

In each page, every day's date never failed to appear in the Shuichi's bright little diary. As Yuki read the diary, he notices that each and every entry is filled Shuichi's thought that is not known to anyone, even Yuki. This little diary is even filled with Shuichi's little anger towards Yuki who have kicked him out whenever they fight.

While reading the diary, there are times he looked pissed off by the fact that Shuichi actually cursed him in the diary but at times he smiled thinking how cute Shuichi for babbling non-stop on one little thing that he did for him.

Idiot Yuki! I just accidentally made some noise and he have to kick me out from the house.
Hey! Guess what. Yuki said he's going to bring me out to a dinner on my birthday. This will be an unforgettable birthday!
I'll protect Yuki from his past. I'll never let it hurt him anymore. One day he will be as happy as he used to be. He never suffers alone anymore… I'll protect him.
Yuki stared out in daze for a moment for a moment while resting his head on the wall.

Protect me? How stupid… I can't even protect you, Shuichi…

He loathes himself for ignoring Shuichi's feeling. He thought that the young vocalist was an annoying brat who only knows how to irritate him but now he regretted his thought however, it's too late.

Yuki never stop reading until he reaches the last page, the last entry of the Shuichi's life.

Yuki could not stop himself frozen in his track.

This is the entry he made before a day before he died. Should I read it or should I just close this book and keep it back?

Yuki was afraid. Afraid that there might be something that he should not see in it. He was afraid the real truth of Shuichi's death was all because of him. The little voice in his mind voice out.

Damn it… Eiri Yuki. Just read the damn thing. This is unlike you anymore!

With that, Yuki's determination returned. He opened the page to read it expecting to find a sad and angst entry but instead it's an entry no normal than his usual one but what caught Yuki's eyes was this entry was the amusement park written big letter.

27-2-20XX

This is great! I've managed to get two tickets to the AMUSEMENT PARK! I'll be able to spend my time with Yuki at the amusement park playing happily without anyone to disturb us. This will sure be improving our relationship. Anyway, tomorrow I'll make sure he promises me to go there no matter what. He should take some break from his work anyway. Well… I must get some sleep now to charge my strength for tomorrow Shuichi's mission to get Yuki to go to the Amusement Park. Good Night and I pray that luck will be by my side!

Shuichi

11.15 p.m.

Yuki's eyes widen in shock. He realizes that Shuichi might not have committed suicide. He stood up and quickly walked towards his house phone. He picked up the phone from its cradle and started to dial a number.

'Hello… It's me'

XXXXX

In the tall building of N-G production, Tohma was looking out at Tokyo through the big windows. His wife, Mika was sitting at the couch, drinking coffee.

'It's started to change to the spring season already,' noted Tohma to his wife.

'Yes. This should be better. Winter kind of reminds me of Shuichi-kun,' Mika answered Tohma sadly. Tohma walked over to his wife and sat beside her. Mika then reach out and hugged Tohma.

'Though I do not agree on his relationship with Eiri but it hurts me so much to see my brother suffer likes this.' Mika said in a voice that is closed to break down and cry. Tohma hugged her tightly.

'Don't worry. I'm sure that Eiri-san will be able to regain his strength and move forward.' Just when Tohma finishes his sentence, his phone rang. He and Mika broke off from their embrace and Tohma went to pick up the phone.

'Moshi, Moshi. This is Tohma Seguchi speaking.'

'Hello… It's me.' The voice on the other end spoke. Tohma was surprise to hear that voice as it's been a long time since he last called him.

'Eiri-san…' Mika turned around when she heard that name.

'Ok… I understand. I'll come now.' After he finishes that sentence, Tohma end the phone call. Mika quickly walked over to him.

'Anata… Was that Eiri?' Tohma nodded his head. He went to the hanger to get his hat.

'I'm going to see him now. Can you go home and wait for me?' Mika wanted to protest as she wanted to follow him to Yuki's place but Tohma just gave her a warm smile and she gave up.

After escorting his wife to her car, Tohma called his driver to fetch him at the building's entrance. The drive to Yuki's house took about 20 minutes. Before he went down from the car, he told his driver to wait for his call to pick him up and then he went up towards Yuki's house.

XXXXX

The door bell rang and Yuki went towards the door expecting to see Tohma as he had called the 34 year old keyboardist a moment ago. He opened the door and as usual Tohma smiled at him.

'Konbanwa, Eiri-san,' Yuki turned around to walk back into the house while muttering.

'You're slow.' Tohma chuckled.

'Well… That can't be help. You don't want anyone to be here except me and when you called me that time, Mika was there. I need to get her go home instead of following me here.'

Yuki grunt at that reply. Tohma came into the house and closed the door behind him and then he settle down on the couch. Yuki came out with two cup of coffee. He placed it down on the table and took a place on the couch farther than Tohma.

'Thanks. So, why did you call me today?' Tohma asked after he took a sip from the cup of coffee. Yuki stared at the table in silence before he stood up and walked towards the dining table to get a Shuichi's diary. He handed it over to Tohma and Tohma gave him a puzzled look.

'What is this?' Yuki returned to his place before answering him.

'Shuichi's diary,' Tohma was shocked to hear that, that he thought Yuki was joking but when he saw Yuki's confused expression, he decided to dismiss that thought.

'Shuichi-san's diary?' Yuki nodded in response.

'Read the last entry.' Tohma opened the book and flipped to the last entry. On the way, he was amused by Shuichi's diary as it is very bright and cheerful. It took him around 1 minute to finish it and he turned to Yuki.

'I've read it. So, what does it means?' Yuki stared up at the ceiling.

'I'm starting to wonder is Shuichi's death really a suicide. In that diary, he seemed cheerful and has decided to get me to go to the amusement park with him on that day.' Tohma was kind of shock. He studied the whole diary quietly and notices that there is a page slightly thicker than normal page.

'Eiri-san… Look at this.' Yuki went over to sit closer to Tohma. Slowly and gently, Tohma pulled the two pages apart that reveal an entry without date.

I don't know since when but I have been losing my conscious. Every time I woke up, I would be covered in cut that hurts me. It would be better for me not to tell anyone or they would think that it was Yuki who did that to me. I'm so afraid. Am I going insane soon that I'll lose myself and mutilate myself to death? There is nothing wrong with me so why did I do that to myself? Who can save me…? Yuki… I need you.

After reading that entry, Yuki and Tohma were shock that they were speechless. The first one who broke the silence was Tohma.

'This…this... What could this mean?' Yuki stared at that page in disbelieve.

'What is happening here?'

-End of Death and Rebirth 4: The truth is not like what you see.-

Well… This is already the 4th chapter and as usual, I hope you enjoy it and I don't hope that there is no problem. This is also another fast update. This chapter totally focuses on Yuki in reading Shuichi's diary. The truth is not always what you see. Remember that… Shuichi is actually…. Shh… It's a secret. Wait for further updates and you'll know. Lastly, I noticed that there is something amiss. So, there are changes made. Shuichi actually on 28th of February, not 29th of February. I've made a lot of change but in the end, I decided to change the date. It would make things easier. Anyway, the only changes that is made is Shuichi's date of death. Sorry! Remember… Review… or I'll haunt ya… Hehe… Mata ne… Thanks to those who reviewed. I really really want more review... Sob... sob...