Hey all, sorry for the lack of updates, I dont really have an excuse Im just lazy. You finally get some LP in this chapter and this chapter goes out to Laurie because she bugs me to update so much :P Enjoy the update.
Mel
Haley's POV:
I get out of my car slightly exhausted after the afternoon at Peyton's house. So much was revealed about Peyton and her insecurities and how she never really got over Lucas. I guess she does need to talk to him but not before I do, I will kill him if he hurts her again.
I walk into the lounge room to see Lucas tickling Madison and Madison squealing in delight. I stopped to watch them for a few minutes, mainly Lucas. He really is good with kids and it always made me wonder why he never got married and why he never had kids but I guess maybe that he is just like Peyton too hung up on the love and memories of the past to actually let go so that he could move onto the future.
"Hales." Lucas states simply which pulls me out of my trance and I give them both a warm smile as Madison squirms out of his arms and runs up to me and I scoop her into my arms. I hug her close to me after she kisses my cheek.
"I missed you Mummy." She mumbles against my shoulder and I smile softly.
"I missed you too baby but Daddy wants to see you." She lets out a squeal of delight and then I let her slide to the floor and watch her run out of the room at lightening speed. I turn back to Lucas and give him a soft smile.
"We need to talk Lucas."
"Oh no Haley are you breaking up with me?" He states in mock horror and a cheeky grin as I punch him in the arm and laugh.
"You're such a loser Lucas." I say with a snort.
"Why Haley your so lady like."
"Stop putting me off, Lucas we have to talk seriously." I inform him with a straight face as he sighs and then sits down in the chair across from me.
"Ok Haley, what's on your mind?"
"Lucas Peyton was really upset today and . . ." He jumps out of his seat before I can finish and throws his hands in the air taking a step away from me.
"I haven't been near her Haley, I have been giving her space because I know she is not ready to talk to me so don't you dare blame me for this." He snaps at me and then glares which I return.
"Park your ass down Lucas and let me finish." I snap angrily and he has the decency to look slightly guilty and then he sits down in front of me.
"Now if you had let me finish I would have taken this in a different direction but you have put a point across that it is not your fault but I hate to break it to you Lucas but everything that Peyton cries over is your fault." He shrinks back slightly at my words and I let me voice take a softer tone as I don't really want to scare him or make him mad at me.
"I'm not angry with you Lucas but when it comes down to it what you did to her it hurt her like no one has hurt her before and if affects her everyday." I take a deep breath, "It seems that at this point in time Peyton is not only hurting but she is confused as well, she doesn't know where she should be going with you and if she should forgive you and I guess she really does need to talk to you." I pause again thinking about what I am saying and then I take a deep breath.
"Look Lucas just be careful with her ok, I know that you want to fix things with her but you have to wait for her to make the first move otherwise you have no chance with her." I finally finish my point and look across at him as he smiles at softly.
"Haley I know you love Peyton and that she is one of your best friends and I get that you are very protective of her and that is understandable but that kid who hurt Peyton . . . that's not me anymore, I've changed, I've grown up and I just wish you could see that." I open my mouth to deny that fact but he holds up his hand in an effort to shut me up.
"The whole reason I haven't approached Peyton since last time is because I know that she needs space right now and Jake helped me come to the decision to give her some space, if Peyton wants to talk I will be there but until that time I just have to deal with everything else that's going on at the moment."
He finishes his little speech and gives me a warm smile but I'm still haunted by his comment about me not realizing that he has changed.
"Lucas I'm sorry if I made you think that I don't see that you have changed . . . I never thought that . . . I just . . ." I trail off because I'm not sure what I should say to him, I mean how do I explain that. I link my fingers and place my hands in my lap as I stare at them.
"Haley." He whispers and I look up hesitantly to find him kneeling in front of me with an encouraging smile on his face, "You're my best friend and I don't blame you one bit for thinking that I haven't changed that much because I haven't been here Haley and its ok that you think that."
I smile down at him warmly and then wrap my arms around him in a hug just like we used to when we were teenagers. Things are starting to go back to normal and nothing could ruin this at the moment.
Lucas' POV:
The phone rang as soon as Haley and I pulled apart, Haley went to stand up but the phone stopped ringing and soon we heard the door opening. We both looked up to see Jenny standing there with a smirk on her face.
"Cheating on Dad Mum?" She teases Haley gently and Haley just rolls her eyes and gives Jenny a playful grin.
"What can I say? Lucas just does it for me." She bites out and I hold back a grin. It's always good to watch these two have their playful arguments because they just get a long so well and it's always interesting to see who wins them.
"Oh gross Mum."
"I didn't mean it like that . . . you're the one with a dirty mind." Haley burst out with a massive grin on her face as Jenny pokes her tongue out at her.
"I win." Haley shouts triumphantly and Jenny pouts, "Who's on the phone babe?"
"Its Peyton . . . she wants to talk to Uncle Lucas." My mouth drops open in shock at her words and I open and close it for a few seconds before I take the phone from Jenny and watch as the other two retreat from the room.
"Hello." I say hesitantly not sure if this is a good phone call or a bad one.
"Hi Lucas."
"Peyton." I say softly and then cough lightly, "What can I do for you?"
"I want to talk, like sit down and have a serious talk so I was hoping that you could come over."
"Right now?"
"Yeah if that's ok."
"Umm yeah that's fine; I'll be there as soon as I can."
"Alright, bye."
After I got off the phone with Peyton I talked Haley into letting me borrow her car so I could get here faster and now that I'm here I can't seem to bring myself to get out the car.
I'm nervous but I shouldn't be there is no reason to be nervous apart from the fact that last time she bit my head off and now I don't know what she is going to say to me and it is scaring me shitless.
I slowly get out of the car, walk up to the door and knock on the door. Peyton answers with an uneasy smile on her face. She looks the same, she hasn't changed much and she still has that leather jacket. We walk into the apartment and sit down on the couch.
"Umm." I try to say something but nothing comes out and Peyton gives me a shaky smile.
"I invited you here so I should speak first but I want to ask you not to say anything until I am finished." I nod my head and give her an encouraging smile.
"Sure thing Peyton."
"We spent a lot of time together that summer Lucas and it was very important to me because it was just you and me and we had a lot of fun and a lot of things were brought to the surface and I thought we had moved on from the past, we hadn't forgotten it we had just embraced it." She takes a deep breath and then continues.
"Then everyone came back and things definitely got a bit awkward, Nathan and Haley were on the outs, Brooke wouldn't talk to you, Nathan and Brooke got closer and you and I were just on the side watching as they happened, we weren't hurt by it but we were affected by it. We spent most of our time together because it was natural and it was where we were most comfortable."
She bites her lip thinking about what she wants to say next.
"And during that time I started to develop feelings for you but I wouldn't act on them because I wasn't sure about your feelings and I wasn't sure if I was ready to have that type of commitment again. Then we were at that party and you had gone off somewhere and I got encouragement from everyone including Nathan to tell you my feelings and so I went to do just that and I found you with Bevin."
I bite my lip at the memory of that night and the memories that come with it.
"That really tore me apart Lucas because I thought we had gotten past you doing stuff like that to me and then I saw you and it ripped me apart so I ran and then I collided with Felix and we started that relationship." She pauses as a smile finds its way onto her face.
"Anyway I was so mad at you Lucas because you hurt me in that same way again and I swore to myself that I would never let you hurt me that way again so I didn't talk to you. I guess now it seems childish . . ." I jump up and kneel in front of her taking her hands in mine an action that clearly surprises her.
"Look Peyton that was not childish, it was understandable. I hurt you in the past and I did it again, I didn't learn from my mistakes and I was a complete asshole you had every right to do that."
I take a deep breath.
"You may not believe me but I have changed Peyton and I'm a different person now and I want to fix our relationship and I'm ready to do that but you have to be ready as well. I'm not going to pressure you, do it when your ready but just know that when you are ready I'll be there waiting and you know where to find me."
I let go of her hands and then stand up and walk towards her front door but turn back and give her a half smile.
"I'll be waiting Peyton."
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