Wow so here is an update and I know its been forever, sorry about that. Umm this is offcialyy M rated so it has smut in it if you dont like it you might want to skip over that bit but I hope you read the rest of the chapter. Hope this satisfies you Kayla lol.
Let me know what you think.
It's been a month since everyone found out about Lucas and his disease and everything was ok for a while because we all knew that the time that he had left was so little and we all wanted to cherish every moment but then a couple of days ago Lucas collapsed again and now he is in the hospital with minimal time left and everyone is falling apart.
I sigh as I walk into the hospital to go and see him, this is where I spend most of my time even though I hate hospitals, and it hurts to see him in here. I sigh again and walk into his room; he looks up and smiles at me which I return.
"Hey." I say quietly as I pull a chair up close to his bed and grab his hand as he links our fingers.
"Hey baby." He says quietly and then leans over and kisses my cheek gently. I smile up at him and rub my thumb over his fingers.
"You shouldn't move too much Lucas." I state with a hint of concern tracing my voice and he shakes his head slightly.
"I'm not dead yet Peyt." He says softly and I sigh.
"I'm sorry Lucas, I'm just worried." I state softly and he sighs and then tugs on my hand to pull me out of the chair and closer to his bed and then pats the sheets with his hand and I eagerly climb onto the bed next to him and he wraps his arms around me.
"I miss waking up to you in the morning." He mutters and I smile softly.
"Me too." I whisper and then smile, "I miss the sex too." He lets out a loud laugh at my comment.
"Yeah I miss that too." He says with a grin and then sucks in a breath, "You remember when we had sex for the first time a few weeks ago?"
"How could I forget?" I whisper quietly with a slight tremor in my voice.
-Flashback-
I walk into my home and drop my bag to the floor and look around the room trying to see if Lucas is anywhere in sight and when I don't see him I frown.
"Lucas?" I yell out and wait for an answer.
"Bedroom." He yells back and I smile softly as I make my way up there and open the door and smile at him but then my smile turns to shock as I look around my bedroom. There are flowers everywhere and soft music playing in the background. I look towards Lucas and raise an eyebrow.
"Have something in mind?" I tease him gently and he laughs softly as moves towards me and wraps his arms around me.
"I'm not expecting anything from you." He pauses as he collects his thoughts, "I remember back in high school when we weren't talking but I had been watching you and you were drawing something and then you got kinda angry and ripped it out and threw it in the bin." I look up at him in shock.
"What you didn't know was that when you threw it in the bin you missed and I picked it up, it was drawing with rose petals everywhere and your bed was right there and then you and I were dancing in the middle with a spilt down the middle and then you had written on it 'dreams will be broken.'" He says with a sad smile on his face and I close my eyes.
"Lucas." I whisper and he holds his hand up so that I won't continue, "And I just want to make that dream come true for you Peyton. We don't have to do anything, I'm not expecting sex or anything like that but if you're up for a dance I can do that." He states with a smile and by this point I already have tears running down my cheeks and I nod my head so he takes me into his arms and we sway to the music as I rest my head on his chest and he kisses the top of my head.
The song ends a few minutes later and I smile up at him and then press my lips to his in a light kiss and pull back a few moments later.
"Thank you Lucas, this is amazing. It means so much to me that you would remember something like this." I admit and he smiles softly as he brings his hand up to brush his knuckles against my cheek.
"I remember everything about you." He whispers and I smile brightly at him and then kiss him again only this time more passionately and then guide him towards the bed, we fall onto it and I lay on the top of him. I smile down at him and then kiss his neck gently and slowly move down and start unbuttoning his shirt and kiss each bit of skin as it is exposed to me.
"Peyt we don't have to do this." He says softly and I smile at him warmly.
"I want to." I admit quietly and he nods his head and grins at me.
He slides his hands down my sides skimming my breast on the way and then lifting my shirt over my head and then dropping it to the floor. He smiles at me and then leans up to kiss me again as his hands come around my back and undo the clasp on my bra and drops that to the floor as well.
"You're so perfect Peyton." He whispers and I blush slightly. He kisses my neck and then bites it lightly and runs his tongue over the mark and sucks gently.
I moan slightly and then move my hands down to his pants and undo them quickly and start to remove them along with his boxers and Lucas lifts his hips to make it easier for me. He kicks them off when they reach his ankles.
He smiles at me and then I sit up and remove my own pants and underwear and he gives me a hungry look and I smirk at him.
I sit on his stomach a little low teasing him.
He runs his index finger over my bottom lip and leans up to kiss me. He slid his hand over my stomach and moved upwards my breasts and rubbed his palm roughly over my hardened nipple, caressing my areolas, and being gentle with them at first. And when I moaned out with pleasure, he cups my breast, and began kneading it harshly. I felt myself swell against his palm.
His eyes darken and I know I pleased him. He smirks up at me before leaning up to lave my other nipple. He circles my hardened tit with his tongue before sucking on the tip of my breast and then turns his attention to my other one.
I thread my fingers into his hair and pull him up to meet my mouth for a brief kiss.
"Lucas please …. I want you."
Lucas nods his head and then rolls over so he lowers me onto the bed and pushes me into the covers.
"There's no going back after this Peyt."
"I don't want to go back Lucas, I want this, and I want us."
He leans down and presses a gentle kiss to my lips that gains in pressure as he enters me. We move together, like we had never been apart. I have missed this, I have missed him.
I feel whole again.
-End Flashback-
I smile softly as the memory hits me and I look up to see Lucas grinning at me, he leans down and kisses me softly and then pulls back and rests his head against the pillow as I rest my head on his chest.
I feel him move so he is sitting up and look up at him.
"Sit up here with me Peyton." I move up so I can sit next to him and he smiles at me brightly.
He leans over and kisses my forehead then my cheek then my neck and then finally my mouth and he lingers there for a few seconds. And then pulls back before he looks down and then I feel his hand run down my side and I watch his path way.
His hand moves down my left side and then back up and across my breasts to slide down my right side and the across my middle and he stops to lift my shirt up slightly and presses his hand against my stomach and I suck in a breath.
I look up to see him smile at me quickly and then he moves to the side and leans down and places a few soft kisses on my stomach and rests his head there.
"Daddy isn't too well and you won't get to meet me but I want you take care of your Mum you hear?" He states softly and I feel tears prickle at my eyes and he looks up at me.
"How did you know?" I whisper and he smiles gently but doesn't move his head.
"I found the pregnancy test in the bathroom." He admits and I sigh.
"You're not mad at me?" I ask and at his confused face I elaborate, "For not telling you."
"No of course not."
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you Luke ….. I was just so scared because you're dieing and I didn't want you to feel upset or guilty or something that you wouldn't be here to see him or her grow up." I admit as tears start to fall down my cheeks and he quickly sits up and pulls me into his arms and wipes away my tears.
"Its ok baby, I understand." He states and kisses my forehead, "Please don't cry I hate to see you cry."
"I know this is rough Peyt and it hurts like hell to think that I won't get to be with you and our baby." He pauses as his hand rubs my stomach, "But your so strong and I know you can get through this and your gonna be the best Mum in the world." He states emotionally and we both have tears running down our cheeks.
I turn so I'm on my side and I frame his face at the same time as he frames mine and we wipe away each others tears.
"I love you Peyt, I love you so much."
"I love you too."
I walk into Brooke's house and she looks up and smiles at me. I walk over to her and collapse on the couch next to her and she wraps her arms around me in a hug.
"You've been crying." She observes and I nod my head.
"You have been with Lucas?"
"Yeah I have." I admit softly and she nods her head and strokes my hair softly.
"I'm sorry you have to go through this Peyt, I know you love him." She says softly and I nod my head and then sigh preparing myself to tell Brooke about my pregnancy.
"Brooke I'm pregnant." I admit softly and I feel her stiffen slightly and then she pushes me up so she can look at my face.
"OMG! How? When?" She pauses for a second, "Well forget the how, stupid question." She states and I laugh softly and she grins.
"You remember I told you about the first time Lucas and I slept together?" I ask her and she nods her head.
"Yeah with the rose petals and the dancing and the hot sex."
"Yeah well it happened then." I say with a sigh.
"So I take it you told Lucas at the hospital?"
"He figured it out himself." I admit and then smile, "I'm happy because a part of Lucas will always be with me but it hurts because he won't be around and I don't want to let him go." I state as I let out a sob and she pulls me into a hug.
"It will be ok Peyt." She says and then the phone rings and she swears lightly.
"Hello? Hey baby. Yeah she's here with me. We'll be right there." She hangs up and turns to me.
"Its Lucas, we need to get to the hospital."
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