So this is the final chapter, its all finished. Goodbye. lol. I hope you like the last chapter, Im too proud of it but I really wanted to finish this up so I hope its ok.

I watch Ellie and Lucas as they run around Nathan and Brooke's back yard with all the other children and laugh happily. They are younger than the others but they all get a long the same and I'm glad for that.

Lucas is a lot like me, he doesn't like sport very much and prefers to just draw or read a book or do something constructive. But he is a mirror image of his father in the looks department. While Ellie has my blonde curls and brown eyes yet she has Lucas' love for basketball and spends every waking moment with Jake, Nathan and Dan learning everything she can.

Its moments like these when we are all together as friends and family when I miss him the most. It's been three years since he died and I just have to take it one day at a time. I have still not healed properly but there isn't a moment in any day where I hesitate to tell Lucas and Ellie about their father.

"You miss him." The voice next to me says and I turn to look at Haley and give her a small smile in acknowledgment.

"I do miss him, I always miss him." I admit and she smiles at me.

"But you miss him more when you're with us." Haley states and I quickly shake my head in denial and reach over to squeeze her hand.

"No Haley don't think that. That's not true at all." I take a deep breath, "I miss him the most when I lay in bed at night by myself. I reach over and he's not there or I have a bad dream and I don't have anyone to comfort me. But when I'm with you its ok because I have people around me and you all take him off my mind even if it's just for a few hours and I appreciate that, I do. I don't know what I would do without you. All of you." I admit to her and Haley gives me a thankful smile and I see tears in her eyes.

"Don't cry Haley." I say softly and give her a warm smile.

"I miss him too ya know?"

"I think sometimes I forget that I am not the only ones who misses him." I admit with a guilty expression, "I don't mean to. Its just I get so caught up in everything that I forget about it." Haley smiles softly.

"That's understandable Peyton. I think we all miss him in different ways, I sure as hell don't miss him in the way you do." She states with a suggestive wink and I laugh loudly.

"And for that I am thankful." I say as we both laugh.

"When do you miss him the most?" I ask her and she bites her lip.

"When Jake and I have those stupid little fights." She shakes her head in amusement, "Don't get me wrong you and Brooke are great but nothing could quite beat Lucas. He just had a way of making me realise that I was being stupid and that I needed to apologise." She says with a fond smile.

"Whenever I'm pregnant I get really jealous, you know that. I'm really bad and I used to be able to call Lucas after seeing Jake with some girl that he had to see for work and I would cry hysterically and he would still be able to understand what I was saying. And he would just say 'calm down Haley. Jake loves you not some stupid blonde girl that he has to work with. Your all he thinks about so don't let jealousy get in the way of how perfect you two are.'" She smiles at some of the memories she is reliving in her head.

"No one could quite understand me like Lucas did and it hurts to know I'm never going to have someone like him with me again." She admits as tears run down her cheeks and I wrap her in a tight hug as we cry together.

"Making my wife cry again Peyton?" Jake states teasingly and all three of us laugh.

"I do what I can." I joke lightly when Ellie runs up to me and climbs onto my lap and frowns when she sees my tears. She reaches up to brush them away.

"Why are you crying Mummy?" She asks me with a deep frown on her face.

"I'm just happy baby."

"Then why are you crying?" She asks clearly confused.

"Sometimes you get so happy you start crying." I explain to her and she smiles softly as if she finally understands.

"So they are tears of joy?" She asks and I nod my head.

"Exactly."

"Oh." She cried happily and I laugh softly, "Can I have some ice cream?" She asks and I pause dramatically to think about it.

"Ask Uncle Nathan." I say with a nod in Nathan's direction and she pouts.

"He told me to ask you." She says and Jake, Haley and I all laugh loudly.

"What else did he say?"

"That's it." She states with a nod and I smile softly.

"Yes you can have some ice cream." I say and she squeals in delight and runs over to Nathan with a huge grin on her face and I smile and then turn back to Jake and Haley.

When Lucas died I cried for days and I was suppose to speak at his funeral but I just couldn't do it, I was too emotionally drained plus I was pregnant and hadn't been doing the right things because of my grief and it was just all too much.

I passed out as soon as the funeral was over and Haley insisted that they take me to the doctors so I was there and the doctor told me that I hadn't been eating well and I needed to pick up on that because I was eating for more than one now.

I got home late that night and after I had time to process everything I just sat down and let out a deep breath and decided that I had to put my grief aside for my health and the health for my child or children yet I didn't know that at the time.

I then proceeded to go to the kitchen and grab as much junk food as I could find and I watched some movies. I didn't really watch the movies I was just thinking about everything that happened.

For a couple of months after that I didn't talk to Brooke, Nathan, Haley or Jake at all and I didn't even realise how frustrated they were …. I don't think I even noticed that I wasn't talking to them; I was just too focused on my babies and not letting myself collapse and just break. It wasn't until Haley and Brooke came over and demanded I tell them what they had done and I was so confused and said that they hadn't done anything wrong I was just trying to deal with Lucas' death and my pregnancy the best way I knew how and their faces softened and they told me I didn't have to do it alone and from that moment I was with all four of them all the time.

When I went into labour the doctors said that if I wanted anyone in there with me I could only have one person so I chose Nathan. We and gotten really close over the last few months and he had been there for me in ways that no one else had plus the fact that I needed a guy because I was going to crush his hand and I wasn't going to do that to Haley or Brooke.

It was hard looking after the twins when I first had them and I freaked out and had a break down luckily I had the Scotts and Jagielski's. Haley and Jake took care of my kids for a few days to help me but it only made me worse when I realised I had let people take away my children, I felt like a terrible mother and freaked out even more, it took Brooke three hours to finally calm me down.

Things got easier after that and when the twins got old enough that I didn't believe that they needed me for every second of every moment I grieved for Lucas.

Its still hard and it hurts everyday but I'm getting a lot better and there isn't a day that goes by where I don't tell my kids about their father and their isn't a night that goes by that they don't ask for a story about their father before they go to sleep.

And I got to bed and I think about him before I go to sleep and sometimes I swear I can feel him laying next to me or watching me and when I open my eyes he isn't there but that's ok because I know that he will always be there with me and nothing can take him away.

Thanks to Monica, Trish, lucasscottlover1, Jessica, Kayla, lysser8312 and the reviewer who didnt have a name for the reviews on the last chapter.

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