"You sure you want to be here? You can stay with me, you don't have to come back here," said Sirius, he had just apparated Lily to her and James' house, (she couldn't apparate herself because she was pregnant).
"I'm sure, thank you," said Lily.
"Sirius is that you?" they heard James say from upstairs.
"Uh yeah…" said Sirius.
James appeared at the top of the stairs in a bathrobe, and soaking wet hair.
"Hi, wha… Lily hi,"
"Hi," said Lily.
"I… uh thought you were staying with your parents"
"I was but I'm uh… not now," said Lily not wanting to talk about it.
"I think I'll take off, I'll see you both later. Lily my offer still stands, okay?" said Sirius.
"Thanks, but I don't think I'll have to take you up on it," said Lily.
"Still, just call if you need me," said Sirius.
"Thanks"
"No problem, see ya," then Sirius apparated home.
"So…?"
"Is it alright if I stay here tonight?" asked Lily.
"Yeah, yeah of course you can, I told you this is your house. I'll move out."
"And I told you that wasn't necessary"
"Lil…"
"You were right about my mother, she booked an abortion for me yesterday…"
James' face lost all color, "But… you… you"
"No I told her to shove it and to stay away from me for good"
"Oh, are you alright?"
"Not really, no. I think I'll go and take a long bath and then just go to bed, okay?"
"Okay. Just shout if you need me"
"Thanks"
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Lily had been awake thinking for hours, she looked at the clock, it was almost 1am. She knew she should wait until the morning, but she finally knew what she had to do. She crept into James' room, she knelt down next to his bed.
"James," she whispered, gently shaking his shoulder, "James"
"Huh, what… Lily," he mumbled but as soon as he saw it was her, he shoot up, "Are you alright? Is it the baby?"
"No, calm down, we're both fine"
"Then what is it?"
"Can you do something for me?"
"Anything, what is it?"
"Can you take Peter's pensieve for me, without him knowing?"
"What? Lily, what are you talking about? Why do you want me to take one of my best mate's personal item?"
"You know as well as I do that Peter, puts all the memories he doesn't want people to know about in that thing"
"So? I don't see where you're going with this"
"He was there when I was attacked…"
"Not this again. You were frightened, you thought you saw him, but you didn't, he wouldn't do that, not to you, not to anyone."
"James I am sure I saw him, I think he did something else as well, I just need proof"
"Lily, it's your hormones, you must be tired…"
"James, please I'm not losing my mind. I just want to know if I did see that, I have to know. I know you don't understand but please, if you won't help me I'll do it myself"
"Alright, I'm sorry," sighed James, "Of course I'll get it for you"
"But you won't tell anyone, right?"
"I won't I promise"
"Thank you"
"James"
"Yeah"
"Can I stay in here with you?"
"Course you can, come on"
Lily climbed into bed with James and cuddled into him.
"James"
"Hmmm"
"When are you going to get it?"
"I'll go in the morning, okay?"
"Okay," said Lily disappointed, she didn't want to wait.
James held Lily, but for some reason he found he couldn't sleep. He was worried. Why would Lily be so sure that Peter had gone to the dark side? He knew better than to argue with her, she was sure that she wanted to see his pensieve, he knew she would whether he helped or not, at least this way he could stop her doing anything stupid or dangerous or both. On the other hand, he was invading one of his best friend's privacy. But if he had nothing to hide no harm would be done.
James looked down at Lily. He loved her so much. Maybe if he helped her, she would come back and he could look after her. She probably would never come back as his wife, but they could be friends and raise their baby.
Then he noticed Lily was wide-awake.
"Lily"
"I thought you were asleep," she said.
"You should be sleeping, you must be exhausted"
"I'm fine, I just can't sleep"
"Why?"
"Umm…."
"You want me to go to Peter's now, don't you?"
"Would you mind? Please"
"Lily I really don't think…"
"James, please you have no idea how much this will mean to me, please"
"Alright, okay. I'll go now," said James
He got up and put on some clothes, just as he had finished putting his shoes on, he stood up. Lily got up and went over to him, she pressed her lips to his and kissed him.
"Be careful," she whispered pulling away.
James was slightly dazed, he hadn't been expecting that. He's spent the day trying to accept the fact that he would never get his wife back. Now, all that was gone, all he could think about how good it felt to have her so close, he could smell her shampoo, he could see every detail of her face.
"Maybe it's too dangerous. I should just do it myself," Lily muttered to herself.
"No, if it is dangerous then it's all the more reason for me to go and you to stay here. Are you really sure about Peter?"
"I wouldn't ask you if I wasn't"
"I know. Okay, I'm going. I want you to stay here and not to worry, I won't be long, I know where he keeps it."
Lily threw her arms around his neck and hugged him as hard as she could.
"I mean it, don't do anything stupid, like getting yourself killed," she said.
'I know I'm doing this to be sure, but I think I already know I can trust him'"I'll be fine, I can handle Peter"
Lily kissed his cheek and then let go of him.
"I really appreciate you doing this for me, even if you do think I'm going loony," she said
"It's no problem really, I'm just glad you came to me. And I don't think you're going loony. I won't be long," said James then he apparated.