Disclaimer: I do not own Dracula, nor do I own any other Van Helsing character that may come into this story; I, however, do own Alexis, her grandmother, the maid, and all of her followers. I would like to say that I am an avid Van Helsing fan. I think that Vladislaus Draguila is one of the sexiest men alive.
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Me: Well, time for another chappy.
Dracula: Not really, just a filler.
Me: It's still a chapter...
Dracula: Techinically, this chapter should've been in there before...but you forgot about it!
Me: Yes...can't blame that fact. Sorry people.
Dracula: You should be apologizing to me...seeing as this chapter is about me!
Me: Yes...okay..
Dracula: Now, on with your "story"
Me: ...Okay, now what?
Dracula: A real story has quotation marks and -
Me: It's a story! A real story!
Dracula: Whatever...okay...
Me: Yes, now on with the story.
Sensation washes over me
I can't describe it
She stared at his bloodstained body, her tears, almost like rain, streaming down her face. Her hair dishelveled, and her body shaking, she allowed her weak knees to fall onto the wooden floor below. Shaking her head slowly, she combed her hands through her hair, almost seeming like she would rip it out. And in between sorrowful gasps and tormenting shrieks, she screamed. She collapsed, her mind now vanishing and descending into a black spiral.
Pain I felt so long ago
I don't remember
Tear a hole so I can see
My devastation
Her heart was tearing inside, and her body was aching. And some how, these feelings of despair and pain almost seemed as though they were fading - fading away. In this black hole that she found herself falling into, she could only feel her pain wash away. But, she couldn't completely get rid of the pain. For something still held her back to her torment.
Feelings from so long ago
I don't remember
She had to hold on
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
This hope that was given to her. The hope that she could leave her past life behind and begin anew, it pleased her. She wished that she could forget every inch of her life and create a new home and a new life. She didn't care if she had to hide behind a lie. She didn't care if she had to mask the truth from herself. She only wanted to leave all the pain behind and forget...forget...to believe. She could forget everything and believe in new things.
Blind your eyes to what you see
You can't embrace it
Her body shook with fear, knowing the direction the spiral was taking her. She could go back anytime, but she felt as though she had to. If blinding the truth is all that it would take to destroy all the pain that she was feeling, then it was definitley worth it. She no longer wished to embrace her past life, and for some reason, she knew that she wouldn't be able to embrace it.
Leave it well enough alone
And don't remember
It was fading now. She could feel it all leave, and now she felt alone...just how she wanted it. Tilting her head backward, she smiled, her tears now bleeding red.
Cut your pride and watch it bleed
You can't deny it
Pain you know you can't ignore
I don't remember
This was so amazing. What was it again that caused her so much pain?
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
What was it? What caused her all this pain? She felt so happy...that face that used haunt her was gone. Her last memory, her last hope, and her last fear, all combined into one word, one breath.
"Vladislaus," She said, her tears halting and dissapearing. "That name? Where doe's it come from?
If I can
Remember
To know this will
Conquer me
If I can
Just walk alone
And try to escape
Into me
To wonder, if her past came back. If it all returned, what would happen. Perhaps it would conquer her. She had to escape. She had to run away from everything. She had to be alone, and she had to escape. And the only was for that was to hide into herself.
whispering:
Sensation washes over me
I can't describe it
Pain I felt so long ago
remember
A voice called out to her, calling her back to her past. She rememberd and heard nothing. She only drew deeper into the abyss.
Im just holding on, to let them know
What's given to me, given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
She was gone now. And her past was destroyed. Everything was gone and she was happy.
If I can
Remember
To know this will
Conquer me
If I can
Just walk alone
And try to escape
Into me
into me
into me
She never wanted to remember.
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Hey you guys. Sorry I didn't put this in before. I thought that this chapter was deleted. During this chappy, Alexis has a dream after she goes to sleep in the first chapter. During this dream there's a girl trying to forget her past...pretty obvious as you read it.
Well, hello again. Here are some songs dedicated to Vladislaus. You could use these songs in your OC stories.
(by sarah mclachlan, seamus egan, and dave merenda)
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Dont let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Dont let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Im so tired but I cant sleep
Standin on the edge of something much too deep
Its funny how we feel so mu
ch but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we cant be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Dont let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Im so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesnt let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Dont let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Dont let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
Here's another song
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
Theres always one reason
To feel not good enough
And its hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
Ill find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
Theres vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It dont make no difference
Escaping one last time
Its easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
It's not about Vladislaus, but it's still good
Here's another
I stand here face to face
With someone that I used to know
He used to look at me and laugh
But now he claims
That he's known me for so very long
But I remember being no one
I wanted to be just like you
So perfect, so untouchable
Now you want me to be with you
Someone who used to have it all
Do you remember now
You acted like you never noticed me
Forget it
Cause the gone has come around
And you're not allowed to be a part of me
Did you know me?
Or were you too preoccupied
With playing king in your small kingdom
And now the real world
Has stripped you of your royalty
And from your kingdom you're evicted
I wanted to be just like you
So perfect, so untouchable
Now you want me to be with you
Someone who used to have it all
Do you remember now
You acted like you never noticed me
Forget it
Cause the gone has come around
You're not allowed to be a part of me
Part of me
Part of me
Part of me
You're never going to be a part of me
You're never going to be a part of me
You're never going to be a part of me
You're never going to be a part of me
You're never going to be a part of me
You're never going to be a part of me
Do you remember now
You acted like you never noticed me
Forget it
Cause the gone has come around
You're not allowed to be a part of me
Part of me
Part of me
Part of me