The never go away feeling

I kinda wanted to make it up to you guys... hate me or love me.

Chapter 3: Which way to go?

That same night, Ed didn't feel that the correct thing to do was to go back to the Rockbell house. He felt guilty for what Winry was feeling. He felt a terrible heartache and just didn't know what he should do. Al probably had found out what had happened and Ed knew just what he was going to say to him: "Do what your heart tells you to, if the other girl really loves you, she will understand." But, it wasn't that easy. He didn't know what his heart was feeling, "The girl who spent all her childhood with me, the one that was with me every time, or the girl who I helped and she helped me in return, the one that made me look at the world in a different way, the one that made me fall in this confusion, the one that made me want to run from all of this, and never come back? Which one?" He gave thought of this while he walked to an unknown direction, with his head down and hands in his pockets. The night's darkness was falling upon him so he decided to sleep under a tree, in a place he had never been to in all the years he had spent in Resembool. There he was falling into a deep sleep until hefinally fell asleep. Meanwhile, Rose was sure that Ed wouldn't go back to the Rockbell house, so she decided to go and clear out things with Winry. She was just in front of Winry's house when she knocked at the door.

"Winry? I-It's me, Rose."

Winry opened the door and Rose saw that Winry was with red eyes, like if she just had stop crying because even though she gave Rose her most confident death glare, deception could be noticed in her face.

"What do you want? Ed's not here!" she screamed closing the door, but Rose held it open.

"Please, I'm not looking for Edward, I just want to talk."

"Talk… fast!"

"I have no intention of taking Ed away from you" she said lowering her head.

"Well, that was not what I saw back there" she claimed, her arm crossed over her chest.

"It was an impulse, but I swear to you that if you love Ed I won't take him away from you. You're my friend, and I would never do that to you, it's... it's like forbidden. I say that I… I don't love Ed.

Winry stood there in silent for a few minutes giving Rose a cold look.

"You mean that?" she finally said.

"I only think of Ed as a really good friend" she forced out of her lips.

"Then, you better go look for Ed and tell him all this, I'm really sorry and... I really love him.

"I think you should go and not me" Rose tried to evade confronting him.

"No. You go."

Winry closed the door before Rose could say anything, and she went to look for Ed. She sat on a rock and took the cast that she had on her ankle, then she started walking as she thought how she would say this to Ed. She walked until she saw him sleeping. She didn't want to tell him so she would use this as an excuse to Winry, but just when she turned around a call of her name made her stop.

"Rose!"

She felt the warmth of Ed's left hand holding hers. Now Ed's face was on Rose's shoulder. After a while Rose turned around to face Ed and gave two steps back.

"Ed, I'm here to tell you that I feel nothing for you, but a strong feeling of friendship" she quickly said.

"Rose, don't say that, please. It's enough with what I have in my head."

"Then why take this risk Ed? Just go to Winry again. Be sure of what you do" she said with a concerned face.

"I don't know what I'm sure of. I don't know what I should do!" he said with a face full of anguish, letting himself fall on the grass on which they were walking on. Rose kneeled in front of him as she lifted gently his head by touching his chin.

"Then, remember what you told me... "You have legs to walk on, right? So stand up and walk" she said, her sight trapped in his golden eyes.

Ed started to get closer and closer to her face.

"But… walking for me is…"

He sealed this sentence by giving Rose a gentle, yet, passionate kiss, pushing her gently towards the floor. Both closed their eyes. The moment was intense, like nothing that neither Ed nor Rose had ever felt, but Ed couldn't control himself, it was like a magnet that pulled Ed and Rose's bodies together, the feeling they had for each other was greater than any other feeling they had. The kiss lasted about eight seconds because Rose, suddenly, pushed Ed back.

Rose sat up and, without washing the kiss away, gently put her fingers on her lips.

"What the hell are you doing!"

"I just did what my heart felt to do!"

"You better check again because this way you'll only get hurt, I only like you as a friend. Winry is the one that loves you. Think of how she would react if she knew about this."

Ed was still in the ground, now with a guilty face. Rose looked at him and decided to go. She stood up and started running.

"Rose! Don't' go!" he said standing up.

Rose kept running as she thought how much she wanted to give in to Ed and how she wanted to keep kissing him.

'Forgive me Ed, for treating you like this, but it's the best thing to do, the best for you' she thought as she ran faster.

Ed went back to the Rockbell house because he felt guilty about what Winry felt for him. But the more he thought of Winry the more he thought of Rose. He got to Winry's house and Winry opened the door as she threw herself to him and hugged him, but Ed didn't answer the hug.

"Ed, I'm so glad you came back. I'm sorry for running away, but I just couldn't stand the thought of you and Rose… well, you know…"

"It's o.k." he quickly answered "Winry, I'm sorry too, for being so inconsiderate with your feelings. You're my best friend Winry and I can't stand seeing you cry."

"What about Rose?"

"Rose and I aren't more than friends."

These words made him feel pain, they were like torture. He didn't mean a letter of what he was saying to Winry, besides her being his best friend. He wanted to go running to look for Rose, but wanted to go with Winry too, but not with both at the same time, but not with one now and with the other one later, but with one, just one, but he didn't know with which one.

"Where's Rose?"

"She went looking for you. Didn't you see her? Then… that means you came by your own will!"

Winry threw herself to hug Ed again, as Ed didn't answer again.

'Dammit Rose! Where the hell are you?' he thought.

In that moment they saw Rose, with a happy face, as if nothing had happened.

"I'm happy that everything cleared up!"

Ed looked at Rose in a wondering way, thinking of how she could hide everything. She looked as if nothing had really happened.

"Yeah! Now it can be like it always has been. Please, let's enter the house."

Winry entered first, Ed held the door open for Rose.

"I can not believe you. You left me, after that" he grabbed her arm when she passed by him.

"Nothing happened. And that's the truth" she said as she freed herself from his grasp.

Rose said this, she lied. She tried to hide what she felt that moment. She wanted to go back in time, she wanted to be there, under Ed's arms and body, kissing each other, with her heart beating a billion times per second. She knew she loved Ed, she just thought that it wasn't o.k.

"Come on guys hurry up!"

They both entered as they spent what was left of the night Ed and Rose trying to hide what was happening and Winry not knowing what had happened nor what Ed and Rose felt for each other.