The never go away feeling

A/N: Heh, Heh. Hope you liked last one, I know, I can hate Rose sometimes too. And I'm sure you'll hate me on this one. I'm ready for the shots... what, no shots? You don't hate me that much?

(I don't own Fullmetal Alchemist in this chapter or in all the others... I'm not crying, I just have a thingy in my eye... really.)

Chapter 4: "Need to hold back"

The other morning Rose had slept again in the guest room and Ed and Al in the room that they had slept in every time they came to the Rockbell house. It was early in the morning, about 8 or 9 a.m. Rose was already awake and her ankle had gotten better. She was in the kitchen making some tea, while she rubbed her lips with her fingertips, gently, as she remembered what had happened last night. She smirked as she remembered how mad Ed got when she told him: "Nothing happened, and that's the truth!"

"Ed always was a short-tempered guy. Every time things didn't turn out like he wanted he would take his anger out on someone. But on whom did he take it out this time?"

That moment she started remembering second by second what had happened the other night in the forest. She remembered when Ed surprised her with that kiss. How she felt when Ed's warm lips touched her cold ones. What she felt when Ed started pushing her down until he was covering her with his arms and body. She felt so good; she felt that everything was o.k. How their lips moved as they kissed, made her feel o.k. yet, made her heart beat a billion times per second. In that moment, when she was deep in thought the whistle from the tea maker made her snap out of that thought.

"God" she sighed.

She started pouring the tea in a cup and started drinking it. Then Ed got out of his room and went to the living room. You could see the whole kitchen from the living room so Ed noticed Rose. They looked at each other for a while and Rose dared to look away and Ed sat on the couch, but he was still looking coldly at Rose.

"Hello Roseanne."

Rose stopped sipping her tea at the hear of that name. It was said that 'Rose' was the abbreviation for 'Roseanne', but in her case it was different. Her name was only Rose, and nothing else, but, how would she know though. Her mother left her and her father killed himself. By that time she wasn't old enough to question that kind of things.

"Hello Edward."

"Aren't you going to say something?" he asked.

"What? There's nothing to talk about" she said taking a sip of her tea.

Ed stood up went into the kitchen and stood just in front of Rose. He couldn't believe how easy was for Rose to hide all that, because he knew that it was something, and he couldn't stand that she could lie so easily about it.

"Rose… I promise to leave you alone… if you can tell me that you only like me as a friend. If you say that, looking me in the eye, I promise to stop bothering you."

Rose looked down and Ed got a sight of hope, he knew that Rose was sad, so he knew that Rose couldn't say that she didn't love him. But in that minute, Rose looked up and looked at Ed directly in the eye.

"I already told you, I only like you as a friend. I don't know how to explain it to you. I only like you as a friend!" she coldly said.

Ed got hurt, but, what could he do? He just nodded and got out of the kitchen. When Ed got out of the kitchen Rose gave a silent sight. But, it was too much. "Hell!" He ran towards Rose and trapped her lips in his. He put his arms around her waist, pushing her towards himself. Rose got caught up in the moment and put her arms around his neck. "What am I doing?" thought Rose. "I can't be doing this! I have to stop!" That second Winry entered, but she was looking to the ground so she didn't notice.

"Hey guys" she said looking at some papers she was holding.

Rose and Ed quickly stopped kissing and separated. Winry looked up and they were looking directly at her, completely frozen, scared that she might have seen something. Rose bit her lip and hoped that Winry didn't noticed what had just happened. While Ed just stood there with his arms crossed, pretending that nothing happened. Winry got curious because of the looks.

"What's wrong?"

"N-Nothing!" she quickly said.

"Nothing at all!"

"Winry: O.k.?"

Suddenly a bell rang from the mail that came.

"I'll go get it."

And with that Ed went outside to get it, leaving Rose and Winry in the kitchen.

'In what did I get me in now? I showed Ed that I do care. Dammit! I hate myself, now Ed will have proof' she though.

Ed soon entered with a bored look and his head down.

"What's wrong?

"I- me and Alphonse need to… go back to Central" he said lifting his face.

"W-What? But I thought…" Winry started to say.

"I'll go tell Al" he interrupted.

Ed went into his room and Winry tried to follow him, but Ed shut the door closed.

"How can this be?" Winry said.

"It's not weird for the Military to call Ed. He IS the Fullmetal" Rose explained as it was the most obvious thing, with a cold, stubborn gaze.

"Do you want him to go? That's what you show."

'No, but while he's away I can go. So he never finds me. If I go with him knowing then he would stay and look for me, but if he is in Central the Military would try to hold him back from coming back' she thought "Well, if he has to go, he has to go."

Ed and Al came out of their room and Winry went by their side.

"When do you have to leave?"

"Sometime between 6 to 8 p.m. tonight."

"Tonight? It's too soon, you guys just came back."

"That's the Military, but... their mail couldn't have gotten here in one day. They're playing with us again."

Ed did something that he didn't dare do after Winry entered the kitchen: Look at Rose. He looked at her and she just was looking at him seriously. It didn't surprise him. Knowing Rose, he knew she would give him all kinds of looks to make him think that she only liked him as a friend.

'Why do you have to be so stubborn Rose?' he thought "But the idiots are so stupid that they even dated it. Today is Saturday, December 23rd, and this letter is dated December 9th."

"For how long do you have to stay there?" Winry asked.

"I don't know, but Roy won't hold us for more than 2 years."

"TWO YEARS?" Winry screamed.

"They'll fly away in no time" Rose finally said.

"I guess we better start packing... again."

"I have to go out for a while" Rose said.

"Where are you going?" Winry asked turning, around to face her.

"Just to do some things" she answered.

Rose walked towards the door, opened it and got out. She just wanted to go for a walk. She was walking own a path when she noticed where she was. She looked next to her and saw a tree. Then she looked around and remembered that that was the place. That was the place that would bring that memory back, the memory of Ed and Rose's first kiss with each other. And she again, touched her lips and felt a chill coming up her spine.

"December 22… the day we first kissed each other."

Meanwhile in the house Winry was telling Ed how much she wanted him to stay.

"Oh Ed, I really wish you didn't have to go."

"Yeah Winry, do you think I wanna go? I wish I could stay."

"Ed? Can I ask you something?"

"Sure Winry, what's wrong?" he said while folding some clothes and putting them in a black suitcase.

Winry looked down as she dared to ask Ed something that haunted her.

"Ed… do you… well… love me?"

Ed was shocked. He didn't know what to answer. He didn't know.

"I… of course I-I do Winry."

"Then, I can be sure that you'll come back?"

"Yes Winry. It's not the first time that I and Al go to Central."

"I know, but after all of this… it's kinda hard to let go."

"Don't worry, Win. We'll come back. I promise."

Ed hugged Winry. He noticed that Winry was going to kiss him, so he stepped back and put his fingers on Winry's lips.

"It's enough Winry."

Winry looked disappointed, but Ed couldn't let Winry kiss him. He knew that it would give her hope and he didn't know what his heart desired. He still didn't know if his heart loved Winry or Rose.

"But… I thought…"

"It's not like that. I love you, but… NOT LIKE THAT!" he interrupted.

"Oh… is that it? So as what? As a sister! I don't want your pity!"

Winry started crying and Ed started to console her by hugging her, but she stepped back.

"Win… don't cry."

"Leave me alone!"

Winry ran out the door, but Ed left her go. Winry was running and before she knew it she was in some kind of forest and she started slowing down and Rose was in front of her, like ten ft. away from her.

"Winry… what happened?"

"Ed… he doesn't love me, right?"

"What?"

"He told me he loved me as a sister."

'Ed… how could you?' she thought "Winry… think. Maybe he said that because maybe he thinks that if he tells you that he likes you, you might get, like, bored."

"You think?"

"Yeah!"

"Maybe you're right."

Rose gave a smile and Winry wiped her tears off.

"I don't want to face him right now."

"But you have to say good-bye. Let's go for a walk and then wait for him at the train station."

"O.k." she said a little more cheerfully.

They both went for a walk around Resembool and when the clock stroke 6:30 p.m. they went to the train station. Meanwhile, Ed and Al where walking to the train station.

"You're not going to say good-bye to Rose?" Al asked.

"I looked for Winry didn't found her" he said, not daring to look at his brother.

"I said Rose, not Winry."

"What?" Ed tried to avoid the theme.

Al got sick of this and stepped in front of him, making him stop.

"Ed, I may be younger than you, but I'm not stupid! I can notice things. Winry is not the one you think of every seconds or the one you really want in your arms" he tried to make his brother make conscience.

"THAT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS! SO BUTT OUT!" he said moving aside and walking again.

Al moved aside and kept walking next to Ed. They didn't say a word until they got to the train station. They were walking towards the train that they were supposed to take and saw Rose and Winry sitting on a bench. Winry was looking to the sides and saw Ed. She goy up and started to run towards him.

"Ed!" she said hugging him.

"Win. Weren't you mad?"

"Forget it. Rose is here too!"

Ed noticed Rose, who was behind Winry and was trying to avoid looking at him.

"Hi Rose."

"Hi" she said finding herself forced to answer.

Their sighs united until a loudspeaker called Ed and Al's train. They all walked to the train and Ed and Al got in. Their tickets sat them just beside a window near Rose and Winry.

"Bye Win. Bye Rose" Ed said.

When he said that to Rose he felt he was losing something.

"Good-bye Ed, Al" Winry answered.

"Bye guys."

Rose was the only one that said nothing. She just merely smiled at Al, but looked coldly at Ed.

They looked at each other for a while and the train started moving. When the train was a little farther Winry started waving good-bye.

"BYE ED! I'LL BE WAITING FOR YOU!" Winry screamed, waving.

"Good-bye Ed. Good-bye forever" Rose thought, as she saw the most important person in her life go.