They never go away feeling

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O.k. so this is a little surprise for you guy for being such a great crowd. Hope you like it. I hate to write an A/N at the end of the story because that kinda gets you out of the mood of the story, believe me, and if you don't, read this shit. Again, hope you like it. Remember... reviews.

Chapter 5: Remember

The next day Rose woke up and started packing all her things in a black suitcase. She started packing her clothes, everything! She didn't want to leave any trace of her in that house. When she finished packing, she even cleaned the room. She started giving thought to a lot of things.

'I shouldn't be here. The reason of why I came here was because Ed got drunk, and because he was depressed because Winry was going out with a guy. I stupidly broke my ankle and for that I went through all of this' she thought.

She thought of that moment, the thing that happened in the forest. A chill came up her spine.

"Ed, why did that had to happen? You kissed me, twice! But the first time was special. The first time, the first time that we kissed" she said while making her bed.

Suddenly, she found something under her pillow. It was little box that had her name written on the top.

"What's this?"

She opened the box and found a collar made of cotton string with a shark tooth hanging from it. There was a letter in the box too. It said:

Rose:

As you know, I parted to Central already, but I wasn't brave enough to face you after you read this. Today, Winry tried to kiss me, but I couldn't give her any hopes, so I rejected her. And for the first time I don't feel bad about it, I mean obviously I felt bad for Winry, but I had no regrets. I said what I had to say, but I can't imagine me saying that to you. It's different with you Rose, I feel something stronger. When I'm close to you I may look tough, but in the inside I just want to repeat what happened in the forest, remember? December 22? I do. That was the night of our first kiss. I still don't know what my heart wants, but I have many leads and clues, and they all point to you. Al talked to me and I bet he talked to you. For what he says it looks like he knows what we both want more that we do. I shut him up, because I don't want to feel under pressure, but everything I did to you it came from my soul. You were pushing me aside and it just pumped. It was twice the time we kissed, and the second time… you answered. You put your arms around my neck and I felt like you finally gave in. But the first time, you let yourself be pushed by me. I'll be back in two years, Winry said that she was going to wait for me, but it's you who I want waiting for me. I gave you this shark tooth so you would remember me, please, do so.

Edward Elric.

Rose was shaking. She sat on the bed so she wouldn't fall. She felt an incredible happiness rushing through her veins, she had to push her breath out or it wouldn't come out. She couldn't believe what that letter said. She always looked tough in front of Ed, but in the inside she knew she was tearing apart. She smirked just like a kid does after it does one if it's mischief, but not in a naughty or devilish way, but in a smartass way. Her heart was beating as she looked at the letter again. She knew that Ed felt something for her, but she was always trying to look for another possible reason for why Ed treated her like that. But for one time, at least just for one, she wanted to let herself feel what Ed said that he felt for her. She begged for freedom, for freedom from what was holding her from feeling all that, all what Ed was feeling for her, what Ed was offering to her. But she knew that what was holding her back, was herself. Rose looked at the collar and without thinking twice she put it on. That would be her secret.

'Ed… you're never going to give up, are you? But today, I'll move out of this house and continue with my life, as if nothing has happened. I'll leave no clues of where I'll be. I don't want you looking for me. I want you to forget about me and go with Winry' she thought.

Rose stood up, put the letter on her pocket and finished cleaning. She picked her suitcase and went out the room. When she came out of the room she met Winry who was dressed with a white shirt and a white short skirt drinking a cup of tea. Winry saw the suitcase and Rose tried to hide it behind her.

"R-Rose? Where do you think you're going?"

"I'm… Uhh... leaving" she said with a shaking voice.

"W-what! Y-you can't go!" she said putting the cup of tea away.

"I can, and I will, o.k.? So move" Rose said with a demanding voice.

"Look, I know I can't stop you, but at least tell me where you're going."

"It's around Resembool" she said putting one of her pink ones behind her ears.

"Resembool? Then it shouldn't be that far away."

"No."

"But, why do you want to leave? she asked in a concerned voice.

"Personal reasons."

"Ohh… I get it. So, Ed's gone and you're out too?"

"Think whatever you want" she said walking out the door.

Rose left the house and started walking down a little road that got to a two floor house. It looked almost like the Rockbell house, but this house was beige colored. Rose stood on the stairway as she looked for the key to the house. She entered the house, closed the door and put the suitcase down. After watching the interior of the house with her eyes she sighed.

"Well, it's back to the old times, living alone with no… no… Ohh, forget it. I feel like crap. I'll just be back to my old life. With no friends, no Ed, no nothing."

Meanwhile Ed and Al where in Central and had stayed on an inn. They were in their room. Ed was in his bed lying down while Al was sitting in his.

"Ed?"

"What?"

"Why do you make it so hard?"

"What do you mean?"

"With Rose! You just said "Bye" You should have talked to her."

"I told you to butt out of my life!"

"Ed, we're not going back for not less than two years."

"So?"

"Rose has a life too. It's obvious that you love Rose, and maybe when we go back she found someone."

When Al said that, it put Ed to think. What if Al was right? After all, for what Ed knew Rose didn't want to answer to him. What if she finds someone else? He knew that if he saw Rose with another man he wouldn't support it; he knew that it would tear him apart.

"Put you to think there, huh Ed?"

"Shut up."

Ed looked very confident, but inside that thought was rushing throughhim like blood through his veins. He laid there, on his bed, he was very tense. He was worried that he would lose Rose to another man. But if he felt like that now, wanting to go back and look for her, how would he feel while the two years passed.

Some weeks passed. Winry and Ed had a strong communication. If it wasn't by letter it was by phone. Winry would call him almost everyday, and if wasn't Winry Ed called her. Every time Winry called he would ask for Rose, but first he would talk to her so it wouldn't be obvious, but Winry always told him that she wasn't home or that she was busy. Whenever Ed called, Winry always got happy no matter how sad or mad she was, and again he would ask for Rose and she would tell him the same. Every time he sent a letter, he didn't want it to be too obvious, that he was looking for Rose, so in every letter there would be a part that said: "…Ohh, and say hi to Rose for me.", and every time Winry answered the letter she would write that Rose said hi. 8 months passed. It was the same. Roy had assigned Ed and Al some mission to do, like try to find Scar or he would get in trouble as always. Ed and Al's relationship as brothers was falling apart. Al was trying to make Ed go back to Resembool, he said that he would cover for him, but Ed said that he wouldn't. They hardly talked to each other. Another 9 months passed. The high-rank alchemist closed all the communication services for all alchemists so Ed and Al couldn't communicate with Winry anymore.

Meanwhile, Rose was trying to continue with her life. She wouldn't take the shark tooth off, not even if it could pierce her neck while she was sleeping, she just wouldn't take it off. Sometimes she babysat some of the neighbors' kids, but there was this one boy who always went to visit her. The boy had to his shoulders long black hair; he wore beige colored short pants with a green shirt and a jacket on top. He was active and energetic and like any other kid would do everything to win anything. He spent most of the day with Rose, he always said to her that she was his hero and like his big sister.

"Calm down Kutsaro" the pink banged girl said while pouring water in a pot.

"Come on hurry" the boy said jumping up and down.

"I can't hurry time."

"Yes you can, you can do everything!"

"Heh, I wish."

"It's true. You always outsmart everyone! I have never seen you lose a game or lose control and you always figure out my pranks."

'Yeah, right! What I have done most in life is lose control… but... it's good that you have never seen me like that' she thought. "Yeah, I have never lost control. You just have to think calmly and act after you think. And your pranks are not that hard to figure out.

Yeah, right! How many times has she act with her first thought, like the second time that Ed kissed her she just hugged him by his neck and kept kissing him. That moment she felt like something came over her, but she wanted to do it.

"See? Told you so!"

"Heh, you never give up, do you?"

"No, my mom says that I'm too stubborn!" he said as he climbed on the couch and started to jump up and down.

"O.k. 1: Get down of my couch, you're ruining it" she said as she lifted Kutsaro and put him on the floor "And 2: Yeah, you're too stubborn."

"Well I learned it from you, you never give up!"

"Yeah, and I criticize Ed."

What? Who's Ed? he asked.

"What? Ohh, no one."

"An old friend?"

"Yeah, no one important."

The boy was young, he was 6 years old, and even though he didn't understand any love things he knew that Rose was upset.

"Rose?"

"Huh?" she asked snapping out of it.

The kid climbed on a chair to be at her height.

"Since you mentioned that man you've had an upset look. Did he do something bad to you?" he asked with a worried face.

"Nah! It's o.k." she said rubbing the kid's hair.

"O.k. then hurry up!" he said as he started to jump on and down.

"Fine let's go."

"Yay! To the park we go."

But Rose didn't forget Ed, she kept thinking about him she couldn't get him out of her mind. She even had dreams about that day. That day in the forest, that never-forget moment.

Another 7 months passed. Winry was getting all crazy because all her letters were returned to her and Ed wouldn't call her. She was about to go to Central once, but Pinako didn't let her. And Winry noticed that two years had already passed since Ed left.

Winry got out of her room to her balcony and looked at the stars remembering how she and Ed used to watch at the stars and forming shapes tracing them. "Ed, where are you?" she thought.

She just remembered everything they shared since childhood. Those memories that would never go away, how they played when they were kids, how they bragged to each other and how they laughed.

"You promised, Ed. You promised that you would be back."

Rose was out, buying some things and Kutsaro was by her side. She thought that Ed would be in the Rockbell house because 2 years and 4 months had passed. She really wanted to go see Ed for at least one last time, but after all of what had happened she didn't know how to face him, and she thought that maybe she got what she was telling Ed to do, to forget about her and go with Winry. She still had the collar around her neck; it was the only thing that made her feel close to Ed.

Ed and Al were still in Central because Roy had another mission to assign to them. It was a mission about capturing Scar, so it would take a while. 1 year and 8 months passed. 4 years had passed since Ed left Rose and Winry back in Resembool. Winry was 19, Al 18, Ed 19 and Rose 20.

Rose was at her house, sitting on her couch and drinking tea. It was around 11:00 p.m., so Kutsaro wasn't with her because his curfew was for 8:00 p.m. so she was alone. She was thinking of all that she had done in the day; she was checking all the chores she did to check if there was anything left. She concluded that she did everything that was meant to be done, and for her that was a good thing, because she was really tired. Rose stood up and walked to the kitchen, the only thing lighting the room was the moon's shades that pierced through one of the living room's window.

"Good thing I'm finished 'cause I'm tired. I did all the chores that were planned for the rest of the month" she said with a relieving voice putting the cup of tea on the kitchen counter.

Suddenly she heard someone knock at the door. She quickly turned around to face the door and went slowly and carefully towards it. She got close to it and opened it. And when she did a man was in front of her. She quickly guessed the identity of the guy.

"Umm… Ed. Uhh… what are you doing here?" she said looking at the floor and giving two steps back.

"I was around."

Rose dared to look at him. He looked very different, he had a ponytail over his shoulder and he was taller. After she made that observation, she moved her sight to the floor again.

"Rose… can we talk?"

Rose really wanted him to enter, but she thought that he had been in Resembool for 4 years so she thought that maybe Winry sent him.

"I don't think that that's a good idea."

Rose started to push the door closed, but Ed held it open."

"Please?

"O.k." she said with a resigned voice, letting Ed gently push the door open.

They both entered and Rose noticed that Ed wouldn't stop looking at her. Ed noticed that Rose was beautiful as he always thought she was.

"Why don't you sit?"

"Thanks."

They both sat on the couch, Rose on the left and Ed on the right. There was a big moment of silence, until Rose broke the ice.

"So… how are things going with Winry?"

"Well, it's hard to tell in 2 hours."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, I got back 2 hours ago."

"After 4 years! Then, why aren't you with Winry?"

Ed didn't answer to that, so Rose figured that they had a fight. Winry would have started screaming to Ed about worrying her, if she didn't know, and wouldn't have let him explain so he would have gotten mad and left her crying.

"You should go. She missed you."

"Forget it. I'm not going there."

And Ed, trying to forget about that, remembered what Al told him that could happen; that Rose could have gotten another man. He started to look with his eyes to see if he found any guy things, anything that could belong to a man.

"So... what have you been up to?"

"Umm… well, same as always."

Rose's heart was beating hard and Ed's wasn't any different. They both felt like they didn't know each other. Ed noticed that Rose had the shark tooth around her neck, so he smirked.

"Rose, I so glad I'm able to see you again."

"Yeah" she said faking a little sadness 'I'm glad I'm able to see you too.'

"Rose, it's me! I haven't changed, well, in the inside that is" she said getting to her side with a jump and grabbing her hand.

"I know" she said, pulling her hand away.

"Come on, Rose! We know, we both know" he said grabbing her hand again.

"Know what?"

"What we have between us" he said slowly rolling his upper body on top of Rose's.

Ed kept getting his face closer to Rose's, they were face to face. Ed looked into Rose's eyes, then at her lips and again to her eyes. Rose did the same and just when they had their eyes closed, Rose couldn't stand thinking that all of this would drive them into a giant mistake so she pushed Ed back and jumped off the couch.

"N-n o! T-this isn't right. Think how Winry would…" she said throwing her hands in the air in sign of frustration.

"Rose, why don't you for once think of yourself? Even with you and Winry fighting you still try to help her" he said holding her by her waist and pulling her against his body.

Rose wanted to kiss him; she wanted to think about herself for once. She wanted to be with Ed, forever, she wanted to go with Ed to where ever the wind would take them, but selfishness was not one of her qualities.

"No. Just please go with her, go with Winry" she said breaking the embrace.

"But... fine, I'll go" he said with a disappointed voice.

Rose felt that she was being too rough on Ed so she asked something that she really wanted to know.

"Ed?"

"What?" he asked just at the door, not turning around to face her.

"We gonna see each other again?

That question... made it all worthwhile. And as predictable as it was, a smirk crossed his lips.

"Yeah, I'm sure of it" he said without looking at her.

That comforted both of them, and just when Ed was outside, he held the door open with his hand to tell her something.

"Rose?" he said giving his back to Rose's sight.

"Yeah?"

"Today is December 22… go figure."

And with that he closed the door and when he got out of that house it was the first time that he could breathe easily since he entered that house. Rose ran towards the door and she leaned against it with her back. As Ed walked back to the Rockbell house and as Rose went to sleep with that thought, both hearts beat wildly. That night, after Ed made up with Winry and went to sleep they both had dreams about that night in the forest, and to add that, that same day, the day that Ed and Rose saw each other after 4 years, was the same day, that 4 years ago, they first kissed.