The never go away feeling

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Chapter 6: "Never stop"

The other morning, Ed had slept on Winry's house and so did Al. Al explained everything to Winry and when Ed got there, Winry just hugged him and started to say how much she missed him. It was late; about 10:30 a.m. Ed woke up and, obviously, started to think about Rose. He would never give up. He knew that he would insist to death. He would die for Rose, and while thinking about it, he realized that the Military would be looking for them, because they went back to Resembool unauthorized. Alarmed by this, he tried to think of what they could do to the Rockbells if they found Ed and Al there. He went to wake up Al, who was deep in sleep.

"Al! Wake up!" screamed Ed wile shaking Al to wake him up.

"What!" he asked with a blurry sight and cranky attitude.

"Al, we need to get out of here!"

"WHAT! No, we can't go" he said quickly sitting up.

"We have to. The Military could be looking for us."

"You're right. We can't put Winry or Pinako in danger… but… where are we going?" he said with a sight.

"At Rose's" she said suddenly entering the room. She had heard everything.

Ed and Al were surprised by Winry's appearance, yet they knew Winry for being like that.

"What?"

"You thought you could go again? Rose will let you live at her house for a little while."

"Yeah, that'll have to work."

"We'll go ask her. I'm going to say to her sorry and fix this whole thing."

Meanwhile, Rose was at her house. She was resting by sitting at her couch. She was sitting on the left just where she was sitting the other night. She started to remember everything from the letter to Ed trying to have her and saying to her to remember. She smirked as she let herself fall to the right. When her head pushed towards the right side of the couch she noticed that Ed's scent was still on the couch. She comforted herself with it, when she heard the door knock. She quickly stood up and went to answer the door. When she opened it, Kutsaro was smiling at her.

"Hi Rose" he said cheerfully, entering the house.

"Hi" she said closing the door.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing, today I'm chore free" she said turning to face him.

"Great! Then we can go to…"

A knock interrupted. They both looked at the door and Rose went to open it. When Rose opened the door Winry was on the other side with a begging face and worried look.

"What's wrong?"

"Rose, I need your help… well, WE need your help."

"What...?"

Nothing needed answer after her gaze feel upon the two brothers in the back and each one was holding a suitcase. After analyzing the two brothers she looked at Winry again.

"Ed and Al forgot to tell us that they came back without authorization and the Military will probably come to look for them. And because they know me, they'll look at my house" she explained.

"And what do you need me f… No, Ohh no."

"Please. They need your help. If the Military catches them, only God knows what they'll do to them."

Kutsaro walked and stopped when he was by Rose's side. Winry looked down and wondered if that boy was Rose's son.

"Hi, what's your name?" she said kneeling to be at the boy's height.

"Kutsaro" he said hiding behind Rose.

"You better go home" Rose said to Kutsaro, rubbing his hair.

Kutsaro nodded and went out of the house. When he was passing by Ed and Al, he heard Al mentioning something to Ed, and because Al said Ed's name, he knew that he was the one that Rose always murmured about. He stopped to look at him and then continued walking.

"Please Rose. It's just for little while."

Rose looked at Ed, who was looking at her, a smirk on his lips.

"Please?"

"O.k., but it's just for a while, right?"

Winry nodded. Al got closer to them.

"Thanks Rose."

"Yeah… thanks" said Ed.

"I better go. I left Pinako alone and she's kinda sick" she said as she left.

Then, it was no one but the three of them.

"Well, enter."

They all entered the house and Al was exploring the house with his eyes. Ed had been there the other night so he kinda knew the house. Al was always saying to Ed that he should talk to Rose so he found a lame excuse to leave the house.

"Umm… I have to go buy… umm… some things."

Al left the house leaving Rose and Ed alone.

"Rose… that boy… who is he?"

Ed got afraid to know the answer, he was afraid that Rose would answer that he was her son. The thought of Rose being with another man before him frightened him.

"He's the son of a friend."

Ed was relieved to hear that, and Rose noticed how the tension left the room.

"So… I went back to Winry."

"Good, and that's the way that it should stay" she said with a demanding tone on his voice "Ed… how did you find me? I mean yesterday."

"Winry once saw you and followed you. But let's stop talking about her."

"Don't start" she said quickly walking away into the kitchen.

Ed walked towards Rose and pushed her with his body against the wall, making her to face him.

"I went back to Winry, and it didn't prove that I want to stay with her."

Rose tried to get away from the embrace, but Ed wouldn't let her and because the wall was behind her she couldn't step back.

"And what proves that I'm the right person?"

"All what's happening Rose. I just… I can't control myself" he said pushing her harder against the wall.

"Ed, please."

"But why? We both feel it for each other."

Ed kept getting closer to Rose's face and she didn't turn it. Ed grabbed Rose's waist and she, with the struggling, had ended up with her hands on Ed's chest. They were inches away, tension filling the room, tension filling the little space between them, and just when their lips were almost touching, the coffee pot's whistle sounded, making both of them separate with a jump. Rose went to attend the pot when Ed pulled her back.

"Ed, stop it. What do you want?"

"You know what I want. I want you. No one else."

Rose's heart was beating to know how much Ed desired her, but her feelings weren't different. She was happy that Ed was there holding her, she was glad that she was in the arms of the only guy that she could trust.

"And I know you do too."

"Ed… I… don't think it's right."

"Ask that after we are together."

"I can't 'because we're not going to be together."

"Al's not here, we're alone."

Rose couldn't help to smirk at Ed's attempts to get her to give in to him.

"No! Ed, I'm not going to be with you… in that sense" she said pushing him till she was free from him arms.

"Rose, we both want that."

"Ed… I haven't changed what I told you 4 years ago" she said turning around giving her back to his sight.

"And what's that?"

Rose pushed her eyes closed, and forced those untrue words out.

"I… I only like you as a friend, and that's that."

Ed automatically closed his eyes at the strike of those words, as if it was a knife, at least, it hurt him as if it was one, as a reflect he grabbed her arm as a sign for her to not toy with that.

"Rose, please… don't say that. When you say that… it's like if a knife was piercing through my heart."

Rose took a silent, yet, deep breath. She knew that playing and lying about that kind of stuff was forbidden. It hurt her too, it hurt her so, but so much, but it had to be done.

"I'm sorry Ed, but… that's the truth" she said turning around to face Ed "The only thing that will ever be between us is friendship" she said trying to put a confident face and giving him a proud glare.

Rose said that and left to sit on the couch, giving her back to Ed.

"It's Cain, right?"

Rose opened her eyes wide open and turned to look at Ed, who was looking at the ground; pushing his eyes closed and his hand were turned into fists.

"He was your first, and you feel that if you are with me it's like betraying him."

"Of course not Ed! Cain and I lived together, but we even slept in different rooms. I can't believe that you think of me like that."

Ed opened his eyes and let the tension in his body slide away.

"No. I just thought of that because I can't think of another reason for why you push me aside."

"I… I got over that. Before I found you drunk in that bar, I came here. I had a normal life, I watched over the boy you saw, I did chores and stuff like that. I don't think of the life I had back in Lior. I want so bad to forget about all that. I can't believe I was such an asshole to follow that idiot" she said turning around looking into nothing.

Ed sat next to Rose and put his arms around her.

"Don't say that, you didn't know."

"I try to forget everything that happened, except the part when I met you and Al. I even ran away from you guys, and for that I'm really sorry."

Ed hushed Rose putting his forefinger and middle finger gently on her lips.

"You don't have to be sorry, we understood. Automail it's not common in some places."

"Thanks" she sweetly started "Umm… for forgiving me" she coldly continued, quickly standing up.

There was a moment of silence for about 8 seconds.

"Ed… I'm glad you're here."

With that Rose left to her room. Ed looked at her leave and enter her room and when he stood up and was about to follow her Al entered.

"I'm here!" Al said closing the door behind him.

Ed looked at him with a mad face, because even though they were back, they were still a little mad with each other.

"So… something happened with Rose?" he said with a smirk on his face.

"No! What could happen?"

"You still didn't talk to her? You're an idiot."

"How many times am I going to tell you…? BUTT OUT!"

"Don't worry, I just want to ask you something" he said putting some bags on the kitchen counter.

"What?"

"Do you love Rose?" Al asked leaning against a wall with his arms crossed.

"Of course not! Why do you ask?"

"I was thinking and… I think I like Rose."

Ed was in shock. He couldn't believe what Al said. All this time that was why Al was warning Ed, because he wanted Rose too.

"What?" Ed said clenching his fists.

"Well, yeah! I mean, she's a good friend, she available, so… why not?

"YOU STAY AWAY FROM HER, YOU BASTARD!"

"Well, you said you didn't like her, so… why the worry?"

"YOU STAY AWAY FROM HER! DON'T EVEN THINK OF GOING NEAR HER, YOU HEAR ME!" Ed screamed.

Suddenly, just before Ed punched Al, Rose came out of her room because of the yelling.

"What's wrong?"

Ed calmed down at the hear of her voice.

"Nothing, Rose, nothing at all" Al answered.

"You sure?"

"Yeah, want me to help you with something?" he said getting closer to Rose.

"No, I'm fine."

"Yes, you are... umm... I mean... come on, there has to be something."

"She said no!"

Al and Rose were surprised at the firmness of Ed's words.

"I… I mean… She's not doing anything for you to help her with."

'What's up with him?' she thought.

Rose went into the kitchen for a while, where she couldn't see Ed nor Al. Ed, just when he lost Rose from sight, pushed Al into their room, making him fall on Al's bed. Ed walked towards him and grabbed him by the collar of his shirt, giving him a death glare.

"Look… don't ever dare to put one of your moves on Rose, GOT IT!"

"Heh, what are you talking about?" he said with a careless face.

"Stop being an idiot, you said that you liked Rose too" he said shaking him.

"Too?... And shows what you know."

"Whatcha mean?"

"I don't like Rose… in that sense. I was just telling you that so you would see how any other man could think about Rose."

"What!" he said letting go of him.

"It's time for you to realize that Rose it's not always going to be there for you."

"You mean…"

"I lied."

"Go to hell."

About 6 hours passed, so it was around 6 or 7 p.m. Al, once again, left the house. Ed was sitting on the couch and Ed's questions to Rose were now usual for her. Rose entered the house and went into the kitchen and started to wash her hands in the sink, while Ed looked at her and followed her.

"Planning on giving yourself to me soon?" he said putting his arms around her waist.

"No. You planning on stop asking soon?" she said, turning around to face him.

"No" he said with a smirk.

Rose put Ed's arms next to him, making him free her. Rose got close to the couch, as Ed quickly grabbed her arm and pushed her to the couch. Rose tried to stand up, but Ed quickly covered Rose's body with his.

"Ed?" she asked looking at her.

Ed looked her directly in the eye, and whispered so low that only she could hear him.

"I love you Rose. Please… don't fight whatever happens between you and me" he said on top of her.

Rose was still shocked about how Ed pushed her and got on top on her. She was trying to stop it, but she couldn't talk even if she forced the words out. Ed started kissing her neck as she felt shivers coming up her spine; her heart was beating like it wanted to get out of her chest. She thought that even Ed could hear her heart beat. Rose couldn't do anything, but to close her eyes. She felt like she was doing wrong, but she didn't want to push Ed away, she wanted him to be there; she automatically hugged him. Ed then approached her lips. Rose knew that Ed was going to kiss her, but for once she didn't think of pushing him aside, she just let him kiss her. But she didn't let Ed do everything, she kissed him back. Ed was so glad because he thought that Rose, finally, was going to be his. His heart wanted to come up his throat. It beat a billion times per second. He couldn't stop kissing her; he knew he could stay kissing her forever. He put his arms around her, passing down her back. Ed took of his black jacket so gently that Rose didn't notice. He put his jacket away, but while he did all that he was still kissing Rose. He put his arms around her again and started to slide his hands from Rose's waist to her back, and because he touched part of Rose's skin with his right arm, she felt a chill come up her spine because of the coldness of Ed's automail. But she didn't care about it. Ed started to do with his shirt the same thing he did with his jacket, but this time, after he put his shirt away, he unbuttoned the first 5 buttons of Rose's button up dress and started to slide her sleeves down, but Rose stopped him when he had the sleeves by her shoulders. Ed thought that Rose was going to push him back… but she didn't. She just held his arms and broke the kiss.

"Ed… look at us. You don't have anything on your upper body."

"Want my lower body to be the same?"

"Ed…! You are half naked and I'm going the same path."

"Then come already, I can't wait to see you all the way here" he said, smirking and kissing Rose's neck.

She smirked and then looked at Ed seriously.

"Ed… you sure you want this?"

"Rose… the only thing I see is your shoulders and the only thing you see is my chest. It's not like we are doing anything."

"But you're waiting for something to happen."

"Rose, I'm sure. You're the only one I want to be mine."

"Ed, you're confused. You… well; we are making a mistake, Ed."

Ed kissed Rose on the neck 2 times and then on the lips, and then she broke the kiss.

"Rose!" he said after giving a groan.

"Ed, we can't do this."

"Why not? We love each other. Stop fighting it, I love you, I do!"

Rose closed her eyes and turned her head. Ed noticed some kind of disappointment on Rose's face so he kissed her cheek. She looked at him with confused, yet, decided eyes. Ed knew that she was confused, but he was decided to love her and nothing would stop him. He kissed her neck as he unbuttoned Rose's dress a little more. He then kissed the end of Rose's lips, so close that Rose felt the urge to kiss him, but… she held back. She just closed her eyes. She had so much tension; she felt her heart beating, she wanted to kiss Ed and feel him kiss her more, she wanted him to hug her, to hold him, to feel his lips, to caress him so much…, that she did. She started kissing him passionately and started to caress him. Ed was surprised at Rose's suddenly acts, but that didn't stop him from kissing her. Ed started sliding her sleeves lower, but just when the division of the breasts showed she stopped him.

"Rose…, what's wrong?"

"Ed, no!" she said sitting up.

Ed pushed Rose down and kissed her neck.

"That won't work on me, I'm not a dog."

"Ed, I can't do this."

"Rose, don't worry. It's going to be o.k."

That was it for Rose. Ed insisting, every inch of her body insisting to give in. She wouldn't hold no more. Rose brutally pushed Ed back, making him fall to the other side of the couch believing that Rose was going to try to stop him.

"Fine, let's" she said putting herself on top of him.

Ed was surprised how Rose just pushed him down and started kissing him, but he didn't stop her. He put his arms around her and started to caress her back. They kept kissing passionately, but Rose stopped again.

"Rose, not again!" Ed groaned.

"It's not that, Ed. This is dangerous."

"Why?"

"Al's living here too."

Ed stood up and grabbed Rose's arm.

"Then..., let's... go to... your room" he said, kissing her after every word.

Rose stopped kissing him because of the suggestion and looked at high with her mouth open and holding her dress up so it wouldn't fall down. Ed couldn't help to smirk at Rose's reaction.

"What? Let's go!" he said.

He grabbed Rose by one arm and guided her into her bedroom. She fell on her bed while Ed looked the door. He walked towards her and pinned her against the bed. He slid her dress down until freeing her breasts completely. He kissed her breasts and licked his way to her neck where he gently bit her and found his way to her lips. She caressed all the scars on his back and slid one of her hands to his lower abdomen and under his pants, making him moan. Rose started to slowly unbutton Ed pants... when the phone rang. Rose pushed Ed so she could answer the phone, but Ed held her back.

"Ed, I have to answer it."

Ed ignored her words and tried to convince her by slightly licking her breasts. Pleasure held her for a few seconds, but the ringing of the phone kept penetrating her ears, so she got up.

"Rose, come on!"

"No!"

With that she answered the phone and gave an alarmed expression when she knew who it was.

Rose looked at Ed with wide open eyes.

"Ohh, Winry! Hi!" she said in an alarmed tone.

Ed put a disgusted face, but not because he disgusted Winry, but because she called just when he thought that it would be the time.

"Ohh, Ed?" she said to Winry.

Ed started to wave his hands in front of him so Rose wouldn't hand him the phone.

"Yeah, he's here. Just a minute…" she covered the phone "It's for you."

"I don't want to talk to her. Tell her that I'm not here" he whispered.

"I won't lie for you, so here!" she handed the phone to Ed.

"Hi… yes, I'm fine. Yeah, Al too. Yeah, great talking to you too. Bye."

Ed hanged up the phone and sighted. Rose stood up and started to button her dress. When Ed noticed this he stood up and grabbed her arm.

"What are you doing?"

"You don't think we're going to…"

"Why not? We were going to."

"Ed, let's just say that... it's not right."

"But I've never seen you doing the right thing just because it's right" he demanded "And, besides..." he grabbed her waist and pushed her towards him "...I was looking forward to us..."

"Shut up" she interrupted "Go get your shirt and put it on before Al gets here and this… never happened."

With that Rose left the room. Ed sat on the bed with a disappointed face.

'Damn! I was so close. Maybe Rose thinks that I only want her and that, but I really love her. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me. Now I'm sure of it' he thought.

Meanwhile Rose was in the kitchen. She was trying to distract her mind by cleaning some plates, but she couldn't.

Rose put the plates back in the sink and leaned against the wall, remembering.

'Ed… we were about to, but even though we didn't… it was great to feel you so close, be held by you, kissed and hugged by you. I… think I really wanted to, but I wasn't sure' she thought.

Ed went into the living room and put his shirt on. He could see Rose and the more he saw her, the more he damned the moment Winry called.