Timeline: Set somewhere after Rikudou but before Homura.
Category: Yaoi/Slash. Angst. SanzoxHakkai.
Summary: It's raining again and Sanzo feels like he's drowning. This is from Hakkai's POV.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these bishounens, no matter how much I want to. Just having a little bit of innocent fun. Enjoy!
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It is so like Sanzo to deny himself this when everything else points that this is right, Hakkai mused to himself. Sanzo's lips parted to welcome the invasion of his tongue but he can feel the stiffness in Sanzo's posture, as if he were consciously fighting the heat pooling in his own body.
The rain had put Sanzo on edge. It always did. Hakkai only knew too well the feeling. It wasn't as if he wasn't a bundle of nerves himself when the first sign of dark clouds appear. It reminded him too much of that particular night, one he wished he could forget altogether. But what could not be changed, had to be endured, and Hakkai had learned to cope well enough.
Sanzo had saved him. True, Goyjo was the one who found him and nursed his broken, bleeding body back to life, but it was Sanzo that gave him something to live for.
"If you die, nothing will change."
I am not dead, Hakkai pulled Sanzo deeper into his embrace, but I am only alive when you are near. Is this what you meant, Sanzo? Is it?
Sanzo tasted of nicotine and beer, and of cinnamon, Hakkai mused. Strange, that a man as complicated as Sanzo would taste of something so common as cinnamon. Would he taste the same all over, Hakkai wondered. Unable to contain his curiosity, Hakkai bent down to taste the skin on Sanzo's neck.
"If you leave a mark, I'll kill you," Sanzo growled. Hakkai pulled back to look Sanzo in the eyes, emerald green versus amethyst. There was disappointment there, but so well guarded that Hakkai only knew it was there because he was looking for it. He smiled.
"Then you should take off your shirt, ne Sanzo?"
"My shirt?"
"Hai, your shirt. So that no one will see in case I leave a mark?"
If Hakkai did not have his arms wrapped around Sanzo so tightly he was sure that Sanzo would have shoved him off the bed and ran out the door, Sanzo Houshi or no Sanzo Houshi. His eyes were wild like a trapped animal and every muscle in his body seemed to go rigid as if preparing for a battle.
"Let me go," Sanzo hissed after struggling in vain for a few seconds.
"Are you sure that is what you want, Sanzo?" Hakkai loosened his hold on the monk so that there was a little space between them but it did not lessen the crazed look in Sanzo's eyes.
"Yes! Yes, that is what I want. Let me go, now!"
"What if I told you that I don't believe that?"
"Believe what you want, but let me go right now. This is a mistake. I don't want this!"
Sanzo was at a breaking point. He had push too far. Hakkai sighed and relinquish his hold on the delectable monk's body.
"I'm sorry," Hakkai said as he got up from the bed. "I'll leave now."
As Hakkai turned towards he door he sensed that monk was about to say something. He politely stood his ground until Sanzo had recovered enough to address him.
"We leave in the morning so make sure the two idiots wake up early and… and I need more cigarettes."
"Hai. Is there anything else?"
Silence could be interpreted in so many ways. It could be taken as assent given, or silent displeasure. It could mean that he will never get the opportunity to be this close to Sanzo again, or perhaps… Perhaps…
Thunder rumbled across the sky and lightning flashed almost the same instant. The storm was directly upon them now. He would probably get little sleep tonight.
"Is there anything else, Sanzo?"
"Yes." A hesitant pause. "Lock the door before you sleep. The kappa can room with the saru tonight." A rustle of sheets and then stillness.
"Hai." Hakkai smiled in the dark and went to do what he was told.
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A/N: I admit this part was a little bit rushed. Did you think Sanzo's change of heart was too abrupt? I tried to keep Sanzo and Hakkai as much as in character as possible. Disagree? Constructive criticisms are always appreciated!