Thanks to everyone for your reviews and I hope this chapter is okay cos writing doesn't come easy to me!
To answers some questions: Chris is around, and I will be including a mention of her in this chapter.
The writing on the wall says, 'Obey the first generartion,' just like in the episode Blank Generation.
So here's the next chapter. It's the morning after!
As before I don't own anything to do with Cold Case but if I did I'd give Kathryn a pay rise, Lilly a boyfriend and promote the show more!
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At 8am the alarm sounded. Lilly was asleep on her side, Scotty was behind her with both his arms wrapped around her, his head practically touching her neck. They reacted slowly to the alarm as Lilly tensed her shoulders before reaching across and hitting the off button. As she returned to her original position Scotty buried his head into her neck.
"Ummmm, you smell good," he whispered as he took in her scent and kissed her neck.
Lilly squinted and bit her lip. The realisation of what they had done had set in and she was suddenly faced with feelings of embarrassment and uncertainty of what would happen between them now. She was worried that her pity for him had overwhelmed all logic and common sense and that sleeping with Scotty would cause complications at work.
She sat up, clinging the duvet to her chest. "I should get ready for work," she said looking towards last nights discarded clothes on her bedroom floor.
Scotty winced and clenched his jaw. He reached up and touched the soft pale skin of her back that was still exposed. "Lilly?"
She turned and looked over her shoulder towards him. As he looked back at her, he realised that he had never been in this kind of situation before. Elisa was the only person he had been with before last night and he felt slightly guilty that he had jumped into bed with someone else so easily. Although him and Elisa had not had a 'normal' relationship for a long time due to her illness he had never stopped loving her more than anything. Losing her had devastated him but being with Lilly and concentrating on her made the pain subside, if only temporarily.
However, the last thing he wanted to think was that sleeping with Lilly was a mistake. He was the one that instigated everything. He had insisted on staying with her, as much for his comfort as hers, and for that he felt selfish.
As she was turned facing him he remembered Elisa's words when she had met Lilly outside work, about a year ago. He had laughed at her comment then but now with Lilly in front of him he saw what Elisa had seen in Lilly back then. She was so beautiful. In the darkness he hadn't been able to see the blueness of her eyes, but now in the daylight he could see them clearly and instead of thinking last night was a mistake he was thinking that he just wanted to repeat everything they had done all over again. He underestimated the ability that Lilly had to turn him on just by looking at him. Elisa would want me to be happy, Scotty thought to himself; and right now Lilly is making me feel happy.
He sat up, still resting his hand on her back.
"Do you regret it?" Scotty asked. He was becoming increasingly concerned which Lilly noticed.
"No – no I don't." She paused and took a deep breath.
Scotty wasn't sure what to do so moved closer to her and kissed her softly, firstly on her forehead, then on her lips, so he wouldn't have to say anything. Lilly kissed back but she was still feeling uncertain about the consequences of what they were doing would have on them, especially on Scotty, who she knew was confused and probably not thinking clearly.
As Scotty was about to open his mouth to deepen the kiss his cell phone that was still on the drawers next to the door, rang. Lilly was the first to pull away and look at the phone. Scotty let go of her, climbed out of bed and walked over to his phone. He read the screen and turned to Lilly.
"Elisa's sister," he said, gulping heavily.
Lilly acknowledged him by nodding her head.
As Scotty answered the phone Lilly reached over to her bed side drawer and pulled out a set of bright blue underwear. Scotty watched as Lilly fastened her bra and pulled her thong over her behind. He felt odd, listening to the words of Elisa's sister talking about the girl he loved for so long whilst at the same time watching the women he had just had the most amazing night with dress in really sexy underwear. He had to turn away from Lilly so he could concentrate on what Elisa's sister was saying.
Lilly didn't really listen to what Scotty was saying as she walked into her en-suite quickly glancing at his naked form before going through the doorway, over to the sink to brush her teeth.
Next thing she knew Scotty was standing in the doorway looking at her; he had his boxers on now. She rinsed off her toothbrush and set it down on the counter as Scotty walked over to her.
"They've released her body. Her mom wants to take her upstate so she can be buried next to her grandparents."
Lilly just looked at him, his head was hung low and his eyes were beginning to fill with tears.
"They're leaving in a few hours so they can start making all the arrangements. They want me to travel with them."
Lilly took a large breath. "Okay." She paused. "That's nice, that she'll be with her grandparents." Lilly instantly felt stupid for saying that but was finding it difficult to find the right words.
Scotty inhaled a large breath and slowly let it escape. He tried to fight against his hurt so smiled at Lilly and walked even closer, focusing on her perfect figure which whilst feeling sad still aroused him again. He put his arms around her waist and scanned her from head to toe.
"Do you know how good you look in that underwear?"
"Scotty, what are you doing?"
"Shhh," he said as her kissed her. He wanted to forget reality for a little longer.
"Scotty, your confused," she said against his lips not trying hard to resist him.
"I know I want you," he said reassuringly and confidently.
Their kiss was slow and passionate, his hands moving up and down her body.
As he pulled away and opened his eyes he noticed that Lilly's chin was red. He placed his hand on the side of her face.
"I'm sorry I've made your face all red. I should have shaved."
"Hey, it's okay, it's fine," she replied smiling at his worried expression.
She leant in to kiss him, just as passionately as before, and placed her arms around his neck. This really turned Scotty on. His hands moved down her body, and pulled off the thong she had recently put on. Next he picked her up and sat her on the counter. Her legs were parted as Scotty stepped in between them, his body telling him he wanted Lilly again. He knew he shouldn't be making the situation more complicated, but he couldn't resist her.
"Scotty, Chris could be home any moment."
"I'm sure I can be quick," he said smiling.
Lilly smiled back. She had the exact same thoughts running through her head; she wanted Scotty just as much as he wanted her and showed him this by pulling down his boxers and locking her legs around him.
She let him enter her and make love to her a second time. He had been right, it didn't take long, with both of them simultaneously climaxing.
They held each other close before Scotty placed his hands on Lilly's waist, took a step back and pulled her off the counter. He looked in to her bright blue eyes and smiled at her before she leant down to pick up her thong and put it back on. On standing back up she looked at Scotty, giggled and rolled her eyes.
"Well, I guess neither of us can say last night was a mistake now."
"It wasn't." Scotty answered. Lilly giggled again shyly.
"So, uh, what happens now?" she asked walking back through to the bedroom over towards the wardrobe.
Scotty followed whilst pulling on his boxers again, then stopped by the clothes on the floor, picking up his t-shirt and putting it on.
"I don't know. There's a lot going on with both of us at the moment. Tell me what you want?" he asked.
"Well I think we both know we shouldn't be doing this. Ill advised, right?"
Scotty looked into her eyes. He knew she was right and agreed. He wasn't being fair on her. However, now that he had been with her he already knew he would want to be intimate with her again. He was torn and didn't know what to say. The last thing he wanted to do was to confuse Lilly or hurt her. He saw what the break up with Kite did and he didn't want her to feel like that again.
"You're right we shouldn't be doing this, but we have. It's no mistake in my mind, Lilly. I'd do it all over again. I don't think I could forget it's happened either. But she's only been gone a few days and I don't even know exactly what happened yet."
"I know, and I'm not expecting anything from you," she said, showing Scotty that she understood.
"Believe me Lil, I wish things could be simple; you're beautiful." He walked across to her, reached up and touched her hair. He wanted to change the subject; he had just enjoyed making love to her again and wanted to pay Lilly all the attention and compliments he could before he had to leave her and face saying goodbye to Elisa for the last time.
"Your hair looks beautiful like this."
"Should I wear it down more?" Lilly replied, seductively.
"I think if you kept it down for work I wouldn't get much done."
Lilly laughed. Then there was a pause.
"So how long do you think you're gonna be away?" Lilly asked in a more serious tone.
"Uh, a few days I guess," he replied. Lilly nodded.
"I'm not sure I face it Lil."
"You and her were together for 15 years Scotty. You need to be there – with her family."
"But what if you need me?" Lilly was suddenly forced to remember the reality that was the break in and the telephone call.
"I'll be fine."
"How did I know you were gonna say that?" he laughed.
"I will," she insisted.
Just then Scotty's phone rang again. He answered it as Lilly started to dress for work. She was almost ready when he finished.
"Elisa's sister. She asked me to drop by the precinct to pick up her things. Looks like we're gonna be leaving in a couple a hours."
"So, ah, I guess I better go," he added.
"Okay."
Scotty left the bedroom, picking up his gun on the way and walked downstairs to where the rest of his clothes were. He looked at the boarded up window and the writing on the wall.
"Do you have someone coming to fix the window?" he shouted up the stairs.
"Yeah, I called Chris last night, she said she'd be here when the glaziers come to fix it" he heard her shout back.
Lilly remained upstairs, put her make-up on and fixed her hair. When she walked downstairs Scotty had dressed and was stroking Olivia who was now on the couch sleeping. She didn't even look over to the wall or window. Scotty heard Lilly's footsteps on the wooden floor.
"Your cats sleep a lot don't they?"
"Yeah" she laughed, "they do."
He stood up, walked towards the door and turned to face Lilly.
"Okay, well, I guess I'll see you in a few days."
Lilly just nodded and walked closer to him.
"I hope everything goes okay."
Scotty reached out, grabbed her wrist and pulled her into him. He put one hand on the small of her back to hold her against him while his other hand held her neck as he leaned in to gently kiss her. He held his lips on hers for a few moments.
"Scotty," she said pushing him away, "we can't do this."
"I know, you're right, I'm sorry." He released her and rubbed his face.
"I'll see you in a few days Lil."
"Yeah, I'll see ya Scotty."
Lilly unlocked the door and opened it. She watched as Scotty walked to his car across the street. Before he got in he turned towards Lilly's house and saw that she was watching him. He smiled at her as she looked, and watched her as she closed the door.
Hmmmmm, so shall I do more? If so I do have a couple of ideas of what could happen next.
Anyway any comments gratefully received. Thanks for taking the time to read and hope it wasn't to much of a waste?