Ramblings of an Insane andConfused Hermione
Lucid-03-days
Another night, another moment of insanity. I swear, my mind starts shutting off at exactly ten at night. Which isn't good, because so many nights Harry and Ron want to stay up night and just talk or something. So many times I've caught myself just about to make a move on the red-headed fiend. Luckily for me, my mind doesn't completely shut off until midnight. I've never really stayed around him that late. Especially long enough to get myself in a weird position with him...and I don't just mean that sexually.
I wonder if it was that obvious that I said 'I don't just mean'. Hey, I'm a teenager. I have hormones just like every other person to grace this earth. Mine just tend to crave one of my best friends for something insane reason. Oh Merlin, I'm a horrible person. I don't think the thoughts I have for that boy are even legal. I've had far too many dreams about Ron in which I all but shag him. Although that doesn't sound like such a bad idea.
I really need to stop myself. If I keep going in the direction that I seem to be headed, it'll be worse than making things awkward between the two of us. No. If I did the things I want to do, the poor boy will be forever terrified of girls. Especially the type that have bushy-hair and are bookworms. Why, out of all of the people in this world, do I have to have these damn feelings and urges for him! I need some sort of mental help, for I don't think I have that much sanity left.
Maybe everybody was right when they told me I study too much. All of those books have gone to my head. I've become delusional, that's the only explaination. So much so, that I'm having fantasies about Ronald Weasley. For Merlin's sake! I mean, out of every guy that I could possibly have feelings for, why him? Things would be so much easier if I fancied someone like, I don't know, Neville. Yeah, Neville Longbottom. I wouldn't be awkward or foolish around him. He'd do all of that horrid stuff himself.
Woah! That was really rude of me to think something like that. It almost makes me want to apologize to him. Neville is a great guy. Luna is quite lucky to have him. To each his own...and I've claimed Ron as my own. I've decided. There's no other way. As of this moment, I'm no longer sharing him with anyone else.
Yeah, like I'd do anything to stop him from dating. I couldn't do that. I'm not saying that I wouldn't want to do that, I just don't think that I have the courage to do that. He can date whoever he wants, just as long as I don't know about it. If, for some reason I find out, it's not my fault if she wakes up with boils all over her face. Ones, mind you,that cannot be removed, even with the most skillfully trained healers.
Seriously though, the thought of Ron with another girl, kissing another girl. It upsets me. Greatly. I'll just leave it at that.
A/N: I guess this story is doomed to short chapters. I suppose that means I'll update a lot more. Yay! More importantly, thanks for all the positive reviews. It makes me feel special. Please continue to review and make me feel special, so I'll continue this story. Most importantly: I would like to thank my Warlock for uploading my story yesteryday, for my computer wasn't letting me do it. -huggles him-