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Amor Vincit Omnia
Chapter Thirteen – That Someone Is You
Sora
I walked along the sidewalk. It was almost getting dark, and the lights in the city were just beginning to illuminate the sky. I stared ahead, and crossed the street towards the ocean front property that was popular in Odaiba.
Slowly, I inhaled and exhaled. Despite the peaceful environment, my heart and mind were racing.
Who was I kidding? No one but myself, apparently.
I mean, who was I to deny love, when I haven't even experienced it myself?
What are you so scared of?
I'm not scared of anything. I stared at the sky ahead of me. Nothing at all.
Then what are you doing?
This nagging, tugging feeling inside of me was telling me that I was wrong. Everything I had though I knew about myself seemed as if it were a lie. Matt made me feel like I was living a lie.
And I hated that.
I hated him for making me feel this way.
It seemed as if I didn't even know myself anymore. I felt so unsure. I felt like a child.
Why are you just standing here feeling sorry for yourself?
I was stronger than that. I would find Matt and give him a piece of my mind.
Or maybe, for once, I would tell him how I really felt.
Matt
My phone was ringing.
Annoyingly, as it was way too early in the morning for me to pick up, I refused to answer, yet it kept ringing incessantly. Just when it seemed like it had stopped, it only started up again.
Someone had better be dead. I got out of bed and picked up the phone. "What is it?" I growled.
"Hey there, big brother. I thought you would never pick up." A cheerful voice sounded on the other end.
"T.K.? What the hell do you want?" I rubbed at my eyes sleepily and tried to make out the time on the clock at the other end of the hall: nine in the morning.
"Listen, can I borrow your car? I need it today."
"Why would you want my car? You can't even drive."
"Who said anything about driving?"
"T.K." I gritted my teeth, "No way in hell am I going to lend you my car."
"Oh, c'mon, Matt. It's already a wreck. I swear it won't return in any worse condition then it already is."
I was already getting tired of this game, so I remained silent.
"Just think of it as a sort of final payment…on insurance." He said hopefully.
"No thanks. And I don't need you to blackmail me anymore." I brushed the hair out of my eyes.
"Why? You and Sora break up, or something?"
"We did not break up. In fact, we were never together in the first place." I felt a pull against my chest.
"But you like her." T.K. said snidely. I could imagine him cooking up another scheme.
"Yeah, I do." Suddenly, I realized how true this was.
I thought I heard a snap on the other end. "I knew it!" He said triumphantly.
"Listen, I got to go." I glanced at the clock again, "I'll talk to you later."
"So…about the car…"
"No." I said firmly, and hung up.
I looked around my apartment and noticed how cluttered and disorganized it was. I looked into my room and remembered how she had tidied it for me. It was still pretty much the same way she had left it—except for the bed.
I smiled at the neat pile of CD's, and then grabbed my car keys on the drawer.
Something inside of me told me to stay away. Let her come in her own time. I missed her, but sometimes even if you wanted something, maybe they weren't yours to have in the first place. Maybe we weren't meant to be.
You just never know.
Mimi
I stared at the textbook in front of me.
So much for my new found life. Give up pursuing boys and all I'm left with is school work.
I sighed and closed it. Please. There had to be so much more than studying. I looked at the window and studied the park from across the street. I saw Tai outside kicking around a ball. I smiled.
What a dork.
Oh well, I sat back down at my desk and opened the textbook again. Maybe, for once, I would actually do what I had said I would. Maybe I could try to change myself. I thought back to what Tai and I had talked about.
Please. If that dork was still in love with Sora, maybe some things didn't change.
But, I was determined that I would. For the better. I wouldn't be that girl chasing boys all the time. I would just be…myself.
That was the greatest goal I could ever accomplish.
And I could start by patching up an old friendship.
I picked up the phone and dialed Sora's number. I placed it carefully to my ear and waited, until I heard Sora's voice on the other end.
"Hi, Sora." I said cheerfully, "How about we go get some lunch and talk?"
Tai
I kicked the ball and smiled. There was a small satisfaction in being able to play soccer. To just let out all of my emotions come into play with just one kick.
But, right now, I didn't even know what I was feeling.
I didn't feel angry, sad, or happy. It's complicated, but you can say that I felt at peace. I think that's the only way to describe it.
I wasn't really involved in whatever drama Mimi and Sora were caught in with Matt, and I didn't even know if I could still talk to Sora. Things had definitely changed.
But was the change…for the better?
I didn't even have an answer for that, either. Actually, I didn't really have an answer for anything.
Sure, I still had feelings for her, but was I jealous of Matt? Did I feel depressed about not being with her? Not really. Maybe it's because it's been this way for a while. My not being with her. Her not knowing my feelings. Maybe, in reality, things didn't really change that much after all.
I haven't talked to Sora or Matt in a while. I wasn't sure if I could face either of them. Did I feel betrayed? Maybe. Maybe not. It was confusing.
But, really, maybe all I needed to do was be a friend. To both of them. Maybe that's what they really needed as well.
Sora
I had been wandering around the city for hours, searching.
Searching for what?
I felt so scared. I knew where he lived. I passed his apartment complex several times, walking up and down the block. Every time I was about to enter it, to walk up to his door and knock, I lost my nerve.
I hated myself for being such a coward. But, in reality, I wasn't ready.
But then again, when would I ever be ready? What was I protecting myself from, anyway? Why did I think I was so fearless in the first place?
A cold gust of wind swept through me, and I shivered.
How do you feel about him, anyway?
How could this be a hard question? Why couldn't I just answer it? Why couldn't I just admit it to myself? What the hell is wrong with me?
At this point, I was getting way too frustrated to even listen to myself. Something about the way I was arguing with myself was telling me that this was not entirely normal. I shut out the voice completely.
Now, I had wandered completely away from Matt's apartment. I didn't even know where I was. I wasn't even sure that I cared.
As I walked down the streets, exploring the city that I had lived in all my life, you would think that everything wouldn't be a mystery to me, that I would have no problem knowing where I was.
But strangely, it seemed as if I was seeing everything for the first time.
How could I have forgotten where everything was? Had I really been ignoring what was around me all of my life?
I was blind to what was in front of me for the longest time, only to see it clearly tonight.
I stared at the sky, wondering if that too, had changed.
"Sora?"
I turned around quickly, already knowing whose voice it belonged to.
Matt.
He stood there, looking at me. I didn't know what to say. I wasn't even sure if I had anything to say. I looked back at him, trying to summon even enough courage to speak.
When had I become so weak?
"What are you doing here?" Matt was now right in front of me. I looked up at him and had to catch my breath. When had he become so…cute?
"…I…I was just out for a walk." I said quietly, looking away from him. I knew that if I looked up into his eyes any much longer, I would completely give in. I couldn't. Not yet.
"Oh…" Something about his voice, I could feel his breath on my face. I willed myself to look into his eyes again. He stared back at me intently.
Maybe I wasn't weak. Maybe all I need was to do what I had wanted to do for so long, but I was too scared to do it. Maybe all I needed…
Was to be with him.
"Matt." I searched his eyes, hoping that what I was about to do was right, "I've known you for all my life, practically. What happened? When did things change? Where were you?"
"I've always been here, Sora." Matt said quietly.
"I know." My vision was blurring, "But something changed. I've been so blind." The tugging in my heart grew stronger, and I felt its beating in my ears. I took a breath. I had to do this.
I took a step towards him, placed my hands on his chest, and tilted my head towards him. He just looked at me, and I stared back into his eyes, then I kissed him.
For once, I did what I needed to do, and I got my answer. It didn't feel wrong. It felt completely right.
I pulled back and looked at him again, he smiled at me smugly. I already knew what was coming.
"So, Sora." He grinned even wider, "You finally came around."
I smiled back at him, and felt his hold on me tighten, "Don't count on it."
Then we kissed again.
THE END.
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