Okay, I started this story along time ago, and I desided to post it now. Oh well. This is just like all my other stories that I need five reviews before i can post any more. This story does not have chapters, so it has different parts instead. By the way, I have no clue where this story is going to go, so i will take any ideas anyone has. I would love to hear them, as well as any commetns anyone has. Good or bad, I do not care.
Hope you like it,
-Sydney

After the Life I Loved

He took me for granted when I gave him everything, even my heart. When we were together, I felt like I could live this way, as what I have become. As soon as he left, I went into denial. I was sent away, to a place in the sea for a crime I committed. Where no one thought I would be. I loved him and he pushed me away.

When I was out, I was only twenty-one. I had already spent four years in the worst place where people like what I did not want to become, go. The Kingdom of Hell by the sea, Azkaban Prison. I could not find anyone that would even look at me. Even the greatest man, would have killed me before letting the smartest witch ever work near the heaven on earth, Hogwarts School. At least that is what I thought would be, but that is not. I went to the only other person that would help me. When I found him, he looked at me, like I had not ever been to the place most go to for their life. I envy them. At least they did not have to face the world being judged as if I am now. The smart, intelligent witch that I used to be, disappeared. But if you would like, you could blame it all on the man I wanted to go to for every moment of my life. He was the reason I am what I am. The night he left me, I truly died inside. I wanted to kill him for what he did to me, but I found a better way. Thanks to the boy with light blonde hair, Draco. He helped me find people that would give Remus the revenge he needed.

Yes. I became a death eater. I was one of the most loyal there has ever been. I was not afraid to kill. After what happened to me, no one would. I meet a young face that I knew and once loved. She had joined as well. Since the death of her lover, she went into denial, just like me. Her bright red hair had turned into a light strawberry blonde. She had once told me that her parents had disowned her once they saw the mark on her arm. We stayed with each other. But everything changed, the day I met a familiar face. Our Lord had sent us on a mission to capture many, until the group we feared most showed up. I was with the other death eaters and I became face to face with the man I was most afraid of. Remus Lupin. He had taken my life away from me once, this time I won't let him.

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I looked into his eyes. He did not know it was me, I had a hood on and my eyes were red from a spell. My curly brown hair was straight and black now. I could change my appearance since the spell Voldemort did to all the deathearters. Also being an animagus changes you a lot. I could feel my old feelings coming back, as I remembered him long ago. I had been at least five years since we had met.

"Remus," I muttered and he stared at me. His hair was more like the sun disappearing by many clouds. His eyes were open wide, no expression but hate in them. I could fell the tears running down my cheeks. I would of loved to run up to him and have him hold me, but I had changed. I had to live with his and my decisions. Even if I regretted them.

"How do you know who I am?" He asked, not even lowering his wand. All of a sudden, I could feel a great pain go through my body. I could not understand what it was, at least not right then. I fell to the ground on all fours. Finally, it stopped. I felt so weak. "Get up." A voice I once knew said. As I turned around, I saw it was the one person that I feared, but wanted to kill most of all, Dumbledore. Draco was captured and was being pushed over towards me. I felt so sorry for him. When he was next to me, I asked, "Are you alright?"

"Wait, I know that voice." I heard more than one voice say. It seemed to have been most of the Order near us. I did not see one face that I did not know. As I watched, I saw my ex best friends standing in the crowd, I had an urge to cry, right there. But a red head girl, Ginny, had beat me to it. She had lowered her hood, so all knew who it was. She had burst out crying. I wanted to comfort her, but I had to stand strong. I watched her cry and I could tell everyone still did not know who I was, if I had gone over to her, they would of known. I felt a sudden urge to kill who ever I could. That was one of my mistakes. I ran at Dumbledore like I was a bloodthirsty maniac. I hit him, and he fell to the ground. I fell next to him. I realized what I had done and quickly tried to hide. To my great confusion, I had more friends then ever and one most important. Draco ran in front of me. That was the end of my life again. Many order members pushed Draco to the side and grabbed my arms. All of us were taken back to Hogwarts. I was locked up, and was guarded at all times. The one-day I remembered most of all was the day when my lover and my killer watched me.