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This story is dedicated to all my friends and the Evangelion addicts.

Go Eva! And to Auntie Mariah and Auntie Whitney that sang this song, thanks for the idea that you brought to me….To Uncle Stephen Schwartz, who wrote this beautiful song, thanks a lot too, and to all who read this story, thank you very much. Errr….review please? Hehehe….

Chapter two: When You Believe

Many nights we pray

With no prove anyone could hear

In our hearts a hope for song we barely understood now

"Rei….."a voice…that calm voice….mussed my name…..I sought the source of that joyful song every where…Where is it? "So, you feel summoned?" the voice muttered. I was puzzled by the sort of 'summons' she told me. "Why do your eyes look so supercilious, little Rei?" it said again. "I do not mean to be supercilious….Where are you?" I murmured. The voice laughed loudly until I thought that laugh echoed in my head. "You really don't discover who I really am, little pal?" it uttered. I shook my head.

"Terrible….and disappointed, still a little kid….or still a clone…a doll…?" the voice mumbled mockingly. My eyes were getting sharp to hear words clone and doll. "I'm not a doll….." I responded unhappily. The voice laughed again….."Don't be angry, little Rei…..Or….are you afraid of the……….. Fact!" suppressed that suck voice. "Who are you?" I asked that voice…."Still don't know? Chk…chk…chk….what an innocent girl…I feel so guilty to tease you, pal…wrong….not pal….but….my reflection….?" The voice finally gave me the answer, implicitly, but could be caught by my think.

Silence….I hoped that what I guessed was wrong…."Yui….?" I called that name sarcastilcally….The voice laughed….very loudly….like a crazy scientist….."Little cute Rei, finally….finally you know that…..I've waited so long for that kind of mind……" she cried happily. "What kind of mind?" I snapped. Another scary laughs again….."That kind….that kind….shall I explain more…... little Rei?" she mocked me…..I was still silent….We need to be careful for facing Yui. "Well, according to your dumb eyes, I think I better explain more…." She said with an evil tone.

"I don't need your explanation," I told her in a monotonous way. "Khu…khu…khu… what a still labile emotion…." She derided. "Well, I think whether you want it or not, you still will receive my statement," she continued. "Go away from here…." I mumbled to her, trembled with fear and confusion. "Little Rei….You don't have to be scared, my lovely doll…my beautiful marionette…..my reflection on my mirror….on my broken mirror….." she uttered scarily.

"I'm not your doll, or your marionette, or your reflection on that broken mirror….." I refused what she had spoken. "Well….as I know…broken mirror has bad reflection…..You are bad…,ugly, and the happiness taker….You are useless…" she reacted…"Yui…I've got enough with this….Leave me alone….I have no fault to you….." I said with cold sweat filled my face. "Really? May be not….but you still steal some images…some characters from me….I want to get it back…and I'll never ask it again…." Inquired she.

"What sort of images and characters that you want to get it back from this little Rei?" I snapped, brought that word 'little Rei' to her back, meaningless. "The sort of my images on you….and my characters inside you….I hate that….Give it back to me…to the right owner that those precious things supposed belong to…." She replied with a very cold voice. "How?" I asked her.

Suddenly, food steps fell on my ear. The food steps of a pair elegant high-heels woman shoes…I turned my head, and saw a shadow amongst the thick mist. 'Is that you, Yui? Is that the woman that keep disturbing my life….annoying…..terrible….but I a little bit admire your power to control half of my life' I mumbled in my heart. The shadow became clearer…and that moment, a beautiful woman stood in front of me….Ikari Yui…. "By death…" she whispered to me as an answer.

I was shocked and walked back for some steps…She smiled cruelly. "Sometimes I think that I was born to be a cruel angel," she told me her opinion. "I won't die just for giving you back that bullshit images and characters," I mused without expression. She glimpsed at me, and smiled again. "Really? May be you don't want it….But you can't hide from me forever, little Rei," she muttered. "I never hide from you…You disturb me all the time….You come to me all the time…. But you don't find me…That's why I said that I never hide from you, Ikari Yui," I said to her.

"Deep inside your heart….May be you don't realize that…but I know surely every night you pray….but with no prove anyone could hear….In your heart a hope for song we both barely understood….." she told me. First, I didn't get what she was trying to tell me. Then, when I felt my emotion, my desire….then I realized…I have prayed for a liberality from that bastard woman, Yui…

"Nah…you just realized it right? Uuw…what a nice prayer from a little Rei….or….little Yui?" she mocked me. "I'm not the little Yui….I'm not a such as sucks lady that always disturbs another person without any sensible reason," that time, I attacked her. She turned her head and smiled again…."Nice prayer….." she murmured. And then she walked from my side, went to the mist….and vanished….

I opened my eyes…choked for a while….and that breathed short…..It wasn't a nightmare at all…but it successfully made me uncomfortable and a little bit confused. I wasn't scared or frightened….just her words made a dreadful feeling for me…..Nice prayer…..Oh my….what did she mean with those words! I looked at the wall clock….still 2 am…I have to sleep some more…Felt tired to meet Yui again, I wasn't really sure to sleep. But I was sleepy enough until I could beat that shit feeling….

We are not afraid

Although we know there's much to fear

We were moving mountain long before we knew we could

The next morning, I had a test in NERV, about synchronizing or something like that…..First, a boring medical check up with Dr. Akagi. She didn't talk to much that day…Just about my health and those unclear procedures. Second, the test in that synchronizing cylinder. In that orange medical water, tasted like blood. I never like being there…

After those sucks test, a fellow that have been in my heart since a long long time ago came over me. Ikari Gendou…..He smiled to me. "Rei, how was the test?" he asked, still with the smile I liked. "It's good enough," I responded slowly. "The problem is in our mind….." he told me a confusing statement. "Which means?" I implicitly inquired him to continue his words. "Which means….close the awful memories. The problem is in our mind…." He continued confusingly. I just nodded.

"Rei…" he called my name. What a heavenly song….I gazed at him. "Yes?" I muttered. " We are not afraid….Although we know there's much to fear…We were moving mountain long before we knew we could….." he told me. I didn't understand anything of his poetry words. "But….we will move that mountain whether we know we could or not….And after move that mountain, we'll meet and greet with the eternal happiness," he uttered. I nodded again

That mountain….meant the feeling of me….or….Yui?

There can be miracle

When you believe

The hope is rare, it's hard to kill

Who knows that miracle…..

You can achieve

When you believe…..

Somehow you will

You will when you believe…..

A message from Rei :

What do you believe in? Like Misato said (she really said it), miracle is not something that suddenly will happen, humans make the miracle…Sometimes, when we are failed, we feel disappointed and desperate, we lose our faith and belief…..We think that we'll never be able to reach what we want, to achieve our goals….But, the words that you need to hold all are (like in the lyric) 'you will when you believe….' Everyone surely has been failed even for once….the failure is not important….it's not valuable enough to be thought everyday by your brain, and it's not precious enough to be kept in our heart….Let the failures free by the time goes on…the important and valuable and precious enough is….To achieve the miracle or hope or goals that you want isn't as hard as you think…..Somehow you will….You will when you believe….

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