Title: November

Disclaimer: Lyrics in italics are from the song 'November' by Azure Ray. Characters are mine. L.J.Smith owns the Nightworld. Lyrics are from the Internet and as a result ARE from the public domain.

A/N: Doing a major paperwork tidy and found several Nightworld fics that I hadn't typed up and this was one of them. I wrote this about 2 years ago and decided that it had gathered enough dust on it ad might as well be posted…hope you all enjoy and please review.

So I'm waiting for this test to end So those lighter days can soon begin

Sarha wiped her hand across her mouth, scarlet blood smeared cross her hand. Her tongue traced the edges of her swollen split lip. Stood opposite was her soulmate, knife in hand, fangs extended. Her left hand gripped a wooden stake.

I'll be alone but maybe more carefree Like a kite that floats so effortlessly

Death. It was the one thing on her mind. And it wasn't her own. It's strange how love can feel so much like hate and how easily a persons hatred can conquer love How it could end like this where one would die at the others hand.

I was afraid to be alone Now I'm scared that's how I like to be

No hatred. No love. Only static filled her as she faced him. He'd killed her family, her friends, even her damn cat. And she'd made herself stronger.

All these faces none the same How can there be so many different personalities

Midnight Rumours. A secret within a secret world. Assassins for both sides. Sarha had lost count of the number of people, no not people, monsters that she had killed to get here.

So many lifeless empty hands So many hearts in great demand

She lunged at him in a flurry of blocks and advances, a continuous battle. His knife sliced her arm as her back hit the dank damp wall of the alleyway. A flash of fangs as he leaned in then the pressure of lips on hers

And now my sorrow seems so far away Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain

Flashes. Memories. Her seven-year-old brother laughing, then lying dead puncture wounds in his neck and a pool of red surrounding him.

But I turn them off and tuck them away

Till these rainy days that make them stay

Tears fall as I cling to him. Alone.

And I'll cry so hard to these sad songs

And the words still ring once here now gone.

"Not alone." Words mumbled against her ear, his hand trailing up and down her back. "Never alone Sar. I love you."

And they echo though my head everyday

And I don't think they'll ever go away

More memories, more blood, more lies. She shoves him away. "Liar." One word filled with bitterness and pain.

Just like thinking of your childhood home

But you can't go back we're on our own

The stake was still in her hand. He didn't have time to react, no time to move before it was too late, it was too late to do anything but die

But I'm about to give this one last shot

To find it in myself, to find it I my self

I want to leave but I stay, holding your hand and you smile as you send me your final thought.

So were speeding to that time of year

To the day that marks that your not here

The alleyway was empty, just as it had been theyear before. She'd rebuilt a life but it was a fake. Now she really was alone for real.

And I think That I wasn't to be alone

So please understand if I don't answer the phone

Afraid of being alone, afraid of what he'd meant to her. Everything faded as memories replayed. Same old story, same old end. Blood and tears shimmering in the moonlight.

I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls

Until I can see nothing at all

Only partials some fast, some slow

All my eyes can see is all I know

A knife shimmered along with the tears. His knife.

Another body lay in the alleyway. Another pool of blood. Another life over.

Two souls together for all eternity.

But I'll give this one last shot

And I'll find it in myself, I'll find it in myself.