Ok, this my very first fanfic. Don't be discouraged! I need to know if I'm a crappy writer or not. After about 2 weeks, I finally figured out how to post a fanfic lol. Ok, so this is in the beginning of season 5. Rory is dating Dean (whom I hate) and the first chapter is mainly her thoghts on the whole thing.

She lay there next to him, staring deeply in his eyes, As much as she tried to convince herself that this was right, it felt wrong. She was tired of every time she had sex with him she was thinking, this is wrong, he's married. But he loves me... I think. He had told her that it was over with Lindsey, they were prepared for a divorce. But he never took any action. he was still with her, and they had to be together in secret, She hated that. But she kept telling herself he loves you, he's gonna be with you forever, not with THAT WOMAN. But "that woman" was his wife, and she had no idea what he was doing when she wasn't around. She hated dealing with it. She wanted a boyfriend that she could call at his house. She wanted a boyfriend that she could walk to his front door and be invited in. She didn't want THIS.

Just as she was about to tell him how she felt, his cellphone rang. He leaned down and looked at the caller ID.

"It's Lindsey, I gotta go" he said while standing up and getting dressed.

"When will I see you again?" she said as she looked at him with questioning eyes.

"I don't know, Lindsey's gonna be home a lot lately so I don't know" he said getting ready to leave.

"Whatever" she said getting aggravated.

"What's wrong?" he said obviously oblivious.

"When are you getting divorced?" she asked getting dressed.

"Come on Rory" he said running his hand through his hair. "It's not that easy, you're my girlfriend, you have to understand that I'm working on it"

"I can't be your girlfriend if you're married!" she said officially upset.

"I thoght you agreed!" he said, getting upset as well (NOT the best idea)

"I can't deal with this anymore! I'm done! We're through!" she said, suddenly realizing the words that had come out of her mouth.

"You don't mean that" he said breathless.

Beginning to cry, "I think I do" with that, she grabbed her bag and left, Before he could say something to change her mind.

She ran into her room and threw herself on the bed. After crying for about ten minutes, she walked into the closet and grabbed, what she thought, was her Dean box. She walked into her room and set the box on her bed. Prepared to add the things she had collected until she broke up with him. She opened the box, realizing her mistake.

"Oh my God" she breathed out.

She looked at all the things she had collected from her relationship with Jess. As she looked at these things, she realized why she had broken up with Dean. Because of the boy that had broken her heart. But not only had he broken it, he still held it. And as much as she begged for it back, he refused. Now she knew what she had to do.

Ok, since this is my first fanfic, I desperatly need constructive criticism. But a little bit of sugar is always nice too! (lol)

PLEASE R&R!