I sit at my kitchen table, thinking about a bad dream I just had. Elliot Stabler and Olivia Benson were in it. In the dream, I was in the precinct with Elliot and Olivia. I lost all pretenses and told Elliot that I loved him. He looked at me, laughed, and said, "I love Olivia." Then everyone else started to laugh and I woke up.
I had had a crush on Elliot Stabler ever since I first met him. I was sitting in my office when I heard a knock.
"Come in!" I said without looking up.
When I did look up, I saw two of the most gorgeous people I have ever seen. The woman, I knew, was Olivia Benson. The man I hadn't met yet. He was tall, incredibly attractive, and well muscled, with blue eyes and short brown hair. I fell for him right on the spot.
"This is my partner, Elliot Stabler," Olivia introduced us.
I shook his hand and gaped at him. I must have looked like a fool. Olivia was trying not to laugh, and Elliot gave her a playful look. Then, as hard as it was, we got down to business.
It wasn't until they left that I realized they were in love with each other. So I sat down at my desk and thought.
I still had a huge crush on Elliot, but he was in love with Olivia. I also knew that Olivia was in love with Elliot. It was so obvious that I wondered they didn't notice it. Considering all this, I didn't stand a chance with Elliot, unless some miracle happened. Still, I wasn't going to mess up their true love. I wasn't that stupid; I wasn't a young girl anymore.
Whenever I went into the precinct, I watched them. It hurt me every time they looked at each other. I had trouble concentrating on what Elliot was saying when we were alone (and I bet he told Olivia about all of this). Olivia never said anything or made me feel bad, though.
I bring his face into my mind to comfort myself. I sip my early morning coffee and wonder what it would be like if he loved me (really, what it would be like to be Olivia). I try not to let the thought creep into my mind that he is totally in love with Olivia.
I look at my watch for realize I have to go to work. Thinking that I might see Elliot today makes me feel better. I get up and finish my coffee.
You'll be in my heart
You'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more