-1Goose Bumps…
Don't you ever wish you could find someone who can give you Goosebumps just by whispering into your shoulder a simple sentence ''like it's cold out tonight?'' I really want to find him…I suppose in a away I did, but he wasn't real you see, because perfection and reality don't go together so instead I was living a life of (well that's what I thought at the time) second best. I was living with my husband, and our 2 kids, I love them to bits, but we're not perfect, he's not, I'm really not.
But I still like to dream about how I imagined my first love, standing under a waterfall confessing our love kissing passionately, laughing, getting married in candle light underneath a clear-starry sky in a tropical country. With everyone I have ever known standing around us smiling at us and encouraging us to say those few words that I always imagined to be so wonderful and fulfilling.
However things didn't happen like that no confessions where made under waterfalls, and we didn't get married under a star lit sky. In fact if I remember properly we got married around 12:00. I wore a white dress but I looked the same as I always have I didn't turn into a supermodel over night just for my wedding. Nope.
But the one thing I've learnt during my life here on earth is that perfection is flawed and highly over rated! I would never have trade places with anyone in the world (well now I wouldn't anyway :P).
I suppose you might not understand what I mean. if I'm happy then why have I been telling you about what I wished had happened? You see until today I didn't realize how good a had it, because well you see I died today. Yep that's right I've now left my body to rot but my soul will go on I will be there to comfort my husband and children during their time of grief, and hopefully one day I'll be able to tell them how truly happy I was living with them. As a flawed family!
I'm not going to miss them though because I'm not going anywhere, their going to be stuck with me forever even if they can't see me I'll point them in the right direction. And I'll still make there sandwiches if he forgets, they'll just be oblivious to my work. But all I need is to see them smile, and then I can be content…even if I'm on my own, in this world of forever.
A/N: WRITE ME REVIEWS OR ELSE I'LL…I'LL …erm…well this is embarrassing goes red fine I won't hurt you but seriously don't you walk away after getting this far or I'll cry! (I will, I will!) plzz! X honey