Botan's Decision Kurama's Feelings

A/N: I'm very sorry I made a very big mistake,the chapter six you've read was my rough draft and that's why it wasn't organized.I got all busy that I didn't have to look it over, so if you can all find it in your hearts please try to read this chapter. THANK YOU!

Recap:

"Kurama!" she yelled out his name,

she found herself wearing a white kimono and was drenched in sweat. She was breathing rapidly and it was only a nightmare.

It was only a nightmare, but why would I see him getting hurt? She asked herself.

She couldn't stop her tears for being shead; everynight it was the same thing over and over, she had stayed in her room for about three days and all she does was crying either out loud or silently depending on what dream she was having. Her friends are all in the living room hearing her wailing for about three days, Shizuru who blew out smoke from her cigarette had went off to Botan's room. She couldn't see her like this, she also couldn't take it anymore because she's just crying without her friends knowing what's going on with her. While heading straight Koenma grabbed her wrist and said,

" Shizuru I suggest we leave her alone."

She quickly move her wrist away from Koenma then yelled with anger,

"Look at her Koenma, she's been crying for so long and what you, the prince of Spirit World do to help his Spirit guide ?"

Koenma was speechless and it was true he didn't do anything to help his crying friend so he let Shizuru handle it.

She then opened the Botan's door and came inside, she sat next to Botan, who covered her face with her hands crying.

In a soft voice Shizuru said,

"You know kid you should get over it already, you've been crying too much and if I were in your shoe I would try to forget whatever happen."

She uncovered her face, seeing her eyes were swollen from the crying she said in a hesteric yet teary voice;

"How should I get over this Shizuru if every single night I see him fighting and getting hurt even from the fights I haven't seen like from Sensui. Last night I had the same nightmare since he left and seeing him getting hurt from Karasu from the Dark Tournament, I just couldn't...I just can't stand hearing and getting hurt."

Shizuru suddenly slapped Botan's face really hard leaving a red mark, leading her back to reality. She was irritated yet worried about her, and hearing about the Dark Tournament only lead her of seeing Sakyo's death.

Botan was still in shock had stopped crying and was back to reality, she sat there while Shizuru said,

"What the hell's wrong with you Botan? You think you have the right to cry all you want while your friends were worried sick about you. If you don't want to lose him then I suggest you do what I tell you to do and make your choice, either stay here and cry all you want or follow him. If you're thinking about getting in his way, guess again try to be by his side. From the looks of things you've done nothing to help him you're just her sobbing like a spoiled child over a nightmare and didn't say anything until now."

Both Keiko and Yukina entered the room wandering what was that slapping noise, the two looked at Botan who was sitting in her futon revealing a red mark on her right cheek. Keiko ran to her so did Yukina and cried,

"Oh my gosh Botan! What on earth did you do to her Shizuru!"

Shizuru got up lit her cigarette said nothing and left the room. Botan who was still in distress couldn't decide whether she should follow Kurama or get out of his way.

Shizuru went outside to smoke to take out all the stress she had today, she could never forget that day when Sakyo had left her.

Shizuru's Flashback

" I don't know, this plan is a bit too fishy coming from a man like you." She heard from Koenma,

she followed Sakyo knowing that something was wrong, she looked at the opened door where she heard and saw everything from both the two men.

"Uh Shizuru," said Koenma.

She looked at the man she had fallen in love with and smiled back at her, Sakyo had pulled a lighter off his pocket and threw it to Shizuru.

Shizuru didn't know what he was planing to do until she finally realized and gasped then looked at him. he was still smiling warmly at her and waved goodbye, the machine on the top had exploded and Shizuru said,

"No Sakyo wait!" But Koenma pulled her away from him, but she was struggling to get him but she couldn't it was already too late,.

"Don't leave!" She cried, tears streamed down to her cheecks seeing her beloved doing an idiotic suicide.

End of Flashback

Koenma went outside to see if she was alright and said,

" I thought you were over his death, Shizuru." he looked at his friend then shut his eyes hoping to know if she and Botan were alright.

" I did accept his death, but bringing up the past can only revive him inside my heart. Koenma I don't want Botan to be like this nor Kurama, I don't want her to end up like me and Sakyo. Everyday I would see these two together whether a mission or just to hang with my brother, I would see them getting closer and growing up with then move on with thier life."

"Correct me if I'm wrong but you think of Botan as your sister and seeing her with Kurama makes you happy and not to worry, and in time they'd be together with their life." he said,

She blew out smoke and said,

"Exactly, what about you? Why are you even helping with thier relationship? The prince of Spirit World wouldn't want to waste his time playing matchmaker, not unless you were in love with her."

She placed her hand on her elbow smiling; waiting for his answer.

"Not to worry, I also love her as a sister too; I don't intend to see my chief pilot of the River Styx without anyone to love in her life and trust me I know because we've been through alot of things."

In Makai

Four months had passed since he left and after what he'd done transforming to Yoko and killing one of Yomi's men. He had felt something inside his heart that something was wrong so he went staight to Yomi's to settle a small conversation.

"Is there something you want to talk about?" asked the demon lord, Kurama looked at him suspicously and answered in a cold voice;

"Have you been keeping your end of the bargin? If not I will not hesitate to kill you."

Yomi faced him seriously and said,

"You shouldn't blame others for what they haven't done Kurama, I've have not done anything to your human parents and the ferry girl."

They both looked at each other then Kurama bowed his and tried to calm himself while closing his eyes.

"There's something you should know,that the demon parasite you've talked to did not return." said Yomi who was facing Kurama,

"So what's your point?" he asked.

"My point is my friend,is that he was able to transform into his final stage,and that he has a poisonus tusk on his forehead; if inflected by either human, demon, or spirit, it would cause the victim having traumatic dreams causing them to go hysteric and loose site of reality." Yomi explained.

Kurama didn't know why he was explaning this to him but until he realized something,

No wait it can't be could it? His heart was beating faster and was worried that what if she was really hurt? All this time when his heart was telling him something was wrong, he didn't do anything about it! His heart felt like it was torn apart and as looked at Yomi for an answer he asked,

"Why are you telling me this?"

Yomi did not face him and answered,

"I'm telling you this because of the ferry girl had been infected by this creature."

It was true after all, his heart was actually telling him that she was hurt, but why didn't he do anything? His eyes were wide from the shock that Yomi had given him and he was worried yet angry at the same time because of how the insect had fooled him behind his back.

"Why haven't you inform me of this sort? And this demon, where is he and how did he know my relationship with her?" he asked demandly, he was moving his fist around then thought he could never forgive that demon and that he could merclessly let him suffer to death.

Kurama was getting mad at Yomi for not telling him,and together he was mad at himself for not listening to his heart until now.He truly loved her and he couldn't forgive himself for not protecting her.

"There's no need to infuriate Kurama, my reasons for not telling is because I was informed that the demon parasite was found dead in Human World and that my agent have caught a footage who had killed him, I would like you to watch it." he said, he then switched his screen revealing Botan who was attacked and the part where she was sleeping after that. Kurama watched half of the video and asked,

"Why do you have this on video?"

"I wanted to know who killed the demon which was one of your friends and I to see if you could still trust me not harm the girl."

"May I ask why the demon tried to kill her? How will I find the antidote for curing her ailment?" he asked curiously,Yomi showed no reaction and answered,

"The answer is simple, Sachi must of over heard us and took advantage on the girl to send the parasite to assasinate her, and the antidote is that the either have one of the people she knows bring her back to reality or she has no other choice but try to accept what on her mind."

Kurama hoped even if he can't do anything, he hoped that Botan would get better and that his friends would always be there for her.

"A word of advice Kurama, you shouldn't be showing your relationship on others who want you dead. You're too attach to her and with that, look what just happen." Said Yomi.

He then walked away from the darkness leaving Kurama to think what he said.

Human World

Another week had passed, Botan's nightmares were gone and still, what Shizuru said she couldn't make-up her mind! It was difficult for her to choose and everyone around her were worried about her. They all asked Genkai's for help since she felt the same way before, she was sitting in the porch of the temple with her bangs covering her eyes slumped on the wooden rails Genkai came and sat next to her.

"Botan would you mind telling me what's on your mind?" she asked kindly in a motherly voice.

Botan sat there not caring to answer her question, Shizuru came out to help Genkai and to apologized Botan.

"Forgive me what I did to the other day, I was so worried about you and well I just snapped."

"There's no need to apologize Shizuru, I mean...I was,..well stupid for not getting myself back to reality." She answered back,

she hadn't talked in a while since that day and everyone in the temple was going to

make her.

Is that all she can say? There's know need to apologize? Shizuru thought, she was now getting irritated with Botan and her stubborn attitude, she didn't have her normal attitude which was gone and how stupid she was for not listening to her heart.

"Are you even going to try?" She asked,

Her eyes went to depression into surprise then tears were coming out of her eyes, she pressed her lips trying not to cry again so instead she placed her right hand to cover her mouth.

"I can't...I just can't!" she answered,

Genkai finally understood about her problem and smiled,

"Then by all means, you already know he's dead." Shizuru said in a cold voice,

Botan made a teary gasp and couldn't think he was gone, she can't imagine seeing him in Spirit World.

"No, he can't be, I don't ever want to hear you say things like that! Don't you understan Shizuru?" she yelled,

Shizuru exhaled smoke in her mouth and Koenma joined outside to help Botan and her misery.

"If you don't want him dead then you have no other choice but to do what Shizuru tells you to." he said,

he couldn't take it either and he wants to get this done.

"I can't...I don't want him to know that I'm always a burden to him and his way..."

Shizuru suddenly grabbed her in the collar with no hesitation and yelled in her face,

"Look here Botan! If you're going to just stay here crying like an idiot, why don't you do what I say and grow up!"

She pushed her back and said,

Crying isn't solving anything Botan! You think too much of this crap and you say you wouldn't worry anything about him and now you just did!"

Botan covered her eyes with her hands and moved her head from side to side saying 'no'

A flashback of her and Kurama suddenly appered in her head on how they both made a promise and that she wouldn't worry about him.

"Shizuru's right Botan, it isn't solving anything and had witness you making promise to him and you just broke it. The question is, do you still want to keep the promise and at the same time following? Or let him die while you worry? The choice is yours Botan." said Koenma.

Botan let her back go down facing her face into his legs covering her eyes and cried out loud,

"I'm sorry for breaking the promise, I don't want him to die!"

Another had passed and Ayame came to visit Koenma, he was surprise to see her who was looking for him for an assignment to do.

"Sir, King Yama had requested you on this particular assignment to do." she said,

"May ask what is it?" he asjed politely, it was hard for him to admit but he was in love with the Spirit Worlds records department leader, but he was a bit nervous to tell her.

"Well it's concerning Yusuke Urameshi, the King said that he would give him and the other two demons a chance to stay in Human World and we've assign George to obsevre on Hiei, but we need someone from Spirit World to observe on this Kurama." said Ayame, unbeknownst to Koenma she too had been in love with him quite a while but she told herself to tell him when the time is right.

Botan suddenly appeared from the sliding door and said,

"Sir, I've decided...I've decided to do what I have to do."

She was surprise to see her and it was indeed too long that they haven't seen each other, she gave a warm smile at the two and they did the same Koenma said,

"It's been a while since we see that smile, well Ayame considerate done. You've found an obsever for both Yusuke and Kurama." He then gave her a wink on both eyes and smiled.

Ayame was turning red and nodded then left, Koenma watched her leave and smiled again then looked at Botan who was looking at him doing his stunt and said,

"Good choice."

"Thank you." she answered.