I started crying when I noticed who's writing it was. It was my step dads; I looked up at the date March 26, 2006 the day before I left.

Dear Jennifer,

I sat here reading threw all your journals, and I find the entry's somewhat disturbing. Alls I ever done was love you with all my heart, body and soul. I never loved your mother, you were the reason I stayed for all those years.

I seen you and instantly fail in love. Your sweet smile, your blond hair, blue eyes, and the way you were so care free. You were completely innocent. You had no fears or worries. You were so beautiful, I wanted to marry you then but you were only two.

I didn't mind waiting though, but I couldn't resist the urges to make love to you. If I would've done that I would've killed you so I done the next best thing. I don't see how me loving you ever caused you any pain or sadness.

I may have lost my temper a few times but I never meant to hurt you. When I found out that we were pregnant I was so happy. I would have another child to love and care for like I done you.

Why did you keep me from loving her? She's my daughter just like you will soon be my wife. If you're thinking about leaving don't. You're my girl and if I can't have you no one can.

I threw the book across the room, I was crying uncontrollably, I could barley breathe threw my sobs. How could that sick bastard think he loved me or my daughter? How could he consider raping and molesting as showing love?

I heard doors shut from outside. I ran up to the window and saw it was my dad and Emily. He had some women with him. I ran into the bathroom locking the door behind me. I leaned against the door and slid down to the floor.

I couldn't let him or Emily see me like this.

Elliot's POV

I climbed out of the truck laughing at the joke Olivia made. Cragen ordered her to come home with me so She could watch Emily while I talked to Jen. I didn't want her to hear us especially if my suspensions were true.

Olivia got Emily out of the truck and we both walked into my apartment. I noticed I couldn't open the door all the way. When I looked down I saw a book. I picked it up and opened it. I read a few sentences from a random page.

Why did mom have to leave me to him? Why didn't she see what he was doing right under her nose? She never noticed that her boy friend raped me.

"Liv, can you take Emily to play ground to play?"

I already had tears falling down my face. I could tell by the look in her eyes she knew why.

"Sure, Come on sweetie"

Olivia took Emily across the street to the play ground. I searched through the house looking for Jen. When I went to check the bathroom the door was locked. I knocked on it lightly.

"Jen open the door sweetie"

"Leave me alone just please leave me alone."

Her voice trailed off. I could tell she was crying which brought more tears to my eyes.

"Sweetie please open the door."

"No"

"Jen open the door please?"

I heard the door unlock. I opened the door and saw her sitting on the floor leaning up against the cabinets. Her face was covered in tears. I rushed to her side. She wrapped her arms around me as tight as she could. I hugged her back.

"I'm so sorry daddy I…I tried to stop him but I couldn't "

"Shhh…..It wasn't you fault."

She jerked out of my arms,

"Where's Emily?"

"My partner took her to the play ground!"

She stood up and walked into the living room. I got up and followed her. She grabbed her car keys off the top of the entertainment center.

"Watch her for me!"

She said as she walked out the door.

"Jen!"

"Dad I just need to think ok I'll be back in a little while!" She ran out to her car and took off before I had a chance to stop or follow her.

Olivia came running across the road with Emily in her arms. Her eyes were filled with worry. I made the tears stop for Emily's sake. I had a bad feeling, I knew something was going to happen to her but I couldn't show my fear, sadness or pain in front of her.

"Grandpa Where'd mommy go?"

"She had to go to the store to get something right fast!" We all three walked inside.

An hour passed and there was still no sign of her. I couldn't wait any longer I had to go find her.

Jennifer's POV

I ran out the front door and got in my car. I started it and pulled off before my dad could stop me. I fastened my seat belt as I pulled out of his apartment complex. I could barley see where I was going threw all the tears, but I couldn't stop.

I had to get away from everyone I couldn't let them see how weak I was. I also needed to think and get my self calmed down. How in the fuck does he know I was raped? I slammed my hands against the steering wheel.

Every ounce of anger, sadness, pain, and fear that I felt when he raped me came flooding back which made me drive faster than I already was. I had no idea where I was and I didn't care for that matter.

I just needed to get away from everything. Why do I always lose control like this? Why can't I be strong? I heard screeching tires. My car flipped several times before stopping on its roof. I felt my warm blood dripping of my head and my whole body ached. Then alls I could see was black.