Thanks for all the reviews. I really appreciate it. Well i tried to respond to one who ask what R/S shrine had the episodes but it didn't let me email you. I tried to make the chapter as long as I could so I Hope you all like and also sorry for it being rush. I'll slow it down. I dont know if this one is rush but the next one is going to be on normal pace. (sp) WElls before I go on rambling here is the next chapter.
Chapter 10
"Away From The Pain"
I finally reached the car and I knew everyone would be in a bad mood because I made him or her wait really long. I sighed and knocked on the window of the driver's seat where Robin most likely would be sitting. Cyborg had those windows that you couldn't see through but the people inside can so, I really didn't know who was in that seat but most likely it would be Robin. The window slid down and revealed Robin, as I expected, with an angry look that would scare off Cinderblock but I ignored his look. I could see Kelsey on the passenger's seat trying to talk to Raven but Raven wasn't paying any attention to her since she was deep in her thoughts.
"Are you going to get on?" He asked me angrily. I always knew he wasn't the most patient person but the old me still liked him. I thought about it for a moment. I didn't want to deal with him on our way home so I replied with a 'no' and turned around to go back home by walking. I was already on the pavement walking towards Hudson Avenue and I could hear Robin asking me 'why' but I ignored him and kept on walking. The car drove off and I smiled at the fact that I was alone. People would occasionally stare at me and whisper to each other 'Why is she out so late?' but I ignore them all. It's not like you don't see a teenager walking in the streets in the dark. I just kept walking towards the Tower. It was cold a night and I shivered since I had a skirt. This is one of the times I wish I wore a pair of jeans. I hugged myself trying to make myself warm so I won't freeze to death. After a couple of minutes, my mind wondered off to what happened since I had arrived at Jump City.
Cyborg and the other titans would have never been hurt if it weren't for me. Beast Boy would have never left. Raven and Beast Boy would have never had that argument.
"Hell, Slade would have been better without me." I said aloud. Fortunately, no one was on the street I was on.
'Weird.'
I looked around and I didn't find anybody on streets, which was unusual on Jump City, especially around this time of the year. It was near December and usually Jump City is full of people staying for a parade that they do each year.
"How is that?" An all too familiar voice asked.
"Slade." I mumbled bitterly.
He did nothing to but cause trouble since I arrived and it was getting on my nerves. I quickly looked around trying to find him but what caught my eye was the dark ally nearby. "How am I better off without you?" He asked again trying to lure me into the dark ally. I must have been really stupid because I actually walked towards the dark alley. I slowly walked in trying to find him but it was no use not even lighting a starbolt helped. "I would have never found a very good apprentice." He said once again. Three feet from were I was Slade appeared looking evil as ever. He had the same outfit that he had but in his forehead, he had the symbol he 'used' when he was working for Trigon. 'I guess he fell in love with the symbol.'
"For the last time, I am not your apprentice!" I shouted angrily at him but he just gave me an evil laugh. The laughter only frustrated me. It was in a way making fun of you. "What did you do with Terra?" I asked trying not to get mad with the maniac. I really didn't want a major repeat of last time so I tried to keep my 'cool' as people from earth say it. Slade didn't respond for a while which let my wonder off unintentionally. I just started thinking that I wasn't cold anymore. I brushed my thoughts away since I really was getting off subject.
Slade just shook his head in disappointment seeing that I was letting my mind wonder. "I did nothing. She betrayed you all on her own will." He stated as if it was the truth. He was good and making you believe whatever he said was true. I knew it was all a lie though. To be honest I really don't think Terra betrayed us. Even though she isn't here and wasn't attacked I still don't think she was the bad guy. Silly, huh? "Of all the people I thought you would know… even Robin should have known."
I rolled my eyes as he mentioned Robin's name. "Terra isn't evil." I stated ignoring all the memories of Robin obsessing over Slade. For some reason he liked comparing me with him. We are different and I know that but he has to compare me with him all the time. 'He really didn't get over losing his first apprentice.'
"You're sounding like the green fool." He said teasingly. I glared at him and was about to attack him at any moment. I didn't like the fact that he made fun of Beast Boy and I wanted to shoot him with a starbolt so bad but I knew that was what he wanted me to do.
"Shut. Up." I tried not to let all the hatred I was feeling consume me. So far, I was doing a good job at it. I let out a breath that I didn't even know I was holding. "Terra isn't evil." I repeated once again. I don't know whom I was trying to convince right now. What Slade had said earlier and then what Beast Boy had told me were getting to me.
"What makes you think that?" He questioned. I hated that one thing about him. He would always make a game of something and right now, I was loosing. I brushed the feeling from early off and I convinced myself that Terra wasn't evil. Well that's what I was hoping.
"I just know. Where is she?" I thought I was beginning to sound like a broken record that keeps repeating the same stuff repeatedly but I shook the thought away.
Slade just glared at me, which made me a bit nervous. "I honestly think you have this all wrong." I know I wasn't wrong at all and I'm sure he knows that. "Obviously you're not easy to fool." He told me in a disappointed voice but sarcasm could be detected. That statement made me proud but that only brings me to the same question…
"Where is Terra?" I asked since he sort off confused me. "Is she evil or not?" I said loudly. He said 'I wasn't easy to fool' meaning that Terra wasn't evil but was he just being sarcastic. I let out an aggravated sigh. Another thing I hate about him is his mind tricks.
"I'm guessing you haven't had any good visions lately." Slade said changing the subject. I glared at him. He of course would have known since he was the one who cause them. "So far every vision that you ever had happened so, what makes you so sure that your dear Robin would not die?"
"I'll make sure no one gets hurt and he is not my Robin." I told him angrily. I am not going to let the other visions happened. So far, I haven't done a good job at it.
"Of course he is Kelsey's." He said teasingly. I closed my eyes and wished this were all a dream…no a nightmare but it didn't work. "'I'll make sure that no one gets hurt is what every super hero, like your self, says and the thing is no one succeeds at it." Slade truthfully told me. I opened my eyes to see Slade only two feet away from me and stared at the concrete as if finding sudden interest in it. "You would not do as much harm if you join me. I will actually take pity on them if you join me but if you don't …well they will have the same fate as Robin did on your vision." I wouldn't fall for it. Not now, not ever.
"I won't do it." I told him as I looked up at him. Even if he has the mask, you could tell he was mad. His anger gave you an insecure feeling. Like he could just reach out and snap your neck at any moment. "I won't fall for your game. My friends care for me to much for me to join you."
"What great friends you have." Slade said sarcastically all of a sudden. I gave him a confuse look.
"What are you talking about?"
"They lied to you so much and you don't even notice." He told me straight forward. I don't remember any of them lying to me and he knew that. "While you where gone who was there to cheer them up? Beast Boy, Cyborg, Raven, and Robin of course are not that type of people so all that leaves is…"
"Kelsey." I finished for him. I could say it was all lie but I would only be lying to myself. Raven, Robin, and Cyborg aren't the cheering type and Beast Boy would try but the other team would never take him seriously.
"I have to admit. The Titans did fight better with her and you out of the picture. They were tougher than I expected on my first encounter with them." He said in teasing way.
"Stop." I said. He's trying to make me lose control but I won't let him.
"I don't think you ever read magazines when you left but if you did you would have found out that Robin said and I quote 'The team has never been better' and don't think I'm making this up." He continued ignoring me.
"I know your not lying." I didn't read the magazine but he said it on the news and I happened to be watching it. "I-I…just stop please." Slade laughed.
"Let us see what will happen because of your careless mistake of not accepting my offer." Slade started fading away but I know he would not stop offering me the apprentice thing. Obviously, his time was up. "Next time." Those were his last words before he completely faded away. I let out an aggravated sigh. I stared at the sky and saw dark gray clouds were starting to form. I was glad about the whole time thing.
If it weren't for the Titans he would be leaving when he pleased. Well, it all started when Slade died once again because the Titans defeated him by using some new battle plan. Robin, Kelsey, Raven, Cyborg, and Beast Boy celebrated the following day but two days later, Slade cheated death once again. No one knows how but he only could be on his lair and if he went outside, he had only a specific time. I knew all this from Batman. I turned my attention away from the sky and started walking out of the dark alley. People were walking down the streets as if they were always there. I hit my forehead softly as I realized something.
"I forgot that he somehow could do that." I mumbled angrily to myself. I learned that he could do that when I was at Gotham just walking down the street. Only difference was back then I was on a break of the super hero thing. Tiny water drops fell from the sky and onto me. That only means one thing… it's going to rain. I was walking once again trying to ignore all the stares I was receiving. It must have been very late since people kept saying 'Why is she out so late?' and others were saying 'Isn't she the Teen Titan Starfire?'
That question had gotten to me. Was I a Teen Titan? I live with them all and went to battles with them but in a way I don't feel like I was on the team. I know one of the Titans would say 'You're apart of the team' and other stuff like that so I guess I was on the team but what if…
"I already have enough problems." I mumbled to myself.
It was cold again so this time I rubbed my hands together for warmth and ignored all the thoughts I had for now. Another couple of minutes passed and I was halfway to the Titans Tower. I would of have made it by now but with the whole Slade situation I was held back.
On the street, I was currently one no one was there. At first, I thought it was Slade again but it was raining and I doubt anyone would be outside in the rain. People who look outside their window must have really think I was crazy since I'm walking in the rain with no umbrella. I was walking for a while but I stopped for some unknown reason. I looked around and saw there was a clothing store in my left and on my right, there was a place where many teenagers hang out called 'Echo'. I realized that I was finally alone and all I felt was sadness, anger, and guilt.
"Why should I be happy?" I asked myself as it continuously rain. I leaned down on the clothing stores wall, closed my eyes, and turned my head up so I could be facing the sky without getting water into my eyes.
"Really, why should I be nothing and I mean nothing but trouble came along with me." I said as I opened my eyes and faced straight ahead. A flash of thunder and lightning appeared and I wasn't scared but it only made me even more upset. It's raining, there is thunder and lightning, and I was on the streets halfway home.
"Why?" I asked sadly to no particular person as I fell to my knees and closed my eyes. The horrible visions and memories came back to me and I couldn't brush them off like I would always do. Tears started forming and I eventually couldn't hold them back so I cried. 'Talk about weak.' I sadly thought as I cried for all my troubles. Not only about Slade and Robin but also about my past. Nobody was on the streets…nobody that I was aware off but even if there were they wouldn't do anything.
"I don't know maybe because everyone deserves to be happy once in a while." A voice said as he held out his hand so he could help me stand up. I took his hand and stood up, still crying for all my troubles. He wrapped an arm around me and pulls me close. I didn't need to look up to know who it was. Mark. I rest my head in his chest still crying. "Its okay Kor," He reassured me, "it will be alright. Just let it all out."
"Why?" I said between sobs.
Oh, why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me.
"I'm not good enough." I said sadly. "Not for him…not for them."
"You are good enough. In matter of fact you're too good for anyone." He tried to reassure me. I ignored him.
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing...
The word 'worthless' came to my mind. They all knew it and it was time for me to know that, for once I feel worthless. I was never needed…just a burden to them...him.
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I felt alone. Mark was here but I felt alone inside. I never felt this lonely ever since my parents and my brother past away. I didn't want to relive the feeling but it seems I couldn't stop myself. 'Why did they have to leave me?' I thought to myself.
I beg for just one more tomorrow!
Where you'd hold me down, fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.
I wish everything was back how it just to be. When I didn't have a care on the world. When I was truly happy. When Beast Boy was trying to make Raven laugh, Cyborg trying to convince Beast Boy eating meat, and when Robin and I where on the roof talking about anything. When I used to hope that, he would one day love me back.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You don't.
"Mark, why did I have to come back?" I said between sobs. He continued holding me and the rain was getting worse but we still stood in the sidewalk. "Why did I have to love Robin? Why do I have to be so weak?" He held on tighter as soon I said the last part.
"You're not weak." He told me softly trying to convince me but I didn't believe him.
"Starfire!" A male voice called out. I was to upset to respond. Beast Boy and Robin where standing around us. The all gave me a sympathetic look. They all somehow found me but I still didn't stop crying.
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light,
bleached and blinded by these nights.
Slade was making sense. I didn't have anything to lose. The team will be better without me. I could see Beast Boy coming closer but Mark stopped him.
"Let her let it all out." Beast Boy nodded and stood back.
I don't know what's so good in good and what is so bad in evil. I am confused on what I believed in.
Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn
by you, visions of you, then you're gone.
The visions are breaking me. I cannot handle what I see. I can't handle loosing Robin. I want them to stop. I really do.
The shock bleeds the red from my face,
when I hear someone's taken my place.
I remembered when Kelsey came. She was nice to him…all of them. They didn't have to waste their time to explain things to her. Kelsey was the girl they needed not me and they all made that clear.
"I can't take this." I softly said.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you...
I love Robin so much but he loves another. I couldn't face it and I had to runaway. What made me so sure I could face it now? "Love can be so cruel." I softly told Mark so only he could hear.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You don't.
I can't handle my friends being in danger, I can't handle that my first love is in love with another, and I can't even save my friends let alone others. This was breaking me from the inside. I never cried when I left Jump City but when I came back every single bad memory came to me but I still didn't cry. Yeah I cried like two times and another time I was on the verge of crying but it was because of Robin. This time it wasn't about him…well partially. This time it was about everything and I mean everything that made me want to cry but I wouldn't let myself. My parents and brother are gone and the only living family I have hates me. A couple of minutes had passed and I finally stopped crying. It was still raining, thunder and lightning could still be heard, and Mark was still comforting me while everyone else stood around me.
"Starfire?" Beast Boy asked softly. Mark let go of me at this time. "Are you okay?" I nodded and smiled. "Cool." He said in a childish way.
"Let's go back home." Robin said after awhile. Kelsey, who appeared out of nowhere with Raven, nodded and walked towards the car. I haven't noticed it was park there before. Raven followed and Robin stood behind. "Are you all coming?" He asked.
"Um…I'll go by walking." Beast Boy lied. He knew he wasn't coming back. Robin turned his attention to me.
"I'll go with Beast Boy." Robin nodded and walked towards the car.
"I'll walk you home." Mark offered and I gladly accepted. "You want to come?" He asked Beast Boy.
"Nah, I'm not going back over there. I should already be gone."
"I'm not going inside either so it doesn't matter. Just come along so all of us can talk." Mark offered again. Beast Boy thought about it for a moment.
"Why not?" Beast Boy ran to my left side and turned his attention to Mark. "So, what's your name?" He asked him.
"Mark." He answered as we started walking towards the tower. I was getting cold and Mark gave me the black jacket he was wearing. I denied but he told me he didn't mind.
"After all a little rain can't stop a great person like me." The three of us laughed at what he said. I enjoyed laughing so much. It makes all the bad stuff go away not just for me but also for everyone one else too. That must be why Beast Boy would always try to make the Titans laugh. When Mark made me laugh it, felt like I haven't laughed for a while. Silence settled between us. I was thinking about my troubles and I don't know about Mark and Beast Boy. Here I was a lost little girl, clutching my jacket close to my body to keep from shivering. 'No more crying.' I mentally told myself. 'Be strong.'
"What was wrong Kori?" Mark asked me in a caring voice breaking the silence as well. He really doesn't like when it's quite. When I went to school, he would never go to the library unless he really had to. He just couldn't stand the silence.
"I don't want to bore you all with my troubles." I honestly told them. Seriously, who would want to hear my problems? There I go again…putting myself down.
Mark shook his head. "Since when do you bore me?" He asked truthfully. I couldn't help but smiled at him as I came to realize what he said was true. Every time I had a story to tell, he would always listen and I mean really listen.
"I'm always up for a story." Beast Boy told me as we turned a corner. Well I told them everything since I arrived at Jump City and it felt good telling someone your troubles. I couldn't even tell Jake since he really didn't understand this kind of stuff. Not like Mark, he was a bit of a hero himself and understood some stuff and of course Beast Boy was a hero. After I told him, they both gave me a sympathetic look.
"It'll be alright." Mark reassured me.
"Yeah what he said." Beast Boy said. "Damn. The rain isn't getting any lighter." Mark and I nodded.
"I love the rain." I told them. Beast Boy arched a brow while Mark shrugged.
"What do you love so much about it?" Beast Boy asked as we passed Sinead Park.
I didn't know what to say. Robin taught me about it. When I came over here and it started raining I actually thought, the sky was crying. Therefore, I said the first thing that came up to my mind. "I don't know. It doesn't rain in my planet so that must be why." It was true but not the whole true.
"That explains it." Mark said. Beast Boy nodded in agreement.
"Aren't you supposed to be in a hotel room or something?" I asked Beast Boy. Beast Boy immediately turned his attention to me and away from his thoughts.
"Yeah I got a room but not a hotel room. An apartment. Lucky for me since there's usually a lot of people around this time." Beast Boy said. Mark and I both nodded in agreement.
"Well I went to get some food not food like the food from the hospital. On my way I saw the T-Car and I tried to hide from it but Robin stopped car obviously he saw me. Robin got off and asked me 'if I seen you' and I told him 'about an hour ago'. Then I asked 'why' and he told me that Raven sensed something was wrong with you. I nodded and turned into a dog and tried to find you while Raven tracked you down. It was a bit hard for both of us because for me it was raining and for Raven you were somehow blocking her."
"Oh. Sorry for making you not get some food and for the other stuff." I told him feeling guilty.
"No problem. I got to meet some new guy friend of yours so it isn't a big loss." Beast Boy told me. I smiled.
"So, I know that it isn't going to be easy hiding from the Titans." Mark told Beast Boy as he thought about him leaving the team.
"Yeah, but how do you know?" He asked confused on how a normal person would know.
"Just saying since you for sure aren't going to be walking around with the name Beast Boy and being green and all." Mark said quickly. Beast Boy eyed him and I was worried that he would get suspicious and find out he was Red X.
"Ok." Beast Boy said after a while. "Well I was thinking of using my real name and using some kind of thing for my skin."
"Oh and what is your real name?" I asked him emphasizing the words is. Beast Boy didn't respond for a while.
"Come on it can't be bad." Mark told him. "Promise I won't laugh. I don't know about Kori b—" I playfully punched him. "Ok she won't laugh either." He said as he rubbed the spot that I hit as if actually hurt.
"Ok but you can't tell anyone from the team, Starfire." He told me as if I was going to tell the whole world. I nodded in response.
"Well it's Garfield Mark Logan." He told us waiting for one of us to laugh.
"Cool." Mark and I said in unison. Not seeing anything funny about it.
"Never thought of my name as 'cool'." He honestly told us. After that moment both Beast Boy and Mark started talking about something that guys talk about and I was deep in my thoughts.
"I'm thinking of quitting the team." I suddenly said aloud breaking the conversation they were having. I didn't mean it to say it aloud…it was suppose to stay as a thought. Both Beast Boy and Mark turned their attention to me.
"Star, you can't." Beast Boy told me as we kept walking towards the tower.
"I don't see why not. Beast Boy I can't be over there any longer." I said defending my idea of quitting the team.
"Cu-Kori, you have to be strong." Mark told me. He almost said 'cutie' but he knew that Beast Boy was already suspicious enough.
"It's not because of him. It's because I don't feel like its home anymore." I told them. I am being strong it's just that I can't stand living in that house. "To me it turned into something that is holding me back a…prison." Mark and Beast Boy were both silent for a moment.
"Well I think you should stay there for a while longer but if you don't then…" Mark didn't know what to say after that.
"You can crash in my place." Beast Boy said seeing that Mark couldn't think of anything. Starfire smiled.
"Fine but what do you mean 'crash in your place?'" I asked not knowing what he meant. I don't remember Speedy teaching me that. Either that or I have forgotten. Beast Boy laughed. Mark explained it to me. After that, all of us started talking and playing around. After a while, Mark pointed straight ahead. The tower.
"We're here." To be honest I think time passed quickly. From all the time, I was on Earth people had told me time passes quickly when you're having fun and apparently I was having fun. It was still raining and we were all wet. Mark's black hair was normally spiky, similar to Robins, but the rain flattened it out. His icy blue eyes were full of happiness and he was smiling at the fact that he helped a friend. Beast Boy's green unruly hair was wet of course and his green eyes reflected happiness.
"Time passes quickly when you're having fun." Beast Boy said as we walked to the island. The bridge still looked like it would of fall any moment and the rain and wind weren't helping but we didn't mind. I would fly, since it wasn't really high, Beast Boy would turn into an animal and fly, and Mark was smart and he would always think of something. When we finally arrived to the other side, we were standing in front of the giant metal doors. Mark stood in front of me making sure I was all right. After he saw I didn't showed no sign of unhappiness he stopped and gave me on his all to famous smiles. Beast Boy stood in my left watching us both but far enough so the security cameras wouldn't see him.
I remembered about his jacket and was about to take it off. "Keep it and don't worry I actually bought it." He told me. I never thought about that but it was nice to know he didn't steal it. That was the thing with him. Mark, or Red X, was a bad person sometimes but other times he is a Hero. I told him that 'I didn't need it' but he still told me to keep it. Beast Boy was clueless on what he meant by that.
"Well you have to go to your friends and I have to head to my apartment." Mark announced after a couple of minutes of silence. I nodded.
"Yeah me too I have to go back to the apartment." Beast Boy said.
"Thanks." I told them.
"No problem." They said in unison.
"I didn't know you missed so me much." Mark said teasingly. Beast Boy and I laughed at what he said. "I made you all laugh…again" He said proudly as if he was going to win a medal.
"Well come one we should leave since their probably coming any moment." Beast Boy told Mark hastily afraid that someone will open the door.
"Well I'll see you around." Mark said. "I'll call you and you." He said meaning Beast Boy and me. During their conversation, they exchanged phone numbers and that means they quickly became friends.
"Bye, Star." Beast Boy said.
"Bye." I said as they walked out and headed towards their homes I noticed it wasn't raining that hard anymore but I still didn't want them to walk on the rain.
As if Mark read my mind Mark said, "Don't worry I won't get wetter than I already am and I know Beast Boy would turn into some animal." Beast Boy nodded meaning what he said was true. I smiled and then I turned around and opened the door. Robin was sitting on the couch, Raven was making some herbal tea, and Kelsey was watching TV.
"Hey, Star." Robin greeted.
"Hey." I said happily. I couldn't help it…I felt happy. I really wasn't going to let anyone ruin this since I rarely been happy lately. I stood in the living room where Kelsey was eyeing me. At first, I didn't know what she was staring at but then I remembered that I was wet.
"Uh… you should change." Kelsey told me as she finished observing me. "You could catch a cold or something." I smiled at the fact she wasn't being a total snob like she has been to me. "I don't want to catch anything." To be honest that wasn't really what I suspected. I guess I was sucker for people who act nice to me. I rolled my eyes and headed towards my room where I can change from the wet clothes.
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Starfire finished changing, placed the wet clothes in the dryer, and walked towards the living room. As soon as she entered, Kelsey eyed her now satisfied that she had changed her clothes. Robin and Raven were on different ends of the couch giving each other death glares. 'I guess they had an argument.' Starfire thought as she took a seat on the couch that was on the farthest left so she would not be sitting near anyone. Kelsey eyed Robin and Raven and wondered what was going on as well. A couple of minutes ago they left the living room to talk about something but when they came back, they looked like they were going to strangle each other at any given moment. Raven finally stopped giving Robin death glares and walked over to her bookshelf to find a good book to read. Robin, who was satisfied that she had giving up, headed towards the training room. Kelsey decided to follow wondering if he would tell her what was wrong.
"What just happened?" Starfire asked Raven as soon as Robin and Kelsey left the room. Raven took a seat on the same spot as before and opened the book to the page where she left off the last time she was reading. She stared at the page acting as if she was reading it when in reality all sorts of thoughts were going through her head.
"Nothing." She responded as she tried to concentrate on her book. Starfire shrugged and grabbed the remote from a table nearby the couch and turned on the television knowing that Raven would not tell her unless she was willing too.
'Nothing…' Raven repeated in her mind. She started thinking about the argument she had with Robin. 'Am I cold hearted?' She questioned herself. 'Raven the witch, the freak…Am I cold hearted?'
"You're not." Starfire answered as she was seeing what was on TV right now on the Channel Guide. "You're not a witch and/or a freak." Raven had a shock expression on her face but quickly replaced it with her usual emotionless face.
"H-how?" She stuttered. Starfire was never able to read minds but she was thinking of the old Starfire. Starfire, or Kori, was different now…she has after all changed in many ways.
"I can read minds now. Let's just leave it at that." Starfire said as she changed the channel. A documentary was playing and it seemed interesting to her. Raven wanted to ask 'how?' but she told her not to go in the subject. 'Did it bring up bad memories?' Raven thought as she stared at her page. She quickly turned around to see Starfire watching the TV watching for any signs of Starfire reading her mind. None showed. Clearly, she still didn't know how to control it or she was good at hiding her emotions when she needs to.
Five minutes passed.
Something was bothering Raven. As if something was missing…or someone. Raven's mind started to wonder to the argument that she had with Beast Boy. "Where's Beast Boy?" She asked Starfire as Starfire watched a documentary. 'The old Star is still in her.' Raven thought as she waited for the girl to answer. It took a while for her to answer because either she was really into the documentary or she was hesitating.
Starfire turned her head so she could see Raven. "He left." Starfire said uneasily. She waited for Raven to give a sign of sadness or anything but, she showed nothing. Raven had the same emotionless face.
"Oh." Was all Raven could say in return. Starfire still didn't return to her documentary.
"Raven, it's not just an 'oh' when the person you love left." Starfire told her as she still waited for her to show a sign of any emotion. Raven ignored what she said and turned her attention back to her book. Starfire let out an aggravated sigh and tried to watch her show again but couldn't. After a while, she took a deep breath and tried to concentrate.
"Was it because of me?" Raven randomly said as she flipped a page of her book. Starfire immediately turned her attention to her and shook her head. "Don't lie."
"Raven, he did not leave because of you." Starfire told her. "He had to deal with his problems and knew he could not deal with them in here." Raven rolled her eyes at what she said.
"Don't lie." She repeated again a bit irritated.
"I'm not lying Raven. He didn't leave because of you." Starfire told her again trying to convince her. Raven shook her head in disbelief but let it go. 'Please be okay.' She mentally said as she flipped the page.
"Why did you and Beast Boy have that argument earlier?" Starfire asked.
"I know sooner or later you were going to ask that." Raven told her before she was about to explain. Starfire smiled.
"I care for my friends. So, why should I not ask?"
"I guess another girl talk." Raven told her. "In return you tell me who that guy was." She said firmly. Starfire nodded and motioned for her to tell her.
"Well I suppose Beast Boy told you what happened." Raven looked over at Starfire. Starfire nodded. "Well the fight that I had between Terra started when…
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"Raven!" A voice called out as I was about to go inside my room. I turned around to find Terra standing. Her blonde hair was wet; she had a plain yellow t-shirt with blue jeans. She obviously ran because she was out of breath.
"What do you want?" I asked monotonously. After Terra's breathing return to normal she turned her attention to the floor as if finding sudden interest in it.
"I need to talk to you." Terra told me straight forward. I was shocked to hear Terra actually needing to talk to me. Me out of all people she needed talk to me but the question was, what about?
"About?" I asked. If Terra wanted to talk, it would not involve any boy band, make up, or anything to girlish for my liking.
"About um…B-Beast B-Boy." She stuttered feeling a bit uncomfortable. She looked up trying to see what expression I had but like always, I didn't show my current expression. I didn't know if I should or not. Was she going to start saying for me to back off? I doubt it. If she was she would of said it by now and not be nervous. In addition, she wasn't that kind off person.
"Fine," I told her, "but not in my room. In the training room." Terra nodded and smiled. Terra and I walked towards the training room and saw Cyborg trying to hide Beast Boy's Tofu. I thought because he didn't want to eat it which I know it is but it can't only be that. Terra and I stopped walking.
"What are you doing with Beast Boy's disgusting food?" I questioned Cyborg as he tried to hide the Tofu in cabinet that was located outside the hall near the entrance of the Training Room. Cyborg turned his attention to us and smiled.
"Well I'm trying to hide his Tofu so if he finds me I wouldn't have to eat it." He said proudly. I rolled my eyes while Terra gave him thumbs up.
"Awesome plan! But knowing Beast Boy he has more Tofu." She said truthfully. Cyborg nodded.
"Eh, maybe you're right but might as well try." Cyborg told her. Terra shrugged in response. "Well I gotta go before little grass stain finds me." Terra and I nodded and Cyborg ran off to who knows where. I couldn't help but remember when Terra said 'Knowing Beast Boy' and frowned a bit. It seems that she really knew him well and probably they were meant for each other. 'I don't know how Starfire thinks he likes me.' I thought as I walked inside the training room.
"Well talk." I said as she stood next to the window nearby. Terra stood near the window as well, and gulped.
"Um…well you know how I have been acting like a total bitch to you?" Terra said as she stared outside the window trying to avoid looking at me.
"I failed to notice." I said sarcastically. Terra frowned seeing that there was no way to repair the friendship between her and me. I sensed that from the girl. "Sorry for giving you the wrong idea. It's just well being sarcastic is me."
Terra smiled. "No problem. Well I want to apologize for being mean to you." Terra said more confident. I was shocked to hear those words coming from Terra. "I was being selfish, du-" Before she went on I interrupted her.
"Stopped right there." I said in a tone that didn't sound like me. "Want I'm saying I have to apologize too for the same thing." Terra gave me a confused look but she eventually smiled.
"So were cool?" Terra asked in a hopeful voice.
"Yeah." I responded. "Well now we can actually talk." I told her. Terra nodded not feeling comfortable talking to the girl. "I'm going to get something right now."
"Ok well I'll just be sitting here." Terra said as she sat in the bench having a better view of outside from the window. I wondered on what she was staring at but I brushed the feeling off. After I went to my room to do something, I returned and felt a cold breeze. The window was broken, tiny pieces were scattered around the floor. Terra was standing looking outside with her arms folded around her. I could see her reflection on the broken pieces of the window and I saw her give me a smile, but not a normal smile. It was an awkward smile. Not one that you get in a friendly greeting. The kind you get when darkness consumes you. It was heart felt, it was...evil.
"How stupid of you to actually believe me." She said in un-terra way. I knew it but something didn't seem right.
"Y-yo… it was all lies." I stuttered in disbelief. "Why do you keep doing this?" I angrily asked the girl. Terra laughed.
"It's fun to me and Slade." She responded. She was working with him again. I don't know why after she tried to stop him but I guess old habits are hard to quit and I knew for sure she was lying all this time. "Come on Raven. I've heard you worked for your father for a while. Didn't it feel good?"
"Terra shut up before I-I—" Her speech sputtered and failed.
"Hurt me?" Terra finished for her, laughing coldly. "You hurt me. That 's like you actually getting rid of your demonic side."
"You better shut up for your own good." I warned her.
"Stupid demon." Terra teased. I gritted my teeth and couldn't stand it anymore.
"Azerath Mentrion Zinthos." Terra was knocked out unconscious. I then saw Beast Boy come in…
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…well you know after that." Raven told Starfire and turned her attention to floor. She was thinking on how stupid she could be. 'I believe her. I'm so stupid!' Starfire started thinking if Terra was good or bad but her thoughts were interrupted at the sound of Kelsey's voice.
"So I see you had a girl talk?" Kelsey asked the girls as she took a seat on the middle of the couch. She apparently changed since she no longer had the disgusting orange uniform. Kelsey was wearing blue pajama jeans with a plain white tank top. Starfire quickly turned her head away from the girl. She remembered Beast Boy and Mark telling her to be strong. She sighed and turned her head so she could see Kelsey. 'Be Strong.' Repeated in her mind once again.
"Hey." Starfire said uneasily. Talking to her would still be trouble but Starfire could handle it…right? Kelsey smiled back.
"Finally you say something to me." She said a bit harshly. Kelsey turned her attention to Raven who was now reading her book. Starfire rolled her eyes at what Kelsey said. 'Maybe she didn't mean it to come out harsh.' Starfire sighed. "What happened Rae?" Kelsey asked Raven nicely.
"We were just talking about Terra." She responded in her usual tone. Starfire thought about what Slade said earlier.
'They lied to you so much and you don't even notice.'
Slade words were echoing through her head. 'Obviously they became friends.' Starfire thought as she saw Kelsey and Raven talking. She didn't mind but it just proves what Slade said was true. Raven lied about her being friends and…she even made Raven smiled! Starfire saw Raven, the one who practically never smiles, smiling at one of Kelsey's jokes. Starfire sighed and decided to go to her room.
"I'll be going to my room so I'll talk to you both later." Starfire announced as she stood up and left. Kelsey and Raven both said bye and watched her go.
"What's wrong with her?" Kelsey said in a caring voice.
"She's been going through some stuff right now." Raven told the girl as she turned her attention back to the book. Kelsey stared the spot where Starfire was sitting.
"What kinda stuff?" Kelsey asked Raven.
"Emotional stuff and other things that I don't even know." Raven told her as she flipped a page from her book. Kelsey responded with an 'oh'. 'I guess she's not as perfect as I thought.' Kelsey grabbed the remote of the TV and turned it on.
"Couldn't you just read her mind?" Kelsey asked Raven as she changed the television to 'Celebrities Fashion Mistakes'. Raven didn't turn her attention away from the book she was reading.
"First of all, that's invading privacy." She stated. "Second, somehow she can block me." Kelsey stared at the TV but she was not actually watching her show. 'So I'm not the only one being blocked off.' A while later Robin came in the room and took a seat next to Kelsey.
"So, what are you doing?" Robin asked his girlfriend obviously still mad at Raven. Kelsey laid her head on his should and Robin put an arm around her.
"Watching TV." Kelsey answered. Raven peered over her book to see them and rolled her eyes. 'Another day with Robin and Kelsey snuggling.'
"I'm going to go to sleep since it's late." Raven announced as she walked over to put her book away and then walked towards her room.
"Hunny, why don't you tell me what you both argue about?" Kelsey asked after a while of watching her show. She heard no response. Kelsey turned around to see Robin staring at the TV but not actually watching it. "Robie.." She waved her hand in front of him trying to snap him out of his thoughts. "ROBIN!" He jumped a little since she startled him.
"Sorry. What did you ask?" He asked her. She sighed in response.
"Oh...nothing." She told him in response.
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Raven quickly ran up to her room and made sure her door was closed. She sat on the floor in the meditating position of hers. She put her blue hood up, closed her violet eyes, and started chanting. "Azerath Mentrion Zinthos." She had to stop feeling this emotions or all hell will break loose.
A while later she stopped meditating unable to get rid of her current thoughts.
"Beast Boy…" She softly said. Raven stood up and lay down her bed. "I'm sorry…for everything." She turned around her bed and saw the moon through her giant glass windows. A vase from her nightstand exploded and she didn't even flinch. She was staring blankly at nothing and was thinking about everything. Another object exploded and Raven was snapped out of her thoughts. She turned around to see a picture that the titans had taken. Small pieces of glass were scatter around and the picture was on the floor. She reached down avoiding being cut by the small pieces of glass and turned around so the moonlight could give her a clearer view. Raven saw the original titans smiling, having no care of the world all of them were happy…including her. Starfire was standing next to Robin with a cheerful smile and arm around him, Robin was standing smiling and trying to hide the fact that he is blushing, Cyborg was laughing obviously he saw Robin blushing, and Raven was on Cyborg's left side smiling with Beast Boy's arm around her and with his other hand he had the peace signed. She traced her fingertips over all the titans and one tear fell down her pale complexion. Nothing happened in response.
"We've changed so much in a short time." She whispered.
The titans are different now. Starfire didn't believe in things and wasn't happy most of the time. She is trying to move on from Robin. Robin clearly moved on to Kelsey and is dealing with the trouble that Slade is doing. Cyborg isn't like he use to be. No more, 'booyas' or nothing like that he just wants to go get things over with. Beast Boy was a bit like Starfire. He didn't believe in things and now he isn't happy like he use to.
"I wish things were back on how they use to be." Raven said as she stared at the picture. Her emotions were going crazy but she wouldn't loose control. She laid the picture on her nightstand and tried to go to sleep.
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A small square room with white walls and a bed located in the middle of the room laid a tall black teenager. His eyes opened and scanned the room. There was a window nearby, a wooden table, a wooden drawer, and two doors. One door was the exit out of this room and the other was a restroom. Wires were attached to him and it freaked him out a bit. Clearly, he was in a hospital. He tried to remember what had happened but it only made his head hurt so he stopped and decided to try again later. He looked outside the window and saw it was dark outside.
"What the hell happened?" He asked himself.
The door immediately opened to reveal a Caucasian woman wearing the usual nurse uniforms holding a pair of red roses with a card in the middle. The name 'Jane Moore' was written on her uniform. She had bright red hair that was in a ponytail and looked to be in her mid thirties.
"I see you're awake." The woman said cheerfully as she laid the roses next to him. Her hazel eyes stared at his brown eyes. "I see you got your self an admirer." The boy, confused at what she meant, grabbed the card from the roses. A note with neatly cursive handwriting was on the card.
I've heard what happened to you. I wish I could help but there's been a lot of trouble in Steel City lately. Get well soon, Sparky.
Sincerely,
Bethany Jones
'Bee.' He thought happily. She would always worry about him when he gets hurt and that goes for him as well. They would always try to visit each other on the weekends but lately they couldn't. Too much trouble has been going in both cities.
"Did you read the card?" He asked the woman as he came back to reality. The woman violently shook her head, which caused her bright red hair to mess up from the ponytail she had it.
"Nah, the red roses is one of the kinds of flowers people send to loved ones." She responded. The boy nodded understanding what she meant. She noticed that he had a sad expression and she didn't like seeing young kids liker her own children sad. Yet she could tell that confusion is what caused it. She learned this from all the times her children do this. "You look a bit confused." She stated.
"I kinda am." He told her truthfully in a sad tone. The nurse walked over so she could be standing next to him.
"Darling, what seems to be the problem?" She asked in a motherly way. Cyborg sighed. He missed his mom if only he had a chance to see her right now but he knows she is up there with his dad as well watching over him. Proud of him.
"I can't remember what happened."
"Don't worry child. You'll soon remember but for now you should just rest." She told him. He nodded and laid back down his bed. "One of your friends are for sure to come the morning. Some boy kept asking about you and two other of your friend's status about every five minutes." He smiled as he thought about the Titans.
"Goodnight, Victor." She said as she opened the door and walked away towards other patients. He stared blankly at the ceiling trying to remember what happened to him. Cyborg turned around and saw that there was a card on the nightstand next to his bed. He reached over to grab it. He opened it and read what it said.
Dude, get better soon so I can kick your butt on video games. You just can't admit I'm the master and all the other times it was pure luck. Well when you do get better, our game day would have to wait till another time cuz I left the Titans to clear up my head. You know… about what happened lately. It isn't cuz of Terra or anything like that it's about other things that had been bugging me lately. Well of to my new home and life. I'm gonna lay of the whole super hero thing for a while. So, I'll see you around.
Your bud,
Beast Boy
Cyborg smiled. As soon as he read Terra's name again it all started coming back to him. The battle they had…everything. Thanks to the Little Grass Stain, he didn't have to stay up all night wondering what happened. Slade was obviously involved in this since one of his robots was helping her defeat him. He let out an aggravated sigh and let his thoughts wonder on how the titans use to be. When they were happy.
"I miss those days." He said as he rested his head on his pillow and tried to go to sleep.
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A source of light lit up a large room and shined a seat near by, like a throne for a king. There sat a man with orange and black armor, and had a mask to match. He was staring at one of the many large screens showing a red head girl battling many different monsters other screens were showing five or six teenagers battling different monsters as well. An old man in a tuxedo was holding a tray with a glass of water walked towards his master.
"Master Slade, I assume you visited the girl again." The old man asked as Slade rejected the glass of water he had offered.
"Yes." Slade stated as he turned his attention to the screen where there were six titans, Beast Boy, Cyborg, Raven, Robin, Starfire, and Terra. "Wintergreen, bring our guest to me." Slade told his butler. Wintergreen nodded in response and walked away to fetch the guest. Slade turned his attention to a different screen showing the titans without Starfire but with Kelsey. "She is doing a good job." He said to himself.
"Let me go!" A female voice echoed through out the room. Slade turned his attention to the door and saw two robots holding a young blonde haired girl tightly so she would not escape. The blonde girl was struggling to get free but unfortunately, she didn't succeed. The robots dragged her to where there boss was located. "Let me go!" She screamed again as the two robots practically threw her in front of where Slade was sitting. Another source of light turned on so Slade could have a clearer view of the girl. The two robots each stood on her left and right side until Slade gave them orders. The girl was so badly injured that she couldn't stand up so the robot on her left side forced her to stand up by grabbing her left arm and violently lifted her up. She gritted her teeth and tried to ignore the strong pain she was feeling. The robot let go as soon as she stood up and looked at the man that she thought she got rid of for good.
Slade stood up from his seat and walked towards the girl. He stared at her two blue eyes that reflected pain, sadness, hatred and…fear. His favorite emotions, all gather in one weak girl. How lucky for him. "So how is my guest doing so far?" He asked her teasingly. The girl wanted to punch him but she was too weak and knew that there was no way she could face him in this condition. She turned her attention to the floor. 'Please let this be a nightmare.' She pleaded. 'Please…' Here she was the girl who tried to get rid of him standing in front of him severely injured. "How are you doing?" he said firmly, as though he was about to lose it and hit her in the face. Terra was now helpless. Slade smiled at the fact. He was indeed satisfied that he hat gotten his revenge on the girl but it wasn't enough for him. Slade slammed his forearm into her face. She fell back to the ground feeling a lot of pain, anger, but she ignored it and glared at him.
"I'll escape one day." She growled. "I'll make sure the Titans know where you are." Slade laughed at her pathetic attempts of trying to frighten him. Terra let her gaze fall on Slade. 'What is he laughing about?'
"Poor child, they would not believe you." He said cruelly. Terra gave him a confused look in return. He then remembered he hasn't told her about her involvement in his plan. "Look at the screen in the far left corner." He ordered. Terra slowly turned around and saw herself attacking Beast Boy, Raven, and Cyborg. She tried to remember if that was from the past when she was Slade's apprentice but she didn't remember that memory. The girl gasped in terror.
"H-how?" She barely managed to say still in disbelieve seeing herself attacking her friends. 'How could that be?' She questioned herself. The screen showed her summoning rocks and all of them hit Beast Boy in the chest. Two other screens started showing her attacking Raven and Cyborg. She saw herself attacking Raven by throwing rock after rock after rock, Cyborg was beaten by throwing many rocks at him, and one of Slade's robots appeared and helped her defeat him. Tears starting running down her cheeks as she saw her friends fall unconscious. The screen showing Beast Boy unconscious replayed and the volume turned up so she could hear his words before she attacked him.
"Terra, what the fuck is wrong with you?"
His words were echoing through her head. She started crying. 'I have no friends now.'
"A plan that I have been working for sometime now." Slade told Terra as she tried to stop crying. She knows all to well that is weakness in his eyes. "Obviously it's working." Terra had stopped crying and looked up at Slade's mask, stood up ignoring all the pain she was feeling, and punched him. Even though she was really injured, she tried punching him as hard as she could. It seemed helpless; the hit seemed to hurt her more than it hurt him. Slade took a few steps back and starred at her angrily. It didn't affect him much since he was wearing a mask but it was a really good punch. The robots grabbed her while Slade walked towards her.
"Don't ever try that again next time… I won't be so forgiving." Slade said menacingly. "Don't worry you'll probably have a friend to join you." Terra wondered what innocent person he will trick to use as his tool, but still glared at him. Slade took two small steps back and kicked Terra in her stomach. She fell to the ground and groaned in pain. "Take her back to the cell." He ordered. The robots picked her up and took her back to the cell. She struggled, and grunted at her failed attempts to free herself. Slade took a seat in his throne like chair again.
"It all depends on her." Slade said as he watched a screen showing red head girl stopping two masked men from stealing chemicals.
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"Wow." A teen said as he observed himself. He observed his black unruly hair, tan skin, and green eyes. "I look…different." He sighed and lay on his bed. He just moved in but the manager, Sandy Jones, gave him a bed and sofa as thanks for saving him one time as a Titan. Beast Boy told the woman is she could keep it a secret between them and so she did so far. The only people who know he is Beast Boy are Starfire, Sandy, and Mark. Sandy luckily bleached his skin to tan so people would not recognize him. He wanted to keep the green hair but she said there aren't a lot of people with green hair and he could be easily spotted. After a moment of arguing, he finally gave in and decided to dye it black.
"I wonder how Raven would react if she knew." Beast Boy stared at his ceiling thinking about the titans. "Why should she care anyways?" He sighed and tried to go to sleep since it was late.
"Finally peace and quite." He suddenly heard someone knocking on his door. He let out an aggravated sigh, stood up, and ran towards the door to open it. When he opened the door, a small child holding a blue blanket with Mickey Mouse face all over it and was wearing matching Mickey Mouse pajamas, stared at him.
"Hi!" The small boy said excitedly. Beast Boy looked around to see if there was anyone outside besides the child.
"Um…hey." He said in response as the small boy went inside without his permission. Beast Boy closed the door and saw the boy looking around the apartment. "Why are you here?" Beast Boy asked.
"My mommy is coming to this place." He answered as he observed him. Beast Boy gave him a confuse look. "The owner of the apartments." He said seeing his confusion.
"Oh… you mean Sandy?" Beast Boy questioned making sure. The boy nodded and took a seat on the couch.
"You should really fix your place." The boy suggested seeing there was nothing he could do.
"I just moved in, you expect me to have it fully decorated?" He questioned the small child. The small child smiled sheepishly. Someone started knocking on the door constantly.
"Ron! Are you there?" A voice called out. Beast Boy opened the door obviously knowing who it is. Sandy had a worried expression on her face.
"Hi Gar." She said hastily. "Have you—Ron!" She yelled in relief as soon as she saw the blonde hair boy. She ran inside and hugged her child as if that were the last time she would ever see him. "Don't ever scare me like that!" She yelled at Ron as soon as she released him. Beast Boy stood there happy that she had found her child yet confuse on why was he here in the first place. Sandy remembered that she was in Beast Boy's room and quickly stood up as she carried her child in her arms.
"I'm sorry, Gar. Ron wanted to come but I didn't let him so he sneaked out." She said as she glared at her child. Ron looked around trying to ignore the glare he was receiving.
"No problem." Beast Boy told her. "He told me you were coming here but why?" Sandy let Ron down and then turned her attention to him. Ron took a seat on the couch staring at his mother.
"I was checking if your skin looked alright…apparently it does." Sandy observed him for a while. "Yep it does. Well it's getting late so see you around Gar." She told him as she started walking away. Beast Boy nodded. "I'm sorry again. Ron hates being alone at times but his father, Joey, and I work so we really don't have time to spend with him." She stated sadly. Ron frowned at the thought. His parents work and school was over so he sometimes felt alone.
"I'll watch the kid and besides I have a friend who loves kids." Beast Boy offered Sandy. Sandy shook her head.
"No, No, No." She said rapidly. "I cannot let you do that. He is handful to take care off." Ron and Beast Boy kept protesting and after a while, Sandy gave in.
"Fine but don't say I didn't warn you. If I were you I would invite your friend to help you out." Sandy warned giving a warning look. 'Ron can't be that bad…can he?' Beast Boy thought for a moment.
"Don't worry St-" Beast Boy noticing that he would almost say 'Starfire'. "Kori loves kids and she will gladly help me take care of him." Beast Boy knew that Sandy already knows he is Beast Boy but he didn't want to tell her Starfire's cover. Sandy eyed him suspiciously while Ron just stared at him imagining who Kori would be.
"Okay." Sandy said after a while. Ron ran towards his mom and hold her hand. "We'll I'll tell Joey to drop him off tomorrow afternoon." Beast Boy nodded. "Goodnight, Gar." She said as she started walking away towards her apartment.
"Bye, Gar!" Ron shouted happily. Beast Boy smiled and waved goodbye.
"Bye, dudes." Beast Boy closed his door and headed towards his room again. He laid down his bed and tried to go to sleep. His mind wondered on the Titans, Terra, Slade, but on one specific person. Raven. He shook his thoughts away. "Damn it. It's all my fault…she was right." Beast Boy yawned and drifted off to sleep.
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Robin was sitting on a chair his arms folded in a worried manner. Two pictures were on his desk. One picture had Starfire with the rest of the team before Kelsey came and the other was a picture that he had printed out from Gothams newspaper website. He stared at both pictures. First, one had innocent, naïve Starfire and the second one showed a not so naïve Starfire.
"What happened?" He questioned softly. He took off his mask to reveal a pair of blue eyes. Robin…no Richard Grayson stared at the picture of the girl he once loved. "What happened to you, Star?"
"I learned about reality." A voice said answering his question. He quickly put on his mask and turned around to see Starfire staring at him. "I learned that things don't always end with a happy ending." She said. Robin stood up from his chair and walked towards her.
"Star, everything would be alright." He tried to reassure her. Starfire sighed and faked a smile. He saw right through her smile. "What happened?" He questioned.
"Nothing." She stated. An awkward silence settled between the too. "I'm sorry for interrupting your thoughts but I wanted to answer your question." Starfire told him.
"That's alright." Robin told her. "Star, what happened that made you cry?" He asked her. Starfire said 'nothing' once again since she was unable to tell him. Robin sighed and wished that they had the same relationship as before but knew it wasn't going to happen. Not anytime soon.
"What made you run away?" Robin suddenly asked her. He wanted to ask her for so long but never thought it was the right time. Starfire was shocked but she didn't show it. She didn't suspect him to ask her right now well not anytime soon.
"I-I had to get away." Starfire stuttered a little at the beginning. She didn't want to go on. Robin saw the sadness reflected in her eyes. A memory started playing back in her mind. Starfire couldn't stop it. Robin watched her trying to stop something from replaying in her mind. He was just a two feet away from but it felt as if they were miles away from each other. He wanted to make all the pain go away. 'I want her to be happy.'
"Get away from what?" He questioned. Starfire turned her attention at the floor unable to look at him. "Star, you can tell me." He reassured her.
"Please don't." She pleaded. "Don't make me remember any more of this." Robin stared at her unable to speak. She sounded as if she was about to cry but she wouldn't let herself.
"Star…" Robin gently lifted her head with his finger so she could be facing him. "Get away from what?" He asked softly. Starfire reached over his mask and started taking it off slowly waiting for him to object. He did nothing in response. The most beautiful pair of blue eyes was staring back at her, waiting for an answer.
Starfire closed her eyes and said, "From…The pain that love causes." Starfire stared at his blue eyes for a moment. "I-I have to go. I-It's getting late." She started walking away.
"Don't go." Robin said hastily. She stopped in her tracks and turned around so she could be facing him.
"Richard, what do you want?" Starfire asked Robin calling him by his real name. He used that name when he was talking to her online with her friends and in a way knew it was his real name but not until right now, she was convinced, it was.
"I want to say I'm sorry." He stated as he stared at her beautiful emerald eyes. Starfire gave him a confuse look. "I'm sorry for everything I did to you but I can't." He said unable to say those words to her.
"You cannot what?" She asked innocently as the old Starfire would say. She saw that his eyes reflected confusion, sadness, and pain.
"I can't love you." He said. Starfire looked at him trying to hide all the emotional pain she was feeling. "I-I don't." He didn't know if he was lying anymore.
"You love Kelsey." She told him as she blinked back tears. "I know you don't love me." Robin saw her smiling at the fact he found a love but her eyes said something different. "You both are meant to be."
"I'm sorry, Star." He told her again. Starfire shook her head.
"No…I'm sorry for feeling this way towards you." Starfire told him. Robin stared at her. She walked away unable to stay in the room with him. Robin stared at the spot where she was and mentally cursed at himself. Starfires last statement made him feel upset…it made him feel like he actually wanted to cry but he's Robin the Boy Wonder. He wouldn't let himself cry not now not ever.
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