Hello! YAY I am finally being able to update the chapter and I think I have a plot now… I feel like I already said that… oh well. ONTO THE CHAPTER!

Chapter 18: Ava

Shi starred at Kurama in utter confusion. "M-my sister?" She managed to put out. "Yes she came here not long ago claiming to be her." Shi's eyes stayed in confusion.

"Where is she?"

"She seemed very disturbed when she got here, but she is in your room now." She nodded and walked off towards her room.

She opened the door quietly to find her little sister Ame sitting on her messily made black sheets. "Ava?" She asked in a weak voice. Shi's eyes stayed the same but something inside her mind clicked on.

"Hai Ame." The girl stood up but stayed in her place. She was a bit shorter then Shi with light brown hair and deeper brown eyes and darker skin; She wore regular blue shorts and a white top. (Can anyone tell I hate putting outfits in?)

As Kurama had said she did look upset in a way. "Ame what are you doing here, how did you find me?" Ame stayed silent a moment.

"I found this city from the foster care center and some people saw you living in this area."

"Well why are you here then?" A small sense of hatred lingered in Shi's voice as she spoke to the sister she hadn't seen in years, all the while taking in what she looked like now. 1

"Dad is dead." That made the shadow demon's eyes widen.

"What? How?"

"I don't know someone came into our house and demanded for his power or something. He said no and refused many times and was finally killed right there."

The seemingly frightened girl closed her eyes, when nothing came from Shi she looked up in confusion to find Shi still standing with a blank look. "Ame why did you come here of all places?"

"Well I had to break it to you"

"Go back home… at least you have mom, I have nothing to offer you here."

"But I don't understand… why did you leave us in the first place?" Shi sighed knowing she should have figured that that question would have came up.

"There are some things you will never understand." She said in a icy tone. "Go home… where mother will love you."

"Ava p-."

"Ame you may not know this but mother never wanted me to be born. I left because all I ever felt love from was Dad and that wasn't suitable… not when mother was yelling at me."

Ame stayed silent.

"I can't go back with you ever I refuse to."

"What about father's funeral?"

"I don't consider myself part of that family anymore, I left it behind me and made a new identity for myself, I will not attend it. Ava your older sister is gone." Her tone was serious when she finished a tense silence filled the room.

"I don't understand you Ava… and I don't think I want to either." She said walking past her older sister and quietly out of the shut door.

Shi waited a moment before letting her knee's give under her weight and she fell to the ground.

Shi's P.O.V (Oh yeah the poem thingy I do own!)

You lie in darkness
Controlled by the thoughts in your head
Crying of sweet sorrows
And the tears just won't run dry

Silence was my only company now I had thrown my family away. I had broken the saying that family is all you will ever have… I have no one now.

Hiei, Kurama… and the others… friends… and I don't think they want to be anything else with me. I am a weight holding them back from the freedom they so rightly deserve.

I hate it.

See the pain rushing threw your veins
Feel it corrupting your soul
And taking it's toll upon your soul

My father is gone… and for what reason's I don't know. I don't know what to do with my life anymore… what is there now? I am living with the fact that I'm a demon, enclosed in a cage unable to let my wings stretch.

That is not something I want.

… Then again now that I think of it, I don't know what I want anymore. I don't want to burden the gang, they say I'm not… but I can see threw it.

Things might be easier if I wasn't being forced to live in this cage

Walk the streets of the night
Your reflection an empty shell
There's nothing to see or tell now
Reality has killed your very heart
Now that the night has buried you alive

I sit like that refusing to let anything show on my face, no one is around I can sense it. I suppose they just want to let me be.

But what if something were to happen to me? Wasn't I supposed to be kept watch of all the time? What if something were to happen to their little prisoner?

My hands fly to my head instantly, why am I thinking these things? I don't want to think about them! I feel my hands slip down to my arms and gripping my arms like a last resort… like I would die if I let go.

Everything seems to fade from my view, I feel the overhead light that I usually keep off but was now on thanks to Ame shining down on my dark figure.

See the pain rushing threw your veins
Feel it corrupting your mind

And slowly killing your soul

It burns me… this light… it's burning my flesh I want to scream in pain but nothing will come out of me. My grip only tightens on my arms and I feel my nails break my skin and blood well up around it.

It wont stop neither the pain on my flesh or the raging thoughts rushing threw my head with no sign of a end; I feel my blood fall down my arm.

Sins long past done
Though the future promises more
The moonlight on your skin now
Reveals you for who you are

You who is begging to be saved

What have I done? Why did I throw my family away like it was nothing? Am I really stupid enough to throw them away even though they pervade me the slightest bit of comfort when I fall?

I don't know the answers.

See the pain rushing threw your veins
Feel it corrupting your mind
And see the blackness of your soul

I want it to stop desperately… just make it go away. "Stop." I finally got out though nothing happened.

"Stop." I repeated this time my voice getting a bit louder in demand as my eyes squeezed shut and the sense of being burned increased.

"Stop!" I shouted.

The blackness of your soul
Is drowning your mind in the abyss of despair.

Suddenly everything came to a stop and my eyes snapped open. Everything stopped and was back to normal, no thoughts in my head being forced upon me at once, or the burning of the light.

Although my nails still stayed dug deeply into my own flesh. "Shi?" Came Kurama's voice from outside the door. "Are you okay?"

"Y-yeah sorry." I said trying to get myself together. I withdrew my hands only to earn a rush of pain threw my arms.

"Are you sure?" Concern filled his voice and I could sense his uneasiness like I could see the light. "Yeah I'm fine." I said. I would have normally opened the door but with my arms bleeding freely I didn't want to attract anymore attention to myself.

Even though he probably smelled the blood on me.

He said no more but simply walked down the hall. I took the opportunity to crawl over to my bed and get a first aid kit I had placed there a few days ago.

After quickly bandaging my small lacerations I opened the door and went down the hall as if nothing had ever happened. It seemed Yusuke had shown up because he now sat on the couch, Hiei on the window-sill and Kurama in the kitchen making something.

I paid no mind to any of them but simply teleported myself out of the room and onto the temple's roof. The sky had started to turn a orange mixed with blue as the sun started it's descent upon the horizon.

I took a seat on the tile roofing, drew my knees to my chest and rested my head on my arms that folded over my knees. I liked the outdoors the gentle brushing of the trees in the early evening breeze; the calming feeling it gave just by sitting and listening to the surroundings… everything.

Normal P.O.V

"A coin for your thoughts Shi." Came Hiei's voice from beside her. She turned to see him standing next to her. She met his glowing crimson eyes for a moment then turned back to the view placed before her.

"Just thinking… about what I did."

"And that would be…?"

"I left my family… for good… I didn't even think about it, just did it. Now I have no one to fall back onto." She explained.

Hiei was silent, what was there to say. "Did you cut yourself?" He questioned changing the subject as he noticed the white bandage under her shirtsleeve.

"Yeah."

"Purposely?"

"Not really… that doesn't matter."

"Hn fine." He said averting his gaze to the trees and the sunset in front. "Sometimes… other people can be just as strong as a family can be." Shi looked at him surprised that he was saying it to her.

"Yeah well that still leaves me with no one." He glared at her. "No you have The fox, Yusuke, the oaf…. And myself."

"You?"

"Hai." 'This onna is making me weak.' He thought.

"Hiei I get the feeling you are trying to tell me something by that but I can't really figure it out right now." She said a slight laugh in her voice.

"Hn you will." He assured her. "Hiei why don't you just come out and say things to the point… like Kurama does?" She questioned as he looked down at her.

"Because it annoys you."

A/N: Well that was long and very good I have to say! AND I have a idea yay!

1. Okay apparently I forgot to mention that Shi had a younger sister. Well she does and her mother showed her love more to Ame then to Shi (or her real name Ava) I just had to make that clear!