A/N: ok. i know i spelled conner wrong but i'm not going to fix it.

DISCLAIMER: I STILL DON'T OWN THE CHARACTERS AND I DON'T OWN THE SONG "CEMETERY DRIVE" BY MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE.

This night, walk the dead

'Who the hell is at my door at 2 o'clock in the bleedin' morning?' Wesley thought as he got up and walked to the door. He slowly opened it. He was excited to see Conner at his door until he saw the blood and the knife. Conner's face was so weary looking; it looked as if he was going to cry.

In a solitary style

"I've been...cutting myself...for the...the past couple months...and...I…I love you…" Conner said. His piercing blue eyes penetrating Wesley's soul. The former watcher had never expected Conner to say that. Wesley had suspected him to be a cutter, but never ever to love him. Wesley had loved Conner since the moment he fell through the portal into the lobby.

And crash the cemetery gates

"I love you too." Wesley said with all to strength left in his body. He meant it. This was a shock to see Conner like this, "Con…" Wesley started but he was cut off by Conner fainting.

In the dress your husband hates

Wesley started crying. 'This is not going to happen. I'm not going to lose Conner.' The distraught British man thought as he picked up the boy in his arms and ran off to Angel's room.

Way down, mark the grave

"Angel! Wake up! Conner fainted!" Wesley shouted through his tears as he kicked the door. "Please. Please. Wake up, Conner." Wesley said to Conner as Angel practically ripped the door off its hinges.

Where the search lights find us

"What the hell is going on?" Angel asked looking back and forth between a bleeding, fainted Conner and a crying Wesley, "Wes. What happened?"
"It doesn't matter! We have to get him to a hospital!" Wesley shouted to Angel."Fine. I'll drive. Try to get him to wake up." Angel said as they ran down to the lobby and out of the doors.

Drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

At the hospital

Conner was lying on a hospital bed with tubes in nose and blood being pumped in to his arm. Wesley was holding his right hand. He could not stop crying, even when he told Angel what happened. Angel was pacing around the room. "I can't believe this." He said under the breath he didn't have.

I miss you, I miss you so far

"How could I've missed this? He had been wanting to tell me something for the past couple weeks but I had always been busy." Angel whispered, "It's my fault." The vampire started to cry.
"It isn't your fault, Angel. We didn't kn-"Wesley said until,
"You knew! You told me that you thought he was doing this! You told me five minutes ago! Why didn't you tell me before! Before….before." Angel broke down.

And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Wesley felt horrible. He should of told Angel before. He couldn't. Wesley trusted Conner to come to someone for help. Conner didn't want people bombarding him. "I didn't want him to close him self off even more! How would you feel if everyone was trying to get you to say something you weren't ready to say! That is how Conner probably feels RIGHT NOW!" Wesley shouted now gripping Conner's hand even tighter.

Back home, off the run

"Wesley, do not tell me what my son is feeling. You don't understand. Your not his father…you don't know how it feels to see your own child doing something so..so... stupid." Angel replied sternly. Wesley was furious.

Singing songs that make you slit your wrists

"Stupid! Liam! Incase you haven't noticed your son is in pain!" Wesley yelled commanding Angel's attention. Angel was shocked. No one had called him Liam in years. "I know how he feels. I have something to show you." Wesley finished. He slowly pulled off his three-inch leather wristband on his wrist to reveal many small and medium sized cuts. They were all darker than his skin, showing that they were old and had become scars.

It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun

Angel gasped in shock. 'How could this be? Wesley? Cutting? He couldn't have done that!' Angel thought then he spoke, "When?" He started to choke on his own words, "Why didn't you tell me?"

So I won't stop dying, won't stop lying

"You didn't need to know. When I stole Conner from you I felt so horrible that it was the only way to deal with it." Wesley said with his tear filled eyes. "I want to help your son stop. I love him. Maybe that will help. He needs love." Wesley looked up to see Angel crying tears of guilt.

If you want I'll keep on crying

"It was my fault. I didn't love him enough." Angel sobbed. Wesley was starting to notice that Angel had been doing a lot of crying tonight. But then again wouldn't you if your only son almost died from cutting himself? "I can't believe this…." Angel started but stopped to look at Conner. Wesley let out a depressed sigh.

Did you get what you deserve?

"I want him to wake up," Wesley said, "So he can see his father crying because he cares so much. Conner needs to know that you love him." Angel pondered that for a moment."He has you. You love him. He doesn't want me to love him. He wants you. I can't pick up as a father after he's been in a hell dimension of all his life." Angel stated.

Is this what you always want me for?

"It's not about what he wants! It's about he NEEDS!" Wesley yelled, "He needs to know that you love him, I love him, that we all love him." Wesley finished just as Fred and Gunn burst through the door.

I miss you, I miss you so far

"Is he okay?" Fred asked, "What happened? Why were you yelling?" Fred looked at Conner's hand in Wesley's. That was a little strange to her. She felt out of the loop.
"What is going on? I'd like to know. Last thing I remember is someone yelling then a phone call 45 minutes later from Angel saying that Conner was in the hospital and we needed to come down ASAP." Gunn said.

And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

"At 2 there was a knock at my door, I opened it and..." Wesley sniffed, "and…Conner was there. He was holding a knife and he was bleeding. He said that he had been cutting himself for a while and…..that….that he…..loves me, then he fainted." Tears were now streaming door his face. He reached out to touch Conner's face, he felt cold."The doctor says that he might not wake up." Angel said, "He's lost so much blood, he cut too deep. If he had waited any longer to knock on Wesley's door he might be dead."

Way down, way down

"Then what happened?" Fred asked, she was curious about Conner and Wesley, "What did you say to Conner?" Wesley looked up, eyes filled with tears,"I told he that I loved him too. I meant it."

Way down, way down

Gunn and Fred gasped. Wesley? Gay? That was a stretch. They couldn't believe it but that was the least of their worries. "That is so sweet." Fred chirped.

Way down, way down

"Mpfugh." Gurgled from Conner's throat. He slowly stretched and open his eyes, "Why are you guys in my room? Wait. Where am I?"

Way down, way down
I miss you, I miss you so far

"You're awake! We were so worried." Wesley said as he hugged him.
"Are you okay?" Angel asked nervously, he didn't know what his son would say to him.
"I'm as fine as I can be being that I'm in a hospital bed with blood being pumped into my arm." Conner said.

And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

"Well. Can I talk to Wesley alone?" Conner asked hopefully. Angel nodded and everyone left.

I miss you, I miss you so far

"Thank you. I might be dead if you hadn't opened your door." Conner said looking Wes straight in the eyes. Wesley felt his heart melt.

"I love you Conner. You could have told me what you were doing to yourself." Wesley said.

"You would've understood! You don't know how it feels to hurt yourself to release your pain!" Conner replied. Wesley lifted up his right arm.

"Yes I do."
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Conner was speechless. "I am sorry. I didn't know. I just…I" Conner was cut off by a kiss from the man. At first it was like moth wings brushing against Conner's lips. But then Wesley added a little more pressure. Conner felt Wesley lick his lips for entry; Conner let him in. Their tongues battled for dominance. So much passion. Conner had waiting for this from Wesley for a long time. Conner pulled away, "I...I…I love you. With all my heart." Conner said breathlessly.

'They are adorable together.' Fred thought as she saw them kiss.

Made it so hard

Conner hadn't felt this wonderfully peaceful in so long. That was all about to change.

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"Conner?" Angel asked as he poked his head in on his son and Wesley, "The doctor and I need to talk to you."

Way down