Jaded

by HellionKyou

Rogue gehts tired of her life, and tries ways ta kill her self, but every time there is a certain cajun who foiles her plans.Romy later on, but not in the first few chapters. hints of Kurtty.

2. Chapter 2: OD

Jaded

Don own. So how didja lihke chapter one?. Well RnR and no flames. Oh and so I don fergeht I don' own "Only happy when it rains" By:Garbage

Summery:Rogue tahkes her plan into action

Chapter two: OD

Ah knew mah day sucked when Ah opened mah eyes, ah saw thyat ah wasnt burning, or where angels sing. Ah was still alive. Ah pulled mah feet over the bed and stood up, it was beautiful outside, there was laughter all around, but still nothing phased meh. It just made meh wanna die. Ah got dressed, all in black ah didnt put on make-up ah didnt see what the point was, if ah was gonna die, who'd ah have ta impress, but the devil himself.

Ah walked down to the kitchen, hopeing ah'd beh alone. But as soon as ah stepped foot in there, ah was welcomed by a person who ah wish would go jump off a cliff.

"Bonjour mon chere" Ah can see right through that sweet voice cajun, you cant phase meh nor can ya change meh. Ah look past him, ah don' ive him the pleasure of eye contact. But as usual he sneaks over and puts his arms around meh. "Leht meh go!"Ah snap harshly.

"Ah chere don' be like dat ta Remy, e' jus' wants ta hol' y' is all" He speaks words only a fool would believe or a whore who wants ta geht banged by a stupid cajun, and then left.

"LET MEH GO YA STUPID CAJUN!" Ah scream, and push him away from meh. His eyes sadend.

"Come on cher,don' be like dis"

"PISS OFF CAJUN!" Ah stare at him with such hate. Ah hate what he says, ah hate that he still mahkes meh feel so good but yet so dirty, ah hate the way he is, and ah hate the fact thyat ah leht mahself fall in love with someone lihke him.

"Ah hate ya Remy LeBeau, ah hate ya!" Yet he didnt, ahd ont think he believed meh. He tried once more to hold meh. But by then everything went blank. ah have no idea what happened. But when ah woke up, there was some bloodon the floor and it was not mihne. And there was Gambit, flat on his stomach. Ah crawled over ta mahke sure ah didn' kill him, and ta see if he was ok. placing mah fingers ta check his pulse. He was alive, but before he would start to wake up ah got up and left the kitchen. Ah began ta wahlk upstairs, as ah began ta feel faint, ah had an idea ta pull out a razor blade and slit mah wrists, thinkin' if ah passed out ah'd die. So ah slit mah wrists and only in a matter of seconds since ah was already about to faint, ah passed out on the stairs. Seemed lihke ages before ah awoke, ah thought ah was dead till ah saw a familiar but putred face looking down at meh.

"Am ah in hell?"Ah asked all groggy lihke.

"Non"the voice answered."But Remy must be in heaven ta geht ta see yer beautiful eyes again"

Ah looked away and looked at mah wrists, they ere bandaged."Who did this?" Ah asked.

"When Remy woke up e' found y' on de stairs all covered in blood, so bein' freaked out and worried e' took y' ta de med lab, and Hank patched y' right up" He explained, ah started ta cry, ah didnt want this, ah wanted ta die. Ah wanted ta beh dead, why do they care they should of just leht m eh die.

"Chere?"

"...Ya should of jus' leht meh die"

"What?"

"Didja eva think, thyat maybe, just maybe ah didnt wanna live. Ya should of let meh die where ah was at" Ah said as cold as ah could, glancing over at his eyes, his sadness was surprsing ta meh, he looked as though he was gonna cry.

"Fer as long as I live I will do every ting in mon power ta keep y' from dieing"

Ah wanted ta know so bad why he cared."Why do ya even care about meh?" So ah asked.

He smiled."Because I love ya, mon chere" He looked away, it hurt mah heart ta look into his angelic demon eyes.

"The feeling isnt the same" Lieing hurt worse, but oh well.

Ah closed mah eyes and ignored the other voices around meh, even in mah head.

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2 Days later after they let meh outa the medical lab. Ah was constanally bein' "checked "on. Mr.McCoy had the thought ah was trin' ta kill mahself but without actual proof he couldn't do anythingabout it. And since the professor cant geht inside mah head, unless ah leht him, they cant exactly stop meh from mah destination, just prevent it for awahile.

Fer two days sraight ah have wohkin up with people looking down at meh. Remy has been edgy around meh, ah guess he thinks he is the cause, fer things. Well what ever his mental case is this tihme ah am jus' glad he is leavin meh the hell alone.

When monday came back around, a few people knew what was goin ' on, but they just kept to them selves. Ah new Kitty, Kurt and ms. perfect (Jean) knew ah tried ta kill mah self, or else why would there beh slits on both mah wrists, everyone else was just obviously stupid.

Afatah school is was pooring down rain, some people went and played it, ran to their cars, or stayed inside. Ah was the one wahlking it. And then ah began ta think, ah have always heard of OD ob medication killing people, b ut ah never actually did it before. Ah mean ah have no idea what it will exactly do. So ah reached in mah bah and pulled out eight 800mg of Ibuprofen. Tahking them one at a tihme, ah new it would do aloht of damage ta mah insides. Aftah about an hour ah began ta feel really sick, just about the tihme ah ran into Gambit.

"Bonjour chere" He said, it was raining and everything began to spin, i threw up on his shoes before falling to the gound.

with one last thing before ah passed out ah said." Ah'm only happy when it rains, maybe now ah'll finally die..."

I'm only happy when it rains

I'm only happy when it's complicated

And though I know you can't appreciate it

I'm only happy when it rains

You know I love it when the news is bad

And why it feels so good to feel so sad

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me

I'm only happy when it rains

I feel good when things are going wrong

I only listen to the sad, sad songs

I'm only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark

My only comfort is the night gone black

I didn't accidentally tell you that

I'm only happy when it rains

You'll get the message by the time I'm through

When I complain about me and you

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, Pour your misery down

Pour your misery down on me Pour your misery down

Pour your misery down Pour your misery down

Pour your misery down on me Pour your misery down

Pour your misery down Pour your misery down

Pour your misery down on me Pour your misery down

Pour your misery down

You can keep me company

As long as you don't care

I'm only happy when it rains

You wanna hear about my new obsession?

I'm riding high upon a deep depression

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour some misery down on me

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour some misery down on me

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour some misery down on me

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour some misery down on me

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour some misery down on me ...

Yup end of chapter two, dunno but didnt seem thyat good ta meh, but ya beh the judge of thyat. RnR but no flameing. Im tired so I shall go ta bed. TTFN(ta ta fer now)

Grym Goddess