Walking, searching, losing faith
Distressed I tried running but in vain
Hopeless, lonely, and afraid
The LORD I felt had left me no longer sane
Useless, broken, misfit kid
A child who couldn't obey and always sinned
Her, Him, She, He
Apathetic, confused, depressed, distressed
Head cast low because of rejection
Numb, dumb, oblivious and ignorant
Being led always into the darkenss a stray
Emootional, gothic, and disguised
My heart didn't move for God any more
Closed, drained and wasting away
Father I pleaded with arms out in strain
HEAR! SEEK! FEEL! FIND!
Will the Father of Abraham, Jacob and Isaac
Abandon this forsaken, unholy, adulterous Gentile?
Will He forsake the people He tried to outreach
That didn't know His word until Jesus came?
Will he forsake the ones who heard, the ones who understood
The ones who took that word and raced with it in hearts of praise?
CRYING! SCREAMING! RAGING FROM WITHIN!
I called out to You and You answered with a gentle wind
Trapped, losing, chained and fettered
Father I came to You with my fear ablazed
I knelt down at Your cross and laid it down
All my burdens & uncleanliness upon that sanctified ground
I seek rest and in You I find
Peace now and mercy too
No longer is it about ME BUT always about YOU
I humble myself only as one who's seen so much in so little time
And at Your feet I saw with great amazement
As Your love covered all of me and the fear washed away
Peace is in my heart as I grow spiritually
Now is Your hour and now is Your time
Father in heaven I am Yours as You are mine