Hey Dad
Summary: All Liam ever wanted was to be approved of by his father. As Angelus, he killed his father and was never able to be told he was accepted. Now, Angel regrets that he killed his father and writes a letter.
Hey dad,
So this is it, this is my life
This is my time it's ending tonight
I've made my mistakes and tried to live right
Stepped out of the darkness, into the light
I've tried to be everything you wanted me to be dad, and I don't know if I can keep it up. It's so hard to be this perfect son that you wanted; somebody who abided by the law and was something to be proud of. In my job, I don't get the luxury of abiding by the law; I'm constantly fighting things that you couldn't even comprehend. I want to be the son that you wanted, I really do. It's just so hard to be like that…
It's alright, this is the night life leaves me again
With open arms
This is the way
I will meet my maker tonight
Soon will come the end, and I can see you again. I want you to see me now, and tell me if you're proud yet. Tell me if you're happy to say that I'm your son. Tell me that you love me and that you forgive me for what I did to you. I want to know that you'll accept me for who I am; as somebody who has tried to be everything you want him to be. I tried dad, did I succeed?
And when I'm gone will they remember?
Will they mourn? Will they move on?
When my sad soul, the loneliest son
His time has come his life is done
And on my grave, what will it say?
"Here lies another soul that was saved"
So please don't cry, you sleep at night
And I will wait for you on the other side
Dad, I'm sorry for everything. Soon it all ends. I'm sorry, and I want you to know that. Please forgive me for what I did to you, accept me like I've always wanted you to. Please dad, I'm asking you this one time. Just say you're proud of me. I've tried so hard for so long to be the kind of son you wanted. I have desperately tried to fix everything I did wrong, but I can't. I'm sorry.
Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
I'm smiling on the outside
I'm hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I try to make it seem okay
But my faith is wearing thin
So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this hole
Even though this is not your fault
Tell me how you feel now dad, tell me and say it with all your heart. Tell me exactly how you feel.
And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open soul for all to see
Please dad, God I'm sorry for everything. I was never the kind of son you wanted, I know that now. I have a son, and I understand what being a father is like. Please, dad, forgive me. I am asking you for forgiveness for everything I never was for you. Dad, I love you.
Angel
Author's Note: Another Good Charlotte song for you fans out there. The songs from 'the Young and the Hopeless' and 'THE CHRONICLES OF LIFE AND DEATH' just seemed so appropriate to Angel's situation with his father. I decided to play on some of those ideas and develop something kinda sweet out of those songs. For the next chapter, maybe I'll actually write something myself instead of copying the text. BTW, the song is 'Meet My Maker' from the album 'THE CHRONICLES OF LIFE AND DEATH'. Enjoy, keep reading and please feel free to review.