Hey Dad

Summary: All Liam ever wanted was to be approved of by his father. As Angelus, he killed his father and was never able to be told he was accepted. Now, Angel regrets that he killed his father and writes a letter. (And some)

Hey dad,

I've been fighting the good fight all these years, and all of it was to make you see that I am a changed man. With all these people around me, supporting me and fighting for the same cause without question, I hope that it shows you that I'm different now. I'm not like I used to be.

They say that a hero could save us

I'm not gonna stand here and wait

I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles

And watch as we all fly away

Despite all this time of trying to be everything you want me to be, I still don't think I've reached that point in my life. I want you to say that you're proud, but I doubt that you will because I don't feel that I have changed enough for you to see it.

Someone told me love would all save us

But how can that be, look what love gave us

A world full of killing and blood spilling

That world never came

I've lost people dad, people close to me. I've lost them and it hurts. It hurts so much, because they meant the world to me. I would have done anything I could to save them, and I tried to do just that. Cordelia, I loved with all my heart; but I couldn't save her. Fred was the pretty young girl I saved from a Hell dimension; I couldn't save her either. They'll both be with you now, in Heaven, where they belong. They fought for what was right and just the whole time that they were here with me. Bless their souls, take care of them for me. I couldn't be the hero they wanted, their knight in shining armour. I couldn't be the big strong man who came in and swept them off their feet and hoisted them up to safety. I couldn't be that man, I'm no hero.

Now that the world isn't ending

It's love that I'm sending to you

It isn't the love of a hero

And that's why I fear it won't do

Dad, I'll be seeing you soon. It won't be long before the end comes, I know, I planned it. I only hope that when I see you, you can tell me that you love me and that you're finally proud. Please, tell me what I want to hear.

Angel

Author's Note: I just had an urge to write some more for this, when I heard some songs that just really fit into the situation with Angel. This one is Hero by Chad Kroeger, lead singer of Nickelback. There's one more to come, and after that the song pool of sadness has pretty much dried up. If you've got any suggestions, please feel free to send me a message.