Hey Dad
Summary: All Liam ever wanted was to be approved of by his father. As Angelus, he killed his father and was never able to be told he was accepted. Now, Angel regrets that he killed his father and writes a letter. (And some)
Hey dad,
When I think about my life
I wonder if I will survive
To live to see 255
Or will I just fall
Like all my friends they just keep dying
People round me always crying
In this place that I like to
Call my home
But not everybody knows that
Everybody goes to a better place
And not everybody knows that
Everybody could be living their life there
I've been through so much dad, and so much has happened to the people around me. Cordelia and Fred died first, and it changed the two people left who mean the most to me. Wesley is so dark and reserved now, and Gunn is just so distant. He hates the fact that he thinks Fred's death was his fault. And Illyria, the newest player, she's so unpredictable. But she's also attached to Wesley, just like Fred was. Spike, is still the same jackass he always was, but now it's in a good way. He's fighting with us too. And Lorne, he's been such a great guy to have around. He's always one to lend an ear. But through all this, I strayed from my calling in life; what I'm meant to be doing. Cordelia woke from her coma for just a day to set me back on track. The doctors said she never woke, but I know she did. Honestly dad, she set me on a path to destruction. All my friends think that I've crossed over, that I'm playing for the other team now. But the truth is, I've been setting up the biggest showdown in history for us. I'm positive that we're all going to die, and Wolfram and Hart is corrupting us all. I'm getting us out before that happens. The world is crashing down around us, the world of Wolfram and Hart. And we're getting buried alive. I can't live like this any more, so I'm making a stand. The Senior Partners won't know what hit them.
Life hope truth trust
Faith pride love lust
Pain hate lies guilt
Laugh cry live die
Make the best with what you're given
This ain't dying this is living
Dad, I'm coming to see you now. This is it; the final time I'll write to you before I see you again. I hope that when we meet, you can see that I am a changed man. I have done things in my life that aren't to be proud of, but I've turned all that around and I've made something of myself. Surely you'd be proud of me for doing that, wouldn't you dad? You said that I'd never be anything, but I am dad. I am something, and I am someone. I've got myself to a place that I think is sufficient to end it all, everything I've done up until now. I'm going to die dad, and I'm not afraid. I know that when I die I will see you again, and that somehow everything will be alright again. I'll be leaving behind my beloved Buffy, and Faith and all the others. But most of all, I'll be leaving behind my son. I understand fatherhood now dad, I understand how frustrating it is. Especially because I didn't have control over my son's upbringing and because of it he turned out to be a monster. But that's all changed; everything has changed.
When I die, I want to tell you everything that's happened, everything that made me do what I'm about to. I want you to know everything that has happened in my life, as if you were there. I want you to be here dad, I miss you. I love you.
Author's Note: With Liam's father probably being in Heaven (because he was a priest/father type figure) we'll just assume that Angel can go to Heaven after his lengthy period of atonement and the two will meet up. If you haven't figured it out already, Angel in the past two letters is talking about what happened in NFA, and everything that he set up. He desperately wants his father to be proud of him, and wants to see him. Maybe this will make his father proud, finally making something of himself. I think he has.