Somewhere, Somehow
Author's Notes: To answer some your questions: Yes! This is still an SS fic! But you have to wait for more SS moments! Thanks for the reviews! I really appreciate them and it keeps me going to update!
Disclaimer: The song "Ocean Deep" doesn't belong to me. It belongs to its respective owner/s.
Chapter Ten – I'm Sorry
Love, can't you see I'm alone
Can't you give this fool a chance?
A little love is all I ask - a little kindness
In the night
Please don't leave me behind
No - don't tell me love is blind
A little love is all I ask and that is all
Sakura arrived back at the hotel. She unlocked the door and stepped inside, Tomoyo was still no where in sight. Sakura sighed and went towards her luggage and began packing for tomorrow's flight. After doing so, which took a while, she sat down on the couch and turned the TV on. Although she was watching some old reruns, she wasn't listening; she was just staring aimlessly at the television.
Oh love, I've been searching so long
I've been searching high and low
A little love is all I ask - a little sadness
When you go
Maybe you need a friend
Only please don't let's pretend
A little love is all I ask and that is all
It was already a quarter to 6pm and she was "enjoying" herself by eating chocolate ice cream. It had been a long time since she ate some. Sakura ate a spoonful when suddenly, a tear rolled down her face. In surprise, Sakura placed the glass down and wiped the tear away, but the more she blinked, more tears slid down her smooth, acne-free face.
I wanna spread my wings - but I just can't fly
As a string of pearls, the pretty girls go sailing by
Ocean deep - I'm so afraid to show my feelings
I have sailed a million ceilings
Solitary room
Ocean deep - will I ever find a lover
Maybe he has found another
And as I cry myself to sleep
I know this love of mine I'll keep - ocean deep
'Why am I crying? It's not like me to cry for no reason.'
Sakura closed her eyes for a while when Syaoran's face suddenly appeared in her mind. Sakura opened her eyes and her face was turning red.
'Is it because of Syaoran? Is he the reason why I'm crying?'
Sakura shook her head.
'No, Sakura! You're not crying because of him! You're not crying because he's getting married! You should be happy for him! You're not crying because you love him…you're not crying because…'
"I…I love him…" Sakura whispered to herself, "I love Syaoran…"
The next day, Sakura woke up with red blotchy eyes from all the crying she did last night. She looked at her side and saw Tomoyo still fast asleep. Sakura was surprised that she woke up ahead of Tomoyo. Sakura looked at the time and saw that it was already 8:15am. She noticed Tomoyo's luggage already packed and locked. Suddenly, she heard Tomoyo moan and stretch out her arms. Tomoyo's eyes fluttered open and saw Sakura already awake at her side.
"Sakura?"
"Yeah?" Sakura looked at Tomoyo
Tomoyo noticed Sakura's red eyes.
"Have you been crying, Sakura?"
Sakura looked down at her lap and slowly shook her head.
"Are you sure? Tell me, what's wrong?"
Sakura didn't answer. After a while, tears suddenly streaming down her face. Tomoyo hurriedly went over to Sakura's side and hugged her.
"He…He's getting married, Tomoyo" Sakura said, her voice shaky
"Who?" Tomoyo asked, hoping what she was thinking would be wrong.
"S-Syaoran…Syaoran's getting married! I don't know why I'm crying; in fact, I should be happy for him and have a smile on my face instead of sitting here and crying my eyes out. I really don't know why I'm crying, Tomoyo"
"Ssh…it's alright, Sakura. I'm here with you"
More tears fell from her green eyes.
"I love him, Tomoyo. And I don't mean the best friend-friendship love. I really love him…"
Syaoran sat in his office in deep thought. A cup of coffee sat beside him, still hot and full but he wasn't in the mood to drink any. A few more papers in front of him were still left unsigned.
'Sakura will be flying back to Japan and I'm going to see her take off, but before that, I'll tell her the truth'
The door suddenly opened and Eriol came walking in. Syaoran looked at him strangely.
"Maya didn't tell me anything that you were coming in"
"I think she's at the bathroom so I invited myself in" Eriol said, smiling at him
Syaoran rolled his eyes, "Whatever"
"So, I heard you were getting married"
"Where the hell did you hear that?"
Eriol, who had a folded magazine, threw it on Syaoran's table, in front of him. Syaoran's eyes widened and grabbed the magazine. In front of him was an old picture of him and Amaya on the cover when they were 16 and in big black bold letters was the phrase:
HE'S TAKEN, LADIES!
Hong Kong's No. 1 Bachelor And Top Businessman Is Getting Married!
"What the FUCK!?" he cursed and turned to the page where the article was.
Syaoran Li, businessman and Hong Kong's eligible and most wanted bachelor is getting married! It's all over, ladies! You all might be wondering right now, who is the lovely lady—Syaoran snorted—to whom Li is getting married? The woman on the cover, Amaya Tsugishiro is his bride-to-be and childhood lover!
"Who the fuck wrote this trash!?"
"I'm really happy with my engagement to Syaoran. He's the best thing that ever happened in my life. I love him" says the bride-to-be.
Hong Kong is probably wondering why there weren't any news or rumors concerning their relationship.
"We wanted it to keep it private and I'm sure Syaoran doesn't want to be bombarded with paparazzi, taking pictures of him everywhere."
Eriol grabbed the magazine away from Syaoran first. On the top rightmost of the page, was Amaya, holding out her hand to reveal a pink diamond ring.
"Hey, look. She's wearing a God-knows-how-much-carat that pink diamond ring has"
"Where the fuck did she get that!? I didn't give her any ring!" Syaoran bellowed, grabbing the magazine back
Eriol shook his head, "Tsk, tsk. Such language, Syaoran"
"Shut up, Eriol" Syaoran muttered. Syaoran's attention and eyes landed on the clock before him. His eyes grew wide.
"Shit! It's almost 1pm!" Syaoran said, standing up
"Where are you going?" Eriol asked
"To the airport! I have to go, see you!"
"Wait, what? Syaoran! Wait for me!" Eriol said, catching up behind him.
"Are you sure you're alright, Sakura?" Tomoyo asked, still worried
Sakura nodded with a smile on her face, "I'm sure, Tomoyo"
"I'm really worried about you, Sakura, especially if it's concerning Li-kun"
"Leave him out of this, Tomoyo" Sakura said, suddenly feeling sad again
Tomoyo clamped a hand over her mouth.
"Oh my God Sakura, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have mentioned his name"
"It's okay, Tomoyo" Sakura said, forcing a smile. Sakura looked at the wall clock opposite her and it was almost 1pm and Syaoran still wasn't at the airport.
"Sakura!"
Both Sakura and Tomoyo turned around and saw Syaoran running towards them. Behind him was Eriol. Tomoyo's face lit up. When Sakura saw Syaoran, she forced on a happy face and a smile. Syaoran walked towards Sakura. Tomoyo and Eriol stayed out of the way and had their own private conversation.
"Sakura…I'm sorry I'm late"
"You're just on time, Syaoran" she said, "Thanks for coming"
"Here, I bought you something. I bought it on my way here"
Syaoran took out a rectangular pink box that had a white ribbon tied to it. He handed it to Sakura.
"Open it" he said, smiling at her
Sakura untied the ribbon and opened it. Her eyes widened when she saw what was inside. In front of her emerald green eyes was a pair of black chopsticks with two pairs of cherry blossom dangling on a small silver chain at the end of each chopstick. Sakura was lost of words.
"Oh my God…Syaoran, this must have cost a fortune!"
"Yeah, but I needed to give you something. Besides, when it comes to you, I don't care how expensive it is. You're very special to me, Sakura. You deserve the best"
Sakura looked down at her feet and blushed crimson. Tears suddenly streamed down her face. Syaoran noticed this and lifted her chin up.
"Why the tears?"
Sakura smiled at him and wiped the tears away, "It's nothing. Thank you, Syaoran"
"You're welcome" Syaoran smiled, "Friends forever, right?"
"Yeah" Sakura responded
Syaoran suddenly pulled her towards him and hugged her tight.
'It's no use, Sakura. No matter what you think, no matter how much you love him, he only sees you as a friend. That's all you are to him; a friend.'
'I'm sorry, Sakura. I'm sorry. I can't tell you the truth right now. I don't I can ever tell you the truth. With just one look at your cheerful face, it will just pain you and I can never forgive myself if I see you hurt. I'm sorry. I love you, Sakura.'
Author's Notes: And that's the end of the story, folks!
Just kidding, everyone! I'm not that mean and leave all of you without a happily-ever-after-Sakura-Syaoran ending! Don't forget to review!
Tinaptran: It IS a SS fic! And it forever will be!
Copperline Kitty: I hate Amaya, but I don't hate Yelan. Hehe.
Ice Dragon52: Yes, it is still an SS fic! Don't worry, you didn't offend me.
CrAzY-SiLLy-Me: Maybe Sakura does understand outside, but inside…ANYWAY! Just tell me when you need the pictures so I can print/e-mail them to you.
Illusion Dragon: Yeah, I also can't bare it if this ends with SS not together! Thanks for the review!
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And thanks also to the following: dream-eater-is-hungry, kawaii-leena, crystallization, Serenity's Blaim, Sarah the Original, EKoolcat369, Sieg1308 and choclitfudge! Thank you all!