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Bayb-Tiger: Okay so their date is NOW hehehe! I finally finished this chapter…and I must say that is all thanks to my counselor…haha he insisted that I write again…so here it is! Oh and on a side note I'm starting another story…a darker one…so I have basically three stories in the writes…but one's a collaboration which won't be finished for quite some time…but in my opinion trust me you guys it's worth it! But for now…let's stick with finishing this story lmao! Oh…and this story has A LONG way to go…I think this could count as the halfway point! Yay!

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Chapter Nine: Meaning of Love

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I'll never be sure… be sure if that was the right decision. Should I have gone with him that day? Would it have been different had I refused? But than again I won't ever have a second chance now. It's too late now. But I know one thing for sure. I never regretted a single thing that happened between me and him.

But what had I meant to him? Was that one perfect night all in my head? Were the memories completely mines? Were the feelings one sided…or did he love me? Did he feel that spark when we were together…it is too late to find out now isn't it? Too late to uncover the truth that …that I had ran away from. I couldn't take it…I can't take it even now…what is giving me the strength to write this even I am unsure. Where is this strength coming from? Is this really for all my fans out there? Or is there an inner reason?

Sakura furiously brushed her hair as she stared at the time. She only had one more hour until seven. She wasn't sure why but the butterflies in her stomach just wouldn't die down. Taking deep breaths remembering the last time she felt like this. It was her birthday, meeting up with Ryu. She smiled as she continued to comb out her silky auburn locks, "You'd be happy for me right Ryu?"

She giggled to herself as she finally finished with her hair. She still had a lot to do and excitement was bubbling inside her, everything was going to be perfect, right? She looked into her dresser, he hadn't mentioned whether it was going to be a formal dinner or not. Shuffling around her emerald eyes landed on a black strapless dress that ended slightly above her knees. Taking it out she admired the black material.

It was perfect, black like the starry night sky, it wasn't too elegant but it was fairly formal. Slipping the dress on her, she stared at herself in the mirror. She looked fantastic. The black material showed all of her sexy curves perfectly and was also fairly slimming. Twirling around memories of her past entered her. How long had it been since she felt like this? So beautiful and worth while? That life was actually going well for her? How she missed those moments, those carefree moments that could last forever, those moment in your life that seemed so perfect. And tonight, jus maybe tonight could be one of those life changing days.

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The teenager walked in again, "You should go to sleep now otou-san, it's not good for your health." The older man looked up, "Don't worry about me Kenji…I want to finish this…I need to know how much I meant to her." "Everything…" Kenji mumbled so softly that he had barely heard. What had he meant to her…was indescribable…but what had she meant to him?

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She fiddled with the hem of her dress as she stared at the clock ticking away by her door. "Why is time moving so slow!" she yelled out to herself, but quickly blushed afterwards realizing what she had done. She smiled softly to herself, god was giving her another chance, another change for …dare she say it…love. An inner hope started to ignite in her heart, maybe just maybe this could be it. Staring at the locket that she had taken off for tonight she allowed the light to bounce off of it. Opening it slowly the pictures of Miaka and Ryu shined in front of her.

Her two most favorable people in the world. She stared at Ryu's handsome face that was smiling back at her, how his crimson red eyes seemed to bore into hers even now. "Can you help me Ryu…guide me to make the right decision?"

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Ryu fiddled around the room. They had showed him millions of pictures of him and Sakura together and some other girl…Miaka. But nothing, nothing in his heart ignited. Sure at those pictures of them kissing he felt some spark for the beauty but…it wasn't the right feeling. It wasn't that tugging at your heart that you wish would last forever. That feeling that you wish would never end. He looked up feeling a sudden gaze at him.

Catching her blue eyes weren't the problem; it was always her sudden shock and her turning away. She knew something, he knew. He could see it every time he gazed into those sky blue eyes, every time he would catch her looking at him. She knew something, or at least she was hoping for something. Of what still he was unsure of, but she was waiting for something to happen. Something big.

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Sakura almost jumped as she heard the ringing of her doorbell. "C-c-coming!" she stuttered out almost tripping over her own legs. When she opened the door the sight in front of her left her breathless. There he was standing without a care in the word in his hands laid a bouquet of roses. His attire wasn't anything fancy just a black shirt and dark jeans. "You look nice," he commented as he handed her the roses, "these I picked especially for you." Sakura blushed and quickly placed the roses inside. "Thanks," she mumbled softly as she went back towards him.

He grinned holding his hand out, "Were we're going isn't anywhere fancy, but you'll like it." Sakura took his hand and the two slowly walked over to his car. He had gotten a new one after the crash and was now a sleek black car. As they drove off into the night Sakura stared out the window peacefully, although there wasn't much conversation going on, she enjoyed just watching the scenery past. She had never been on this side of the city before and everything seemed new to her.

"We're almost there," he said softly slowly taking her out of her trance. "Oh?" she said as she looked over towards him. There she saw his eyes in the rearview mirror watching her, "Yeah," he answered her, "Its just right over there, I know you'll like it." She stared at her surroundings unsurely. There they were in the middle of nowhere, no one would hear her scream, and no one would even know she was there.

Seeing her uneasiness he took her hand gently in his, "I promise you if at anytime you want to leave I'll allow you to go. But just give me this one chance?" She took one look into those chocolate pools and nodded her head unsurely. Although she was scared, she wanted to do this. She wanted to give the man in front of her a chance. She wanted to give herself a chance to move on. "You aren't wearing the locket today," he commented as he led her into some trees.

"Yeah…decided to take it off," she commented softly hinting that she wanted to drop the subject. "It was a nice locket, who gave it to you?" Syaoran asked again as they continued walking. "Miaka, my best friend," Sakura said softly as she tried to catch up to his large strides. "Some friend, I've never seen her around." This caused Sakura to stop and almost causing her to stumble due to Syaoran strength, "Take that back!"

"What?" Syaoran asked confused. "Take that back about Miaka, she's a great friend…she's just…" "She's just what? Busy with her own life? Too much money on her hands?" Sakura fumed and slapped Syaoran, "Just because she isn't here doesn't mean she doesn't care…she doesn't know. I'm the one that's a bad friend; I can't tell her what's been happening." Syaoran looked at the girl in surprise, "And why not?"

Sakura looked down sadly, "I don't want to worry her. She has so much for her right now, and if I tell her, she'd throw her whole career for me. And I can't be that selfish."

Tears were stinging her eyes now, smiling softly Syaoran tilted her chin upwards. Without any warning she felt his warm lips crashing down onto hers. His hands slowly slipped around her waist pulling her closer towards him. Unsurely, her hands slowly made its way to his neck and she wrapped her arms around him. His lips slowly trailed hers, asking for permission to enter. Slowly, timidly even her lips allowed him entrance where the two shared a passionate kiss.

Once they parted Sakura looked into his eyes surely, "I…" she started but he stopped her. "Follow me," were his only words. Still surprised from the kiss she could only nod her head numbly and continue to follow him.

Suddenly without warning he stopped causing her to stumble into him. "I need you to trust me on this one," his husky voice whispered in her ear causing her to shiver involuntarily. Catching her by surprised she suddenly felt his hands covering her eyes, "Don't worry," he whispered to her, "we're almost there, I'm just adding to the surprise."

Scared but excited all at the same time she allowed herself to be led by him. "Stop here," she heard his voice. Slowly she felt his hand leave her eyes and, timidly she opened her eyes gasping at the sight in front of her. They were in front of a pond down, a small lake even. Below them was a meadow of flowers of all different types but what was above was what caused her to gasp. Above lining above were stars. Bright stars shining brightly down to them. "It's beautiful," she said as she slowly spun around like it was too good to be true.

"How did you know about this place…I mean…" Sakura started but stopped as she watched him chuckle. When he chuckled his eyes seemed to light up, and his smile could charm any girl. "When my father died I ran away from home and ended up here. No one else knows about this place you know, just me and you. And I came here…because I felt like my father had led me here. Like he wanted to show me this place if I ever got lonely thinking of him," he said while staring up above to the sky. He wasn't sure why, but he had told her the truth, the truth about the one place he was embarrassed to show anyone else. Even his best friend Eriol.

He felt a soft embrace come from behind him, "Thank you," she heard him say softly.