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Bayb-Tiger: Well there are ...two more chappies left before this ficcie is COMPLETELY OVER….took me long enough….SO SORRY for the long wait…but I really hope it was worth it for all of you. Now please read and review! Lov you all!
Thanks: Haven't said thanks for awhile…was too busy on jus POSTING the chapter but for this chapter I have to say thank you to my reviewers, anime-lover-forever2007, grammar-saint, liloazngurl03, angeleyez1071, and miz-annonymouz04. And jus a personally comment to my reviewer, if I break Syaoran and Sakura…I think there would be a few people who would kill me. LOL! Well ENJOY!
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Chapter Fifteen: No More Chances
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Who would've known that that day would be my last to see him? That it was actually I who left him and not him to me? Perhaps you all feel as though I should've given him a chance. But I wasn't strong at the time. Even now I am unsure of what to think. I found out my whole relationship with him was a lie, my first love and my mother was still alive this whole time, and than my sickness. I knew I wouldn't even be able to survive that long, so why make us both suffer? Maybe, just maybe this way was my chance to escape, to escape from reality, to escape from the pain. By leaving him, he would never know the truth, and he wouldn't be hurt right? I mean he never truly loved me.
Sakura was speechless as the words escaped his lips. That was her mother. The woman who had given birth to her. She took a shaky step forward as her world turned black.
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"What is wrong with her doctor?" Nadeshiko asked nervously as she saw Sakura's body stuck with many needles.
The doctor had long red hair and soft brown eyes, she was around her mid thirties and she had a very grim face on.
"I'm sorry to say, but your daughter is very sick."
"What are you talking about?" Ryu hollered out, but immediately hushed up remembering he was in the hospital.
The doctor shook her head as she looked at them grimly, "Your daughter has cancer, and she also seems to be pregnant."
Nadeshiko took a deep breath as she registered his words, "My daughter is…pregnant?"
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Four years later
"Kenji!" a woman with long fluttery hair squealed as she chased around a young boy of three years.
"Kura," a soft voice called behind her, "Here's your boy."
Sakura giggled as she twirled around to come face to face with her best friend Miaka.
"Mia thanks for finding him."
Miaka giggled along with her as Kenji ran away again to chase off some butterfly.
"How are you?" Miaka asked curiously as she watched her best friend.
They were both currently living in England. Actually they all were. After the news of Sakura's pregnancy her mother felt it was best if she got away, so that was exactly what she did. Her relationship with Ryu in the end didn't work out.
Although Ryu did indeed begin to grow a loving towards Sakura again, Sakura could never love the new Ryu. She only loved three men in her life, her father, the old Ryu, and him.
Plus she was giving Ryu another chance. When she had explained to her mother her feelings, Ryu was finally free to take his chance with Yuri, his first love. It turned out even first time around, Ryu had indeed loved Yuri but his hid feelings. So now they were both given a chance for each other.
After leaving Tomoeda she decided never to return again. Some would call that selfish, but in a way she was doing him a favour. If he truly did love her, she would only end up causing him more misery when she died, so why not end the love when they still could get away. When they still had a reason too.
"So what did you think of Ryu's suggestion?" Miaka questioned as she smiled brightly.
Sakura shook her head blushing, "Do you really think I could?"
Miaka giggled as she embraced her friend, "I don't think you could, I know you could."
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And that was how I did it. Using my friends' advice I decided to become a singer named Cherry. I wanted to be a woman to promote true love, an experience so unforgettable it left such a deep imprint in my heart.
But it's been four years since I began singing and I don't regret a moment of it. Sure it was a hard and stressful life, but I feel as though I've lived it to the fullest.
I'm currently 26 and the doctor doubts I'll be able to make another year, but I still have hope for myself. I finally took myself off life support though. I couldn't bear seeing the pain in their eyes from the people that I love. But I must say, if it weren't for them I wouldn't have had this chance, this experience.
But I must admit, I do have one regret in this life. I regret not having that one last chance to see him. Perhaps in the next lifetime the both of us shall be luckier and be able to meet again? One could only hope. But for now, I'm satisfied with my now 7 year old son, my family, and the greatest friends ever.
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"Hello who are you?" Miaka hissed out as she stepped out of Sakura's hospital room.
There stood a man looking to be in his late twenties. He had dark black hair and deep blue eyes, "I'm here to see Sakura Kinomoto."
Miaka crossed her arms, "How do you know her?"
"This is about Syaoran."
Miaka immediately recognized the name and stared at him, "Who are you and what do you know about the two?"
"Eriol Hiiragizawa, an old friend of hers and his," Eriol replied while giving a swift bow.
Miaka sighed, "Fine, but please don't cause her any stress. She's dying as she is."
Eriol shuddered at the word 'dying', "What do you mean?"
Miaka shook her head as she held in the tears, "Kura's dying…it's going to be a miracle if she can last another month."
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Sakura was shocked as she looked up and saw those familiar blue orbs.
"Eriol?" she gasped out forcefully.
Eriol had a sad look on his face as he noticed all the needles that were attached to her frail body.
"I found your CD," Eriol started, "that's how I knew you were here in England, but I had to ask Kaori for your current location."
"Kaori…" Sakura mumbled as she started in a coughing fit.
"Yeah she wanted to be here, but she couldn't fly over to this side of the country," Eriol explained keeping his eyes on her.
"Fly over?" Sakura questioned coughing again.
"Yeah, we got married," he stated simple seeing a small smile rise on Sakura's face.
"I'm happy for her."
"She said you would be."
"Why are you really here?" Sakura asked softly as she stopped looking at him and decided to stare outside at the beautiful scenery.
"Syaoran…he misses you."
Sakura shut her eyes tightly as tears welled up in her eyes, "It's too late now."
"It's never too late."
"Look at me!" Sakura hollered out with a raspy voice, "I'm sick in bed! The doctors don't think I'll be able to last another year. What's the point of seeing him now?"
"You aren't mad at him?"
Sakura laughed bitterly as she shook her head allowing the tears to fall, "It was never his fault…I just needed a reason to leave."
"You…you knew?"
Sakura smiled sadly as she nodded her head, "Of course I knew…Kaori told me."
"She promised…"
"She's my best friend," Sakura finished for him with a stern voice, "and I want some time alone now, please leave."
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And it was then that I finally told someone the truth. Kaori had told me the truth long ago…so long I forget even when she told me. But I knew one thing, I had forgiven him soon after it happened, but I couldn't bear hurting him. So why not allow him to believe this lie? And after that Eriol had listened to me and had never visited me again. And I never heard his name again after that day, and although I may see fairly cold hearted, at least I have some inner peace with myself knowing I haven't ruined his life. But I want to say something, I really did love him and always will.
Xoxoxo loving you forever
Sakura Kinomoto
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"What do you want Eriol?" Syaoran scowled as he picked up the phone at 5 in the morning.
"Shit Syaoran would you listen to me for once!"
"You're not the one who got woken up from!"
"Sakura's dying!"
There was a long pause before Syaoran whispered out, "Sakura?"
"Yes Sakura, I've found her."
"You're lying!" Syaoran hollered out not believing his ears.
"Come to England…" Eriol said, "It's your last chance to see her.