Authors Note: The next chapter will be Lily's pov I promise, this one was easier to write as a narrated piece.

Synopsis: Lily's world is falling apart and al because of one stupid little dream that somehow seems to be common knowledge to all Hogwarts students by the end of the week…

As I said before I do not own Lily, James, Sirius, Remus, Peter and Hogwarts…though secretly I do…not. I do however own Rose when she is mentioned but that's about it, everyone else mentioned belongs to themselves as they are real people and have been through my week of embarrassment with me.

Dedicated to all my friends who helped me this week

Chapter 2: The Mistake

Lily woke next morning feeling rather ill and with a look at the folded letter on the side she remembered why she felt so sick, she ran her fingers through her tangled hair and stamped her foot down hard on her floor, though missing the floor somehow and she ended up earning herself a bruised toe for the remainder of the morning.

'Shit,' she cursed starting to hop around her bedroom and collapsing back onto her bed 'great start to the day,'

Lily cast a glance at the letter folded up on her desk, worrying like nothing before on what to do, she had to tell James and she had tried to tell him before but he hadn't been really paying attention then. For the past year Lily had been Head Girl and James Head Boy, they had got on in what was a pleasant and polite way at first and then started slowly spending more of their free's with one another. They had become firm friends and Lily had been glad at the start of term to learn that James no longer fancied her and yearned to kiss her, but now it seemed the tables had turned.

'I'm gonna tell him,' she decided, grabbing her quill and shifting Kirsty's letter aside, she wanted to tell James no matter how awkward it might make him feel. If she didn't tell him she'd feel like she wasn't being totally honest with him when spending time with him.

Dear James

I need to tell you something when we get back to school. Very important.

Lily

For some time now James had been awake, it was unusual for him to be up so early and he'd taken full advantage of the quiet house and ran a bath. Sirius was usually first in the shower but it would change today, Sirius hadn't come in till very late last night and James doubted that he even got to sleep before daybreak dawned.

It was then that a silver kestrel flew in through the open bathroom door carrying an envelope and James recognised it faintly as Lily Evans' kestrel. The stream of water was coming fast out of the tap by now; James wandered what an earth Lily wanted with him this early on a Saturday morning.

James slowly unfolded it while undoing the buttons on his pyjama shirt. James read it with curiosity and wandered slowly back to his bedroom to write a quick reply.

Hey Lily

What's so important? It's pretty early for letters isn't it?

Love James

James attached it quickly to the kestrel's leg and watched it fly out the open window of his bedroom

Lily quickly received James' reply and never thought that it would be early still for him, checking her watch she saw it was only 9 in the morning and Lily was hesitant on the reply. Should she tell James in a letter or in person, she couldn't wait another week and oh hang it all what harm would it do to tell him now?

Scribbling a reply and re reading it she wrote

James,

I like you allot. Please tell me what you think. I like you way too much for a friend.

Lily

Lily sent it of but was a little nervous about the reply she would receive only moments later hopefully.

James had slid comfortably in the bath and within the space of a few minutes Mrs Potter was up and busy around the kitchen by the sounds of Elton John blasting from the radio downstairs. Sirius was still snoring in his room an Rose was just getting up by the sounds of things. The kestrel now flew in through the bathroom window, or rather tried to, and James had to leap from the bath to open the window to stop the kestrel hurting itself any more and screeching the house down which was bound to wake Sirius and Mr Potter, putting them all in equally bad moods.

James read it; his eyes widened in shock as he read Lilys neat scrawl and nearly fell backwards into the bath with abundance, he folded the letter up slowly and stuffed it into the pocket of his towel robe. Dripping in wet he pondered Lily's statement before getting back into the bath.

Lily was getting worried; she hadn't got a reply back and was becoming worried. She forced herself not to think about him and the letter and insisted that she had to do something to take her mind of James. Lily wandered carefully downstairs as not to wake the rest of the household. The Evans house was never what you'd call large, Petunia was in the attic because she was the "oldest" and had to have everything and anything she wanted, Harry was in the smallest room at the front and Lily was in the back room with not much room to herself as her parents had stuffed their old double bed int heir, much to Petunias annoyance. Petunia had insisted she wanted the double bed as she had a boyfriend and Lily never obviously would. Though when Lily had suggested to Petunia that she herself take the double bed up the stringy ladder leading to the attic Petunia politely accepted defeat.

' Oi, Padfoot, get up will you,' James shook his friend roughly, still holding the parchment letter in his hands and Sirius stirred slightly but groaning as he slowly rolled over to face his best friend.

'Jesus, James, what time is it?' Sirius grumbled, rubbing sleep out of his eyes and looking blearily around.

'Lily sent me this,' and James handed him the letter to read.

Sirius read it, but not before trying to go back to sleep, and it took him a few minutes to realise what the letter said as he was still so shattered. Once understanding it Sirius shrugged at his friend as he passed the letter back to him.

'Always knew she was crazy about you mate,'

'Excuse me?' James said flabbergasted 'I didn't expect that response,'

'Well what do you want me to say?' Sirius said, closing his eyes and leaning back comfortably on his bed

 'I don't know,' James said in a frustrated way 'anything, I don't like her in that way, I mean what gave her the impression that I'm remotely interested in her?'

'James,' Sirius said firmly 'that question doesn't even deserve a dignified answer,'

'I don't like her like that any more,' James emphasised 'it would be weird if I went out with her now, we're really good friends and-'

'Good friends usually leads to good relationships, but she's your girl, Prongs so do what you like. I'm going to sleep,' he paused' again,'

'She is NOT my girl,' James said sternly 'and nor will she ever be, she is my best friend, apart from you of course,' James added hastily seeing the affronted look on Sirius face.

'I'll write a reply, I know what I'll say,' James said to more of himself than rather talking to Sirius who by the looks of it had gone back to sleep.

Lily,

Sorry I took so long in replying. I was in the bath. I have to say I was a bit shocked to tell you the truth and I have to say, I don't see you in the same way. However I still want to be your friend and everything. Sorry Lily.

James

James sent a reply back with Kels who had been flitting around his bedroom like a bad bout of flu, as James sent the kestrel of a loud singing sound or rather another screeching sound could be heard from the back bedroom. Rose was definitely awake now, thought James as he heard Abba blaring from the back bedroom.

Lily had finished her cup of tea and firmly convinced herself that James had been so freaked out by her message that he had done something horrible to her kestrel and that he'd never speak to her again. An empty feeling of regret was now starting to fill her insides, but Kels then floated in through the back door.

'Kels,' she cried

When Lily read it she felt upset. Very upset and ran back up to her bedroom. Why had she told him? And what was worse was that Sirius probably knew too by now, she thought.

Authors note: Hope you enjoyed this! I enjoy getting all my feelings out my system and onto paper. It will be more Lilys point of view when we get to Hogwarts. Don't own anyone.

Halle